Pose For Me

After

‘I know I have to be careful, because there is something self destructive within me.’

A possession is what it was.

A new uncontrollable awakening in my body.

My body had a mind of its own, not even I was prepared, I just couldn't stop. Never will I ever take anything from Amber, I say it a-lot but after last night it was a deal breaker. The itch in between my legs were thankfully satiated but at what price? My dear best friend Amber only wanted to help me, I wasn't even expecting the book to be so hot, my loneliness every weekend got the better of me, I confided in Amber only as a therapeutical way to relive the boredom, in no way ever thinking she'd be stirring into action, or at least the way she did. At first I loved the idea of turning to books as a way to forget civilization, she handed me a book about a woman incapable of having kids, marries an older man and his son is was away at college, the son comes back years later but not for family time, their is a twist to this book and the son is actually there to avenge his mother who was wrongfully killed. I truly expected this to be a family friendly book about how she gets a chance to become a stepmom and help the young lad in his tough times, -I couldn't have been more wrong. The steamy scenes of this book had me feeling a throbbing tease fully awakening my n*****s, Slight painful Tugs in a spot inside my p***y. I found myself sitting uncontrollably shifting my body, the heat got to unbearable, the way he does her, how he takes her, hard, fast and unforgiving. The poor lady doesn't even get a chance to breathe.

A certain man makes his way into my mind and within seconds the fire in my body is ignited, a signal to my brain by my hormones kept me in bed while my soft hands and fingers began it's hot assault on my body - tearing my clothes and undergarments in an urgency that suddenly threatened my life with its tightness, one finger just wasn't enough for the hunger and was replaced with three. I needed to stop, I had to, but than it happened again, that sensation. I don't know where it was coming from or why it won't stop, He's watching me. But how? I can feel his eyes, they are looking at me, even with all the salt water on me the hairs on my neck fully awaken, my skin ice cold from the sudden chill down my spine.

No matter, I can't stop. In fact I don't want to.

The deeper I went at myself the more I felt his eyes pierce into me, the feeling of him watching me only enhances the pleasure, but it wasn't enough no. I want what the book has, just like In the book I want his hands all over, unmercifully man handling me.

I want what the main male character did to the main female, but in Rafael.

Urgent, hunger, insatiable, hard lust.

His name escaped my lips like a need for water and before I knew the feel of my p***y felt like twirling bubble water, the erotic sound was a wet and squishy helping plunge my fingers in deeper the more I jabbed a certain spot. A hot sensation began to stir in my abdomen, I never m*********d before but the way my legs violently shook as an outcome of the buildup sped up my movements, demanding to be released. My mouth parts and I let out Hot breaths and soft screams the sweet spot inside me made me cross my eyes, the hot liquid traveled its way to my p***y numbing my whole body waist-down in the process from the pleasure that came with it, a mind numbing explosion soon follows and my body succumbed to a new pleasure, as I lay there not fully coming down from my high, I couldn't help but feel the relief of the ache.

Rafael is just like the character from the book; dark, handsome, unimaginable danger lurking beneath the handsome exterior, our story couldn't help my slightly math that of the books, Am I the same as the female character? She seems a little weaker than I. Though Resisting is something I'm failing on when it comes to him, maybe I wasn't so different after all. A thought occurred to me shortly after my undone, Even I couldn't lie to myself in the end.

'What would have happened, if the phone didn't ring?'

Indeed, I touched myself over a book. How weak has my mind become, the temple of my body was never meant to be tarnished this way, Justin would be angry knowing how hot my body became over another man. I shouldn't, I mus-

"Amber watch out!" Maggie screamed along with the car horn ahead of us.

The sudden death pulled me back into reality, the quick alignment of the car that went out of the yellow lines shook all our bodies violently, the adrenaline was like a defibrillator to my heart, reawakening every nerve ten folds, I don't even want to go into my blood pressure right now.

"I told you let me follow the GPS what the f**k" Margaret sneered.

"You took too long and besides I wanted to put music on " amber defended.

Maggie than voiced her thoughts and Soon all three of them begin their bickering, raising my anxiety levels to an inhumane number. Tonight was The Magic Mike live show, I couldn't even swallow my good girl pride before Amber barged into my house threw me in the car while all three of them practically jumped me, stripped me and changed me in the car. Not really complaining though, I could use some time away from that place, from the feeling, from those eyes, they burn through my skin, I can't even see him, yet I feel him like an entity. My only safe space is the bathroom, I thought I train myself to stay away, but I was wrong, my mind will always be occupied with him - I can no longer fight the temptation and curiosity, I must get to the bottom of everything, starting with myself.

"Music please" My attempt was to mostly silence the never ending debate that went on in my head and the background, even I was shocked, I never listened to the radio.

"The queen has spoken" Margaret announced loudly like a paper boy in medieval times. I felt my ear drums shatter considering she sat directly behind us and felt the need to lean in closer within in earshot of me. The wince only enhanced the ache in my head, it didn't help how my request was granted and seconds after the announcement the black Cadillac was blasting with Meghan Thee Stallion, I'll allow it since I love her too.

The car shook as the rhythm of the music starts flowing through everyone's bodies, including myself but just my head. A happy feeling went through me, how long has it been since I've enjoyed myself? Usually I'd be home, watching tv or just praying, the usual nights. Amber whips her long hair and some smack my face, I turned and smiled at Her, who was driving, she is like a lifeline when my heart needs to be re zapped, she reminds me to enjoy the younger days everyday, all of us soon will be pushing thirty two or three. I'm still young, let me enjoy life, even in the Bible it never says to stop living your life as long as you live by God. I wouldn't even know how to spell the word fun hadn't it been for these three ladies, I'll forever be eternally grateful for them. Everyone's Rhythm starts pickup as did our laughter, a small speed bump we didn't see in the road made everyone hit the back of their heads against the seats, we all pause for a second to acknowledge the temporary pain in laughter, the ladies continued their singing picking up where they left off, except for me, something caught my attention, it didn't feel right.

