Once inside the room, I threw myself on the bed and cried. How could they? How could Rai let Damian touch me at the same time he did? How could they make love to me like that? How could they use me like that? How could they take advantage of me? My mind nearly exploded with all my thoughts. I kept blaming them for what had happened between us, and I cried harder.
But the more I thought about it, the more I realized that it was my own fault. I could’ve said no.. I could’ve stopped it from happening.. but I didn’t. I let them do all those things to me. I let them make love to me at the same time, and I was enjoying it too. I felt sick. I was disgusted with myself. I felt so cheap. How could I let myself enjoy being touched by my boyfriend's best friend in front of my boyfriend? I was such a
