SILENCE

NINE

Quote for the chapter: Be patient and tough; some day this pain will be useful to you.

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Miss Rain has officially ruined my life.

Dad was standing here in my room at midnight, hands crossed across his chest and his lips set in a thin line.

"Why didn't you tell me you were pregnant?" Dad asked his voice tight with anger.

I shrugged acting nonchalant while my heart thumped crazily.

"I didn't think it was your business" I stated rolling my eyes.

"You didn't think it was my business?" Dad screamed, his veins popping out of his head.

He began to pace around my room while angrily mumbling things to himself.

"Your school nurse called the house phone to inform your mom. Thank God she was in the bathroom because that would have been a disaster. And then..." He paused before turning to stare at me.

My heart beat increased immediately causing me to swallow the saliva that had managed to gather in my mouth.

He stared at me like he knew exactly what I had planned to do.

Like he knew everything.

Suddenly he began to laugh.

I stared at him in confusion watching as he went completely nuts on my floor.

"Wow, Joselyn. You're good but not better than me. I think you're forgetting whose blood runs in you" dad said every word slowly while walking towards me.

"Let me guess you're going to keep the baby and then when it's born you get to do a paternity test proving the baby's mine and landing me in jail for two to three decades, right?" Dad said his usual smirk placed on his lips.

My expression said it all.

I felt suffocated.

How was I supposed to escape someone who knew exactly what my plans were before I even acted on it?

Dad chuckled.

"Oh Josie, you poor little thing" dad stated taking small steps towards me causing me to back up immediately.

My heart hammered against my ribs in fear.

Ever single part of my body began to sweat.

His eyes were very dark.

Almost predatory.

"Dad..." I whimpered before falling on the bed.

How the heck did my bed get here?

Dad immediately caged me between his arms when I tried standing up.

Dad sighed, "Good night, Joselyn"

"Dad please don't..."

It happened so fast that I could barely grasp it.

Something was on my face blocking every means of oxygen.

It wasn't long before I realized Dad was trying to suffocate me with my pillow.

I tried.

I really did.

But I was no match for dad.

The darkness was the last thing I saw before letting go.

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I woke up in a start.

Thank God, that was a nightmare.

"That wasn't a nightmare" someone said causing me to fly out of the bed and land on the floor.

My dad stood by the door with his hands casually in his pocket and his usual smirk on his stupid face.

I stood up, immediately recognizing my new set of clothes.

"What did you do to me?" I asked a shiver going down my spine when dad took a few steps forward.

"Well I got rid of the baby and your womb. I can never be too careful"

"You did what?" I screeched causing dad to roll his eyes.

"I'm not very fond of repeating myself, Joselyn"

Tears welled up in my eyes immediately.

"You had no right" I screeched causing dad to roll his eyes.

"Technically, you're not an adult yet which means I get to make decisions for you as your next of kin" dad said while shrugging.

"I hate you" I whispered causing Dad to laugh out loud.

"That's what they all say"

I froze in shock.

"You do this to other people?" I asked watching a smile light up his face.

"Yeah except they cry too much and never keep still"

My eyes went wide in fear.

"You r**e your own students?"

More tears went down my cheeks.

He shrugged,"If you say so. I've got a class to teach and a student to punish. You can go back to sleep now. I took care of your mum so you don't have to go to school. Also expect a punishment tonight whether or not you have enough rest" he said leaving not before winking at me.

I broke down in tears immediately.

Grabbing my journal, I began to scribble down my feelings hoping to lessen the pain in my chest.

It only increased causing me to choke on air.

Snapping the journal shut, I immediately threw it into my dresser.

This does it.

I stood up going straight to the bathroom.

After filing the tub, I got out my razor.

I stepped into the tub letting the cool water wash over me.

I was done living.

Fuck life.

I don't deserve to be alive knowing what he does to those kids and yet being unable to stop him.

So f**k life.

And with that, I cut myself.

I watched the colorless water turn crimson red quickly.

I saw the darkness even before I felt it.

I think I just made the biggest mistake of my life.