Pose For Me

Embrace

Pear shape

Are you the hippo from Madagascar?

why is your butt so big?

Why don't you wait at the back of the line Analisa.

Those horrible days of body shaming creeps it's way back up to my mind dumping a cold bucket of Anxiety and insecurity right on my head, Dark days I can never seem to keep back permanently. Most days I do well when I'm covered but tonight they break out of their cage and scream At my reflection. My eyes slowly skim my provocative attire form head to toe; A cowl neck Velvet body con dress Mid thighs off the shoulders paired with Red stilettos. I should have known Amber was not the best person to rely on when it came to 'Appropriate attire' Justin would flip and flip me inside out if he ever saw me advertise my body like this, Though I secretly couldn't help but smile a little at my self. My black manicured toes fit in perfectly at the opened toed pumps, the red complimented my oiled firm legs that lead to my big thighs and wide hips that disappeared under the Dress, yet gave it a lovely shape.

How did I miss that?

The cruelty of my peers and teachers growing up blinded me to the truth of myself.

My body is voluptuous, my ample breast nearly spill out at the top of the dress sitting high and full, I turned left an right and my smile grew harder, I am really beautiful. Like applying Moisturizer to my body My hands traced my skin slowly yet seductively, the brushes of my fingers raised goosebumps on my body, the minor tickling against my soft skin quickly awoken a familiar sensation between my legs, a mere thought somehow crept it's way up my mind and a slight moan escaped my throat.

What would Rafael do to me if he saw me like this?

The mere thought of that Godly Man made my legs almost give out, He's a story that never should have been written in my life yet I secretly hoped he'll have more chapters. How does he do it? How does one Compare? My fingers went still as my memories revisit our last session; how he sat with his strong legs wide open, How he looked me like a alpha Predator, the darkness in his blue eyes, the way I wanted to touch his curly locs, I couldn't help it.

I want him, I want him so bad. I want to do things just for him. Anything.

I watch my face in the mirror as I watch it contort into desperation, each spot I touch my mouth grows wider, my eyes tell me to keep going there is a spot that needs to be touched. Standing felt to heavy, cupping a hand on the outside of my panties I squeeze my thighs together while keeping a hand on my breast as I Seductively crouched down until I land on my bottom. I watch my every move through the mirror as I think about Rafael and how I was so close to opening my legs for him, the idea itself was so erotic.

Me and him alone behind closed doors completely submitting to him and anything he desires, Knowing any moment he could have his way with me while people are outside.

The idea makes my head fall back in ecstasy as my palm rubbed a sweet area that lit my body up.

"Open them for me" My movements paused but didn't retract, I kept them exactly where I needed them at the sound of that thick familiar Russian accent.

"Open them for me Zaika, I wanna see what I'll soon be tasting".

Suddenly in the mirror through my hooded vision and sweat a large manly figure appeared to be sitting right behind me, my body is between his legs sitting in front of his crotch. The figure completely swallowed my thick Plus body, I should be afraid for only a dark figure surrounded me no color or visual in sight, yet strangely the familiar voice and physique itself was enough to almost get me over the edge.

Large manly legs spread both come to view next to me and black trousers.

"Open your legs"

Both my legs fall slowly on command.

"Watch" the deep Russian voice says, I watch as the head slowly comes closer to my left ear as my head subconsciously falls on his pecs to give him more access.

Both my legs fall on his bended knee next to me, and my body relaxes onto his chest and torso. Wasn't long at all before I gave in, needing his darkness around me like air to my lungs.

"Is this how you want me?" I breathlessly moaned.

"Please touch me Raf"

I move my hands from my breast and take his large calloused ones as a replacement, my breast were almost completely swallowed by his large hands but I seemed to have won at the size. I don't get much time to think when I let out a strained moan; his lips were attacking my neck biting and sucking while his hand groped, slapped and pinched my breast and n****e. Without a warning his hands snaked down between my legs, easily sliding my panties to the side, palming my soaking wet p***y angrily rubbing the c**t side to side.

"Oh God, please, ah-don't stop please, Oh Raf " I try.

he's completely silent huffing and breathing hard in my ear while I moan In ecstasy, veined calloused hands assault my body squeezing me closer to his pecs, torso and dangerously awoken Manhood in between his legs. This feeling was Impeccable, nothing compared to the times I'd do myself, my body felt .. loved, it felt needed, he was satiating his hunger and I had a lot for him.

