Letting go of Pain

Chapter 25

Vince pov

When Breanna fell asleep on my shoulder my whole world stopped. A large warmness filled my heart and I felt complete. I lifted Breanna up wrapping the blankets around her so she wouldn't catch a cold. She rested her head on my chest snuggling closer to me. I couldn't help but smile down at my little girl. She looked so small, so innocent, so vulnerable, so precious. It felt like the world stopped now that I have my little girl in my arms. And I plan to never let her go. She was so small I felt as if I was carrying a little child rather than a teenage girl. She was lighter than a feather and felt so fragile. I couldn't help but frown as I held her closer. I could feel all her ribs and spine under her hoodie. It felt as if she was just skin and bones. I am defiantly going to make sure she eats way more. 

I couldn't help seeing red and feel more anger towards the people who raised her. How they neglected my baby girl. Did they ever feed her? I felt so protective of the little girl in my arms. I want to give her the world and I want to always see her smile. I will do anything for her to keep that smile I saw tonight. Her smile was so precious, so beautiful it could make the cruellest heartless man feel warmth. Her smile was brighter than all the stars put together. It outshined all of them and was brighter than the sun. I walked up the stairs being careful as possible with the little girl in my arms. She snuggled closer to me her lips twitching in a small smile. It was the most precious and most adorable thing ever. I carried her to her room to tuck her in her bed. I tried to put her down on the bed but she wouldn't let go she just held me closer and tighter. She clutches my shirt in a deathly grip.

"don't go daddy". She mumbled in her cute little sleepy tone still fast asleep. I stopped what I was doing and looked at her with wide eyes. My heart jumped and I couldn't help but feel overjoyed hearing her call me dad. It feels surreal and I felt overwhelming warmth. This little girl in front of me will never know how much I love her. "Ok baby girl". 

I picked up the delicate little baby girl up into my arms. She snuggled instantly into my chest making me feel like I will die because of her cuteness.  I carried her to my bed struggling to get out of her clutches so I can tuck her in and get dressed. Once I managed to tuck her in bed I quickly got changed into some sweats. I chuckled when I stepped out of the closet. She was so tiny looking in the king-sized bed. She looked like a tiny toddler in a massive bed. I laid down in the bed pulling the covers above me and her tiny body. Like a magnet, she cuddled me closer like I was a living teddy bear. Having my tiny little baby girl in my arms makes me feel so complete. It also makes me grimace thinking about how alone she has had to live. It makes me feel so guilty and heartbroken how much she missed on. She could have had such a life here. she would have had a good life growing up with the boys. She never got to grow up here. you can tell just by looking at her that she has had a hard life. It makes my heart ache just thinking and wondering what has made her like this. What has made her so untrusting? What has made her build her walls so high and strong... 

I promise you baby girl, I will make everyone pay for hurting you. I will make them pay.

Talking to her tonight made me realise how alike we are. She is an exact copy of me when I was her age. She acts exactly like me when I was her age, and that scares the living s**t out of me.  It only makes me feel so much more protective of her. She is no doubt mine and I will bring hell to this earth if anyone ever hurt my baby girl.

No one will ever hurt you again.

I have already planned on getting Mike and Margaret and making them suffer. They will pay for neglecting my baby girl. 

