AnthonyI don’t know how long I sat there on the floor with Taylor holding me but I think I was waiting to wake up and for it all to be just a nightmare. I realized that I didn’t know if Shawn had any family. We hadn’t ever talked about them so I guess I just assumed he didn’t have any. Taylor assured me that his Captain would take care of informing his next of kin.
Mike came over and scooped me off the floor and placed me in a waiting chair. I had to steel my heart against loosing Shawn. I wouldn’t let myself totally lose control and bring on any public embarrassment. Shaking my head at my own stupidity I couldn’t believe I was still holding on to my old ways. What was wrong with freaking out? I certainly had every right to! The one person whom I let all my guard down for was lying in ICU
