MarkNow I was stuck. It took me a while to overcome my fears and accept that Charlie was different to anyone I’d ever wanted before, or at least I wanted him in a completely different way. When I thought about him, which I did a lot, I pictured us together making love not just f*****g, and having him in my house just being around me. I wanted him to be there when I woke up and when I fell asleep. No-one got to stay the night in my bed, but it suddenly felt very big and empty. I realised I was falling in love and I nearly laughed when that thought first came into my consciousness. I was definitely a screw them and leave them kind of guy, but I even dreamt about waking up with Charlie in my arms.
Then of course, I had no idea how to approach him. I knew it would devastate me if he said no,