I didn't realize I had my eyes closed until I snap them open, whimpering realizing he paused, what's wrong?, I look into the mirror to make sure he's still there, thankfully he is and so is my bare womanhood that's openly dripping on the floor creating a pool of juices.

"Keep your eyes on yourself " he huskily growled

A breathy gasp escaped Me and I felt like crying, it had to be the fifth time but each time was more arousing than the last, for I stare at a weapon in his hand.

A gun.

A gun magically appeared making me panic on the outside but intrigued on the inside, it all went away when He trailed it from my temple down to my neck, I froze. My eyes don't leave the barrel and all my dreams come to my mind, but it's how they end make me uneasy. He doesn't stop, each clicking I heard made me jump, the warm metal felt like a hot towel on my skin acting as an aphrodisiac. My eyelids are heavy, the mix of pleasure and fear renders me weak and my body can't decide, instead I sit there and lazily peel my eyes to the mirror, where I was still blessed with the sight of the dangerously large man behind me with Large, veined adorn hands grasping the weapon like a professional.

He kept trailing it and I watch the whole thing, it moves to my n****e, stomach until reaching the center of my p***y. My breath picked up ponderously , He's teasing me. Dark chocolate chuckles ring in my ear, he is amused at me. The barrel traces the lips of My glistening p***y, spreading the liquid on my folds to my inner thighs. Not like the dream, but immensely erotic, He kept chuckling at my terrified reaction "Don't be shy, admit this is what you wanted" before I can say anymore he inserts the weapon in me painfully slow, my eyes widen as a strained groan leaves my throat, an iron grip holds me down by the waist as he hooked his legs around mine angrily slamming the Weapon in me. The sound of my p***y and his grunts are mixed with his aggressive movements as he slams into me from behind, the strength of his muscles squeeze me and I'm near my edge.

"Analisa" Justin's voice rings in downstairs

"Oh - ah, Raf"

"Let him come" a snaky voice says in my ear My hurt lurched from its spot when I looked into the mirror, Two yellow snake eyes and A long forked tongue.

"Your Heavenly Father wouldn't like the idea of how you lust for another man this way, especially the one who've lived his whole life bathing in blood.

Justin's foot steps get closer upstairs.

"Please, do-"

"Just give into him"

this is it my Realization, I'm lusting over another man and I'm being punished.

Justin slams the door open just in time to find me in my bra and underwear sitting on the bed Deliriously. Dodged a big bullet. He storms in at me cupping my chin to look at him I get a whiff of a Chanel perfume on his white Dress suit and the faint lip stain on his neck.

"I'm hungry, go make me something " a command than a request. He kissed my forehead and walked to the closet, I watch his back and suddenly an imagine him hanging upside down with blood dripping out of his eyes as I ride Rafael's manhood vigorously next to him flashes through my eyes, I shake my head out of that scary thought when I felt a smirk coming through, What's going on? I eye the floor once more of where I vigorously made love to myself with 3 of my fingers conjuring up an illusion of Rafael.

How sickening, everything I'm doing everything I'm thinking is completely sickening.

"Did you not hear me?" Justin's muddled blubber grin the closet speaks.

I look up from my self hate and quickly jutted up from my seating position to head downstairs, my legs are still wobbly and my large thighs sticking together definitely didn't help, Each movement rippled my lower parts that rubbed my c**t side to side, whatever I do I just think about Him. Making my way downstairs that feeling came back, that eerie feeling, Someone is watching me. My body goes cold at the uncomfortable feeling and I wrap myself up in my arms, eyes are piercing me but where? And who? Something falls upstairs getting my attention.

"Hey have you seen- never mind I found it" Justin says.

My heart rate slowed down, thank goodness he didn't find the dress that's hiding in my small compartment in my side of the closet.

Analisa heads towards the kitchen forgetting that feeling, she bends down picking up and collecting her Seasonings and plates, giggling to herself and begins to make her meals.

Unaware of the eyes that watched her through a camera on the corner of her wall, the eyes drink up her body as the man is slouched down on his couch, legs wide on his couch as with Grey joggers, shirtless toned body heaved up as he winced at the painful throbbing of his Manhood. The man had watched her from the other box of his wide screen, each screen showed different areas of the house; Bedroom, kitchen, garage and hallway. He watched her from the beginning, licking his lips as he continuously poured himself Vodka after vodka as he watched her continuously call out his name as she squirted on her mirror. He was obsessed since day one, he knew she wanted him but she'll have to beg, the man's hair sticks to his forehead with the help of his sweat as he continues to watch her with those eyes.

Those blue piercing eyes.