Breanna pov

I woke up with my arms wrapped around my teddy bear. It was so warm and soft and comfy, it was also hard. I felt like I was sleeping on a soft rock but it was so cuddly. I don't remember bubbles being like this. But oh well. I am too comfy to care. I snuggled myself more into the warmth. I don't remember my teddy bear being so buff and muscular but. I felt so safe.. the warmth that surrounded me made me feel so protected and loved. "so comfy". I mumbled into the pillow. only for my pillow to vibrate with a deep chuckle. My eyes snapped open and I saw Vince smiling tiredly at me. My eyes were wide open and my jaw hit the floor. Why was In his bed? I grimaced thinking about the memories of Mike. My heart pounded harder and I felt like all the air was taken away from me. Vince's eyes widened and he sat me and him up holding my waist looking at me with scared and concerned eyes. "Baby girl, it's ok". I shook my head. all I could think about was Mike. Was Vince like that too? "I-I can't breathe". I sobbed wrapping my hands around my throat. "Yes, you can baby, follow my breathing". My glassy eyes looked at Vince closely exhaling and inhaling as he said so. When I felt calm and I stop hyperventilating. "Sorry". I whispered. He caressed my cheek moving hairs out of my face. "Don't be. Are you ok"? I nodded and he sighed in relief. "You scared me there for a bit baby girl". He sighed laying back down on the bed. I sat looking down at him with confusion. "Err sorry". He chuckled then pulled me down on his chest. I stiffened not knowing what to do. "Did I um sleep here"? I asked still stiff and he chuckled making his chest vibrate. "Yeah when I tried putting you to your bed, you wouldn't budge. You were latched onto me like a koala I grimaced at that and my face has never gone redder. I was a living tomato. "Um sorry"?

His grip around me tightened. "Baby girl stop apologising. You have nothing to be sorry for. I thought it was cute and I was happy to have my baby girl in my arms". He kissed my forehead lovingly. I felt so protected, so safe, so loved. Was I replacing dad? Would dad be angry at me? would he be disappointed? Would Vince be disappointed?

Will Vince be angry at me? will he be disgusted in me? will he leave me as Dad did? What will happen when Vince finds out that I am just disgusting damage and revolting goods. What will he do when he finds out the I am just bad luck. 

This life what I am living right now isn't going to last forever. Everything I touch gets destroyed. It is only a matter of time before Vince and my brothers leave me. and then I will be broken forever and I will always remain alone. 

It's just a matter of counting down the time.

"um Thank you for last night, I haven't had that much fun or done something like that in a long time". I smiled to myself remembering last night. "your welcome sweetheart, we can do that time anytime you want". I smiled to myself and let myself cuddle into the warmth of his arms. His arms made me feel so safe and protected. "Thank you". I whispered softly...  We stayed like this for a while. Until Milo and Luke barged in. "DAD LOOK WHAT MILO THE f*****g DICKHEAD DID". Luke yelled which surprised me. because I had always thought Luke was so calm. I only realized now what they meant when I saw that Luke was covered head to toe in some green liquid. "DAD MILO SPILT ALL HIS f*****g GREEN POISON ON ME". Luke screamed pushing Milo. "It was an accident and for your information, it is a smoothie". Vince, look, looked annoyed and very irritated. You could practically see the anger radiating off of him. The boy's eyes widened when they saw me and Luke's angered tense face softened. "Remind how old you boys are. Because right now I feel as if I am raising a house of children". Their heads hung low and they both look scared as Vince stood up. He went over to the boys and shook his head. he looked like a typical disappointed father scolding his children. "I thought that you were old enough to hold maturity, dignity and responsibility. Luke, you are 18 years old and Milo you are TWENTY-FIVE! Your acting like children and you both have younger siblings in the house looking for role models. So until you can learn to have some responsibility I will be dismissing the maids and the cooks for a week. So you two fools can learn to have an ounce of dignity. You two will be cooking dinner for the rest of the week. if not longer. you two will be working together until you can sort out your differences. ". The two boys jaws dropped but they didn't say anything. they were both too scared to reprimand their father. So they both walked out of the room with their heads hung low mumbling things under their breath while pushing and shoving each other. 

"Idiots". Vince mumbled which made me giggle. He looked at me with a softened smile then came to me leaning down to eye level. "Promise me you won't be as hard work as your moron brothers". He pleaded with a playful glare. I giggled again and poked his nose. He chuckled and smiled at me showing his shiny bright white teeth. "Don't worry I think I have a little more pride than that". I playfully shrugged. He smiled then kissed my forehead. I got out of bed then walked out of his room.

With my smile never leaving me once,