Hadn't it been for the speed bump I would have completely forgotten, a black car has been following us since the minute we made it to the road, it followed at a distance but never lost sight. Before I zoned out and thought of Rafael, I watched it make its way behind us, thought nothing of it until it started making the exact same turns, Multiple lanes available but it only remained behind us. An episode plays back into my head and I started feeling a little case of paranoia. I was headed to work a few weeks ago and was also being followed by a black car that didn't disappear until I made it to my clinic. From my distance It was hard to make out any figure in the front glass, cleverly the person made sure to remain several feet away, the setting sun didn't help as much either.

I inconspicuously look back at the girls to find none of them suspicious of anything or my sudden weird behavior and silently thanked the Lord. Whatever Is going on, I don't want them being involved, the last thing I need is for anything to happen to the people that have become my family.

The music lowers and the sound of my name pulls me away from my failed investigation,

"So how is work, Any new clients?" Maggie says coming down from her high. The music must have really hit the rhythm in her bones well.

The thought of work makes my heart jump, there is plenty that's running through my mind and so much I want to tell, especially about him, the beating of my rapid heart made me breath out exhaustingly and I feel my face turn hot, an effect this man has placed on me since the very first day I laid eyes on him. My silence earns me looks of concern as I try to look away, though with my brown skin wouldn't appear flushed, they would see the emotion through my eyes and it'll be over. I can't really explain the patients file with them, they know it, though they deserve to hear about the new client. How do I tell them the billionaire we always talked about over Wine and crackers sits on my office every other week? How do I tell them about the dark dominance he emanates, that there is more to him than just photographs, where do I even begin about how seductive and hypnotic his eyes are? My body melts into the thought of him, describing his features into my head, debating on the best thing to tell the girls.

How do I explain, when he sits down on the couch, it is my body that submits to him.

The dreams and urges I've been having at the mere sight of him.

His apparitions that appears when my body needs his hands all Over me.

But with such power comes great risks,

It's hard to explain, eventually it'll come to light, but for now I need to get to the bottom of him first. "Well one of my patients wanted to invite me to dinner." I must have stayed quiet for too long only to give them an unexciting answer, they all remain quiet as if sensing I just told them a lie, Amber who sits on the driver seat kept glancing at me in a uncertain look, I knew than I'd messed up, she will do anything to get the truth out of me.

A red light can be seen at the distance, a sign were almost back into civilization, closer to our destination. We stop under the light on a double sided lane, the girls breath out a sigh of relief, as did I focusing my attention back to my rear view mirror, chills race down my spine the car is still a bit far and I still couldn't make out a face, my heart dropped to my feet as I see the car behind us slowly move from behind, now next to us. Matte black Rolls Roys, black tires, black rims, I am now face to face with the driver, however the tinted window didn't help much, luckily the sun was setting towards the North, the golden rays must have beamed through a small open hole, with that light I am able to at least see figures, chest - down.

Four broad chest's, men.

My anxiety only increased, An uncomfortable feeling pinched my gut, I just feel them all looking at me. Shrinking down and looking away I focus my attention back to the main road, is this light broken? The longer we sat there, the more I shrunk.

"Check out that car" Margaret says.

I inwardly cringe at the comment, knowing they all will now avert their attention to the car with obvious dangerous people inside.

"That's A Rolls Royce, who do you think is in there" amber says. I silently pray for the light to become green, however I never get my wish, Amber's curiosity took it's peek to the next level, my jaw drops to the floor draining my colors in the process. Amber lowered my window leans in to speak to them. Never mind she is within direct ear shot of me when she screamed my whole body is frozen, however maybe it'll help identify who is behind the window, But what if they are armed.

"Hey, I Love your car" even as she screams her voice was still euphonious. We all wait in silence watching the car next to us, they don't respond, all windows remained up, the eerie silence wasn't only that of awkward but also sinister, Something just didn't sit right, the chill in my bones kept decreasing the longer we stood next to the car.

"Maybe they didn't hear you, Wave at them Analisa" the sound of my name mixed with the situation felt like bile was in my throat, though it was only a minute it felt like hours for the light to turn green. Amber rolls up the window and steadied herself back to normal as she begins to drive off, the car remains waits fro us to move before getting behind us again as before.

A breath of relief finally washed through me once we made it, the scenery temporarily pulled me away from my staring, I fully expected this to be like a club with drink and wild women, I was taken back by how wrong I was, the medium building was definitely full of lights, not really much to describe but the decorations of the multiple advertisements let us knew we were in the right place. The parking lot was packed, on all rows, woman stood outside laughing and talking waiting for the show to begin in thirty minutes.

"If it wasn't obvious whores, we're here." Amber squealed, Maggie and Margaret all clap in response cheering.

It felt like my butt wanted to fall off, all the blood rushed to my legs like its in a race, the stilettos definitely didn't make it any better, I thought I was going to tumble over, We all got down huddling up for our seating arrangements and orders, as did the doors that finally opened letting women inside, even I couldn't deny my anxiousness.

We started heading towards the doors, just in case someone got drunk I'd make sure to be Sober, so for that I needed to remember where we parked, a realization than came to me, how could I have forgotten? In the midst of turning back I just now realized the black car disappeared.

Nothing in sight, I don't know where it turned or how, it was just gone.

No black car in sight.