Poor Me

Chapter 11

Dylan

I look for something to wear in my closet for my date. I have the things Mica brought for me but I don't want to wear them while going to a date with someone else. I just don't feel comfortable doing that. So I choose a jean skirt and long sleeve mustard t-shirt and heels. I straightened my hair then put on make up. When I'm ready I drive to where we are meeting. Which turns out to a place they sell fast foods.

Yes I lied to Mica when I said we were going somewhere fancy. I wanted it to seem like me and Blue were serious.

Truth be told, I wanted to make her jealous. But it didn't work. She just wanted me out of her place. Not gonna lie that broke my damn heart. She has been acting strange in the past few days and I don't really know why. It doesn't help that I met Tate the other day and she blunted that she has been texting me. I didn't tell Mica and I didn't reply but Mica got angry anyways. She was pouting the whole time on our way to her apartment. I had to say sorry about a hundred times, sing love songs and recite poems all the way there.

Which was not easy since I'm a horrible singer and I can't recite poems for s**t. She forgave me in the end said I must promise to always tell her everything.

I arrive at the place, when I look around I don't see the person I'm supposed to be meeting so I sit in a vacant table I can get. Which turns out to be the one at the back. This is odd, usually I'm the one who is late finding Blue with a big smile on her face. I guess she got held up somewhere.

Blue is a beautiful girl clumsy girl who has nothing of the color blue on her. Infact she told me she doesn't like the color that much which is ironic really. She said her mother named her blue for no reason other than that she liked the color then which is sad because apparently she doesn't like the color now. That's really sad. Apart from the unique name Blue is...well... okay. She's not boring she just has that weird obsession with gangbangs that I don't get. I don't know if she's trying to make me join one but it's clear it's something on the top of her barket list. She's young so I guess she's acting her age. We actually met through Jessy but I had never seen her before that.

She's cute and has big eyes that stare right in yours. The girl is good at making eye contact I tell you. She is thick, wide hips, thighs and ass. I totally find her body sexy even though I've never dated someone her size before. I don't really think it matters what her body size is. I just want someone to love even though I don't have much hope for us but I want to see where this goes. Sooner or later I'll have to get over Mica because clearly she's not that into me.

I wait for atleast 5 minutes before Blue comes her stiletto heels clicking as she strunts. Everyone turns to look at her. She is so beautiful and confident in herself she makes me feel like s**t in comparison.

"Hey darling, you're early today. Were you eager to see me" she opens her arms and I stand up to hug her.

"Hi" I give her a side hug and a kiss on her cheek "Of course I was eager to see you, I mean look at you"I say trying to flirt and she bust out laughing throwing her head back "You flutter me" she winks pleased "You haven't been here long have you"

"No, maybe five minutes".

"Okay well I hope you're starving course I am. So let's order then you can tell me about that ex fiancee of yours" I open my mouth to tell her we shouldn't talk about her but she speaks first.

"Nah ahh. You promised plus you made me tell you about my stepfather" she says before ordering for us but that's true I guess. She told me that her stepfather used to shout at her for every little mistake she made. Which was a lot since like I said she's clumsy. She said he used to set her up for failure by giving her tasks that she had no business doing then shouting at her when she did them the wrong way or messed up somehow.

"Fine but we don't talk of her again, I'm not a fan of snakes" she laughs again and I join in because I don't get to unless I'm with Mica and I want to prove to myself that I'm capable of having fun without her.

We both order buffalo wings and milkshakes. When the food arrives I start talking about Tate.

"Well me and Tate met almost 3 years ago, she worked in a law firm my brother worked at"

"She's a lawyer, damn" she praises impressed with me.

"That's what I thought. I loved her and she loved me. I thought finally I met someone whom I will spend my life with. We moved in together after six months of dating, my mother went crazy. I was her little girl you see so she just didn't get it. We dated until she proposed to me over a romantic dinner. We wanted... kids, so we had them. We had twins" I summarise because I don't have the happiness I once had when telling the story. Now all I feel is dread and despair.

"Wow you didn't tell me you had kids, where are they" she gushes. My heart breaks again. I suck in some air trying to suck in my tears.

"They died then Tate cheated with my brother in our bed. So yeah we're done and I'm ready to move on" I rush out the words slashed together.

"Oh my god. I'm so sorry Dylan." she takes my hand "Gosh now I feel bad for asking"

"Don't it's fine. I'm over her"

"Your story is worse than mine. Way worse" She says seeming really distraught but I don't blame her for asking. It's really fine. My phone rings before I can answer. I pick it up and the word Babu is on the screen with a bunch of heart emojis.

"Hey can I take this, she doesn't call much so it's probably important" I ask Blue and she nods.

"Hey are you okay"

"Why would you assume I'm not okay" she sasses.

I chuckle but I keep asking because I doubt she'd call just to talk "You never call so what's up"

"I'm in the hospital.."

I stop breathing.

She keeps talking but I don't hear anything. My mind is just crazy with the things that might have made her go to the hospital. I feel like puking everything I just ate.

Not Mica.

Not her too. I can't lose her on top of everyone I just did.

"Hey what happened are you okay" Blue asks when she sees my face. She takes my phone when I don't answer.

"Hey I'm Blue. I think she's in shock." she takes my hand "Hey she said she's fine I can drive you to her."

"Please" I say in a small cracking voice.

She drives and we make it to the hospital. After a long time explaining who we want to see they finally show us her room.

I run inside Blue behind me.

"Mica!, Mica! are you okay" I say tears falling down my face.

"Woah I'm fine don't cry" I want to hug her but I don't want to hurt her. So I wrap my arms around myself.

"Please don't die because if you die I'll kill you" I say to Mica. Blue is the only one that laughs, Mica just smiles.

"I will give you guys some space to talk"

"Thank you for driving me here. I'll text you"

"It's okay, nice to meet you Mica" says Blue.

"You too"

"I'm not dying Babu it was just a stupid accident"

"What happened to you"

"I fell down the stairs, stupid right. I broke two ribs and my leg. I also had a minor concussion" and I thought Blue was the clumsy one.

"I'm so sorry I wasn't there for you"

"I'm so sorry I ruined your date"

"No it's cool. We can do it again anytime you're more important" She moves a bit groaning a little. I panic.

"What are you doing, you're hurting yourself"

"Come here" she pats the space next to her. I walk slowly towards her then lie down next to her. I try to push myself away so that I don't hurt her but she pulls me close. I start crying because I almost lost her too.

"Hey, don't cry"

"I just don't want to lose you too. Not you. I literally can't live without you"

"It's okay hunny I'm not leaving you. Ever"

I hope she's right because if she did, I'd lose it.

"Hey why aren't you wearing the clothes I bought for you" she asks.

"Just because"

"Well you look good either way" she kisses my forehead.

And I realize that once again I've ended up in her arms.