Ruby
Julian blinked one eyebrow lifting. “You mean, only one before me?"
I wished I'd kept my mouth shut. This wasn't a conversation I wanted to have with us half-naked. “Well…"
Maybe I should have lied—told him yes, he was my second lover because I wasn't sure if he'd be uncomfortable knowing he was my first. The last thing I wanted was to ruin the mood but why lie about something I wasn't ashamed of?
“Don't freak out," I begged, “but I've never actually had s*x before you. I mean, there was this one guy, and we came close, but it didn't happen…not the actual intercourse." That awkward encounter would forever be cringe-worthy, and it had helped to turn me off s*x for a while. I couldn't believe I was admitting any of this to Julian.
He remained frozen, his gaze still fixed on my fa
