On The Run

Authors explanation

 So you guys have a right to know why I stopped writing for two years. So, I am here to give you all one.

For those who do not know Me and those who only know me through this story as the author my name Is Jae. I am a 14-year-old and I have mental health issues. 

  Now I know you all might be thinking 

Wow who asked?

So, other people have it too!

or wow your 14?

Well when I started this story I was happy to start the story I even had an Idea to publish it and become a world-famous author, but later down the road,most of my readers started to notice that I stopped updating as much as I used to.

  That was due to Depression I didn't even know about.It was hard for me too even think about getting out of bed or too even eat. I didn't know what was going on with myself and it didn't help that my mom was just adding on to the problems I had. I came out to my mom two weeks after starting this story and my mom was just not having it. This is where my anxiety came from. We had lots of fights on my way too school and I wasn't in the mood for anything anymore. I tried hard to stay away from negative things and negative thoughts but nothing helped. I started self-harm last year and it changed me completely I stopped talking to my friends and closed everything out so nothing would get to me. This happened all last year until my brother found out, he knew for a while and I told him to not share it with anyone telling him that I would get better but it got way too much for him and he told my mom. That was the worst day of my life .

I dreaded the day my mom found out and when it happened it only proved my point. My mom was so upset that the first thing she did was scream, yell and holler. I knew it was out of love but it hurt me a lot and I couldn't take it so we decided I needed to go to a counselor. I must admit it helped me a lot. Since then I have been trying to get better and trying to get out more. I found a better way to cope I use rubber bands to help with anxiety , it helps a lot.

I am now 4 months clean and I plan on keeping it that way for a long time. 

I represent the LG(B)TQ+. I vow to be prideful and to be better.

For those of you suffering from any health issues whether it be mental or physical, I want you to know everything gets better with time. I'm not going to lie to you and try to tell you that everything is going to be okay or it's going to be fine cause I wouldn't wanna make you feel worst. 

But if you are suffering from anything and you want to talk it out find someone you trust more than anything and sit down and tell them. Your feelings do matter, YOU Matter and don't forget it.

If you are having suicidal thoughts or feel like your in a dark place I want you to call this number

Suicide Hotline 

1-800-273-8255. If its not you but someone you care deeply about call this number you could save yours or someone else's life.

I know this got dark real quick but it is real people die every day due to depression and I don't want anyone to feel like their alone. 

Well that is enough about me I just want all of you to know that I'm getting better. I will see when I have time to post again this week.

  If you have any questions just email me I am willing to answer all of the questions you need and If you ever need someone to talk to just email me privately and I will reply back as fast as I can.

My email is JJae702@g*******m or my phone number 

That is all for now my lovely readers, I love you all and stay safe. Use lots of hand sanitizer and make sure to wash your hands daily. 

    LOVE  FROM YOURS TRULY- MAZE