Chapter 38
The day after I spent the day in bed only coming out when I was forced to. A part of me wants to let them in but the other part knows that it is best this way. It is best to be alone, because as soon as I let people in or let myself get too close... I get hurt. So, it is best to distance myself away from them... it is best to be cold and drive them away, it is best for everyone for me to just be alone. Last night I got little to no sleep, the memories of mike always replaying on repeat. I am always feeling too scared to go to sleep because I always feel like the monster will come out from under the bed. I am always waiting... I am always in fear knowing that my monster is still out there that he is still hiding. And what I am more scared of is him hurting the only people I care about.
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