THE WOLF PRINCESS

Not In love

I stepped back when Tony attacked me. He was strong, even though I gave all my power, I couldn’t match him. I knew, it was not all of his strength, but how could I not win this battle?

I showed my teeth that indicated I was angry. He slowly walked to me, and when the wild blew, I saw his gray fur sway. I walked… then ran towards him, and tried to attack him but I failed. His strong body bounced to mine and all of a sudden, my weak body hit the wall. Gradually, I change my form and hold my tummy, which hurts the most.

“Ahhh!”

“Esther!” He went to me and helped me. “Are you okay?” With those questions, I heard the concern.

I didn’t say a word, I showed him the burst in my arms. “It hurts.”

“Wait, let me heal that.”

I wanted to stop him, but I was shocked when he picked me up. Because of what he did, our faces became closer to each other. I swallowed when I felt my heart beating fast. I looked away, I didn’t want him to notice me.

Why did I feel this way?

When he went inside the palace, he gently placed me on the couch. I clear my throat just to calm my heart. I need to be professional, he did this to me because he was the one who hurt me.

“Let me see your wounds.” He tried to hold me, but I pulled myself away.

“Please call, Lady Malia. It was not right for us to do this,” I said as my gaze was not on his face.

He did what I said. When Lady Malia was with me, Tony said goodbye and told me that he would be back tomorrow. If I was okay, we would continue our training. But if not, he would not, he didn’t force me. There are other days to continue our training.

To break the silence, Lady Malia asked me about the training. “How was your training? Aside from this wound?”

I didn’t know if she was joking or if she really wanted to know my thoughts about my training.

“Was Tony a good trainer?” she added.

“I was not sure. But he was strong, just what my parents told me. Look, he didn’t even control himself to hurt me.” I laugh softly.

Before Lady Malia said her words to me, she put down the medicine and sat down next to me. “How are you feeling now?”

I shrugged my shoulders. “I didn’t know how to answer that. But yeah, it was nice to have those wounds, at least I learned how to defend myself. I was not that better… still in process.”

All my handwork would be noticed soon. Is like what Tony said, I would understand this in the future. It would help me to be strong, and could help me to defend myself and my people.

“You know what, princess…” She paused for a moment. It looked like she didn’t know if it was right to tell what was on her mind.

“What?” I asked her. I wanted to know her idea on something.

“Nothing. This was not a good thing to be asked.”

“No, just tell me what was on your mind.” I insisted.

Before he could say her word, she let out a heavy breath. “I was sorry for asking about this one. But…”

“But?”

“But, I think Tony has feelings for you?”

Silence There was a second of silence between the two of us.

“Sorry if I said those words. Just forget it, princess.” She bowed.

“He has feelings for me. He hated me. He just said it to me yesterday. He hated me for being weak, but that was not a problem anymore.”

If that was, she was talking, but I felt that she meant the other thing I didn’t want to know.

“Was that you mean?”

“Yes,” she said unsure.

Maybe she meant the feeling of being in love. But, I know, Tony would never feel that way.

I didn't even want to feel that. I have gotten my heart broken before and I don't want to be heartbroken again, I don't want to ever have that feeling of rejection.

It was not the main reason why I was determined to be powerful. My kingdom needed a strong Queen, when I became the next Queen, I should be the one who protects them. And I couldn’t do that if I was weak.

“Anyways, the Queen wants to talk to you. She said, After your training, I should tell you.” Lady Malia’s words brought me back to life.

“Where is she?”

“She’s In her room. I need to do my work, may I?”

I nodded. “Yeah, sure. Thank you for your help to heal my wounds. I will be there in a minute.”

She just bowed at me and walked away. I was left alone. Silence envelopes the surroundings.

For a moment, I touched my chest to feel my heartbeat. What was that? When my mind thought about Tony, my heart beat so fast.

What was the meaning of this?

I knew this was not good.

I didn’t want to feel this.

I am not in love with him.