AVA
My heart thundered in my chest, so loud it drowned out the conversations around me. I stood there, frozen, staring at the man I thought I’d never see again. It felt like time had slowed, the bustling café fading into the background as everything centered on him—on *us*. The world had gone quiet except for the whisper of disbelief that echoed in my mind.
How could this be possible?
My legs carried me forward before my mind could catch up, every step weighted with shock and confusion. I stopped just a few feet away from him, and for the first time in what felt like forever, I looked into the eyes of the man who had once been my entire world. Ethan.
“Ethan?” My voice was barely more than a breath, trembling with disbelief. He stared back at me, his jaw tight, his eyes wide with surprise. For a long moment, neither of us spoke, just standing there, two people who had been torn apart by time and fate.
“Ava?” His voice cracked as he said my name, like he couldn’t believe what he was seeing. The sound of it, so familiar, so unexpected, sent a shiver down my spine. It was him. It really was him. Alive. *Alive*.
“How—?” I stammered, words tangled in my throat. I pressed a hand to my mouth, as if that could help me think.“You’re… you’re alive.”
He gave a short, almost pained chuckle. “Yeah,” he said softly, running a hand through his tousled hair. “I guess I am.”
I couldn’t believe it. For years, I’d mourned him, convinced that he had died in that car accident, leaving me with nothing but memories of what we once had. And yet, here he was, standing in front of me, very much alive, looking as shocked as I felt.
“What happened?” I whispered, my voice barely audible over the noise of the café. “I thought you were dead. Everyone did.”
Ethan sighed, his eyes clouding over with something darker, something heavier. “It’s… a long story,” he said, his tone carrying a weight that made me realize that whatever had happened, it hadn’t been simple. “A story with a lot of twists.”
My gaze flicked down to my feet, my mind racing to process everything. How could he just *be here*? How had he lived all these years without me knowing? My fingers unconsciously grazed my belly, a reminder of the life growing inside me, and the stark reality of the present came rushing back.
Ethan’s eyes followed the movement, his gaze settling on my swollen stomach. The weight of his stare was palpable, thick with questions that neither of us dared to ask.
“So, you’re…” he started, gesturing toward my belly, his words hanging in the air between us.
I nodded, my throat tight as I forced the truth past my lips. “I’m married.”
For the first time since we’d locked eyes, the smile that had been tugging at the corners of his mouth faded completely. He swallowed hard, his hands dropping to his sides as if the words had knocked the wind out of him. The silence that fell between us was suffocating, heavy with all the things we couldn’t say.
Married. It felt like a betrayal to even speak the word aloud, even though it was the truth. I was married to Marcus, the man who had shattered my heart over and over again, and now I was standing here, in front of Ethan, the man I had loved more than anyone in the world. The man I had thought I’d lost forever.
Ethan shifted on his feet, his eyes searching mine as if he was trying to piece together the years we had lost. But there was no way to explain it all, not here, not now.
Breaking the awkward silence, I forced a smile, trying to lighten the weight of the moment. “So, what are you doing at a pregnancy meetup?” I asked, my voice shaky but attempting to sound casual.
Before he could answer, a voice cut through the air, breaking whatever fragile connection we still had.
“Ethan?”
I turned, my heart sinking as a woman approached us. She was beautiful, with dark hair that fell in waves around her face, and her hand rested protectively on her round belly. She walked up to Ethan with a familiar ease, her eyes soft as she looked at him.
My chest tightened as I watched her place her hand on his arm, the gesture so intimate, so natural. Ethan’s gaze flicked from me to her, and in that moment, I realized that whatever hope or fantasy I had clung to about him—about us—was just that: a fantasy.
“Ava, this is my wife,” he said, his voice low, almost apologetic.
Wife.
The word echoed in my head, sharp and painful, like a blade twisting in my heart. I shouldn’t have been surprised. Of course, he had moved on. Years had passed, after all. But knowing that didn’t make the reality any easier to swallow.
I stared at her, my mouth dry, and forced a smile. “Nice to meet you,” I managed to say, though the words tasted bitter on my tongue.
She smiled warmly, her eyes kind. “Likewise. Ethan has mentioned you before. It’s good to finally meet you.”
I nodded, feeling like the ground had been ripped out from beneath me. This wasn’t how this was supposed to go. I had dreamed about seeing Ethan again, but in my dreams, he was mine. He was still the boy who had held my hand under the bleachers, the boy who had kissed me like I was his entire world. But that boy was gone, and in his place was a man with a wife and a future that no longer included me.
The weight of it all pressed down on me, suffocating, and suddenly, I needed to get out of there. I needed air. I needed to escape the cruel twist of fate that had brought us back together only to rip us apart all over again.
“I… I should go,” I said quickly, taking a step back. “It was good seeing you, Ethan. Take care.”
Before either of them could say anything else, I turned and fled the café, the cool evening air hitting me like a slap to the face as I stepped outside. My heart was racing, my mind spinning, and for the first time in a long while, I felt truly lost.
Ethan was alive. But he wasn’t mine.
And that truth hurt more than I had ever imagined.