Chapter 9: Dream house
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Cy's POV
Inihinto ni Austin ang kotse nang makarating kami sa tapat ng isang malaking bahay.
Napakunot ang noo ko habang nililibot ang tingin ko sa paligid. The place is so unfamiliar to me. I don't think Austin ever brought me here before and I don't think I've ever been here before.
"Cy."
Pagtawag sa akin ni Austin after opening the car door on my side, offering his hand to me.
"No, iuwi mo na ako kasi ayaw kitang kasama."
Sagot ko nang hindi man lang siya tinitingnan.
I heard him sigh deeply and then suddenly, the next thing I knew he is carrying me like a sack of rice.
"What the? Austin ibaba mo nga ako!"
Pagpalag ko habang hinahampas ang likod niya pero parang wala lang epekto sa kanya.
"Later."
"No, right now! I have feet Austin, I can walk."
"Yeah, you can also run away. I won't let that happen."
Sagot niya at muli nanaman akong lumikot at nag-ingaypara ibaba niya.
"One more shout Cy and I will make sure to make you shout my name in our bed later."
Dagdag at pananakot niya kaya para naman akong maamong pusa na biglang natahimik because I know that he is not joking. Pumasok kami sa loob ng bahay pagkatapos ay iniupo niya ako sa isang malambot na sofa.
Pagkapasok na pagkapasok pa lang ay agad na akong namangha sa itsura ng bahay. It's looks cozy and relaxing. There's plants on the side, tables, TV, ang many more things that a house should have. Mukhang kompleto na lahat ng gamit, tao na lang ang kulang.
The overall look of the house is exactly what my dream house is.
Tumayo ako sa sofa and started walking around the house habang sumusunod naman sa akin si Austin. Pumasok ako sa isang kwarto and my lips parted when I saw how perfect the room is. The warm orange lights, tables, books, candles, fresh flower, and big sofa inside the room.
That is exactly how I describe to Austin my dream room tuwing gabi bago kami matulog, may bahay na kami noon but we are really planning to get another one.
Did he make my dream house come true?
"Did you..."
"Surprise baby. Do you like it? I know you like our... your room to be the most relaxing place in the world."
Austin is smiling at me but I see sadness, he also seem nervous.
I don't know how to react, I don't feel happy at all. I just feel... hurt and bad.
"But why?"
I asked.
I'm confused. Why is he doing this when we are obviously over?
"What do you mean my love? This is our dream house remember?"
Sagot niya sabay hawak sa kamay ko na agad ko ring inagaw mula sa pagkakahawak niya.
"Why are you doing this? Para ba bumawi sa mga kalokohan mo? Austin we're over, wala na."
Hindi makatinging sagot ko kay Austin.
Tatalikuran ko na sana siya at lalabas na nang muli naman siyang magsalita.
"Cy maayos pa naman natin 'to eh, mahal mo pa naman ako 'di ba?"
My heart stopped for a second.
Wala akong masabi, I don't want to give him any hope and I don't there's hope for us anymore. I'm in the process of fixing my life and trying to love again and I do like Renzo.
"I don't know."
Mahina at nakayuko kong sagot.
"Still better than a no."
He answered.
Yan ang nagustuhan ko noon kay Austin, hindi siya marunong sumuko. Kapag may gusto siyang makuha, pinaghihirapan niya. Kaya nga successful ang company because of his hard work but now I'm not sure if I still like that about him.
A person needs to know when to let go. Minsan it takes more hard work to let go than to fight.
Sandaling lumamig ang paligid dahil hindi na ako nagsalita at ganun din si Austin. We both don't know what to say at the moment.
"I want you back Cy, I'll do everything to get you back kahit na kailangan ko pang makatapak ng tao gagawin ko."
He said.
"What do you mean?"
Parang bigla akong nagkaron ng masamang kutob sa sinabi niya.
"Papahirapan ko kung sino man ang lalakeng makakasama mo o lalapit sayo, kung hindi ka babalik sakin then I won't let any man touch you."
"That's f****d up Austin. You're being selfish."
He's not the Austin that I know before, as time goes by it seems like he's fading with it.
"Love caused me to be selfish."
"Love is never selfish. It's two, not one Austin."
"I need to be selfish for us to be f*****g two CY!"
Sigaw niya kaya napapikit naman ako.
Sa pagpikit kong yun ay may biglang sumagi sa isip ko. With what Austin said earlier and what's happening to Renzo right now, don't tell me...
"Austin don't tell me you're the one behind of all bad things that is happening to our company kaya nag-aatrasan ang marami sa mga investors ng namin?"
I asked but he didn't answer and just looked away.
"Oh fuck."
I whispered.
I knew it, something is not right. Maayos na nagagawa ng kompanya lahat ng plano yet our investors are stepping back. Austin's company is undeniably bigger than Renzo's company kaya kayang-kaya niyang laruin lahat kung gugustuhin niya.
"I want you to tell me Austin, is it you?"
Muli kong tanong.
"Yes."
"Fix it."
I said.
"You know I won't."
I do.
"Austin, this is not right. Walang kinalaman si Renzo sa mga nangyayari sa ating dalawa."
"Not anymore and I'm sure that you know damn well that I can do more than that if you will keep sticking with him Cy."
Oh God, how can someone be this stubborn?
"He's my boss."
"Oh we both know the truth."
"Pinapasundan mo pa rin ba ako?"
"I just happen to see the both of you in your house."
He answered and I sighed.
We both know that he's lying.
"Let me go Austin."
"How can I let you go when you're my lifeline Cy. Tell me, how?"
"No, you have your life and I have my own life."
"You have been my life ever since I met you."
He's still romantic even though we're fighting.
Alam kong hindi niya ako titigilan at makikipag debate lang ako sa kanya kung patuloy pa kaming mag-uusap ng ganito kaya kinuha ko na lang mula sa bag ko yung divorce paper na palagi kong dala-dala at iniabot yun sa kanya.
"Nandito na rin naman tayo kaya ibibigay ko na rin 'to sa'yo."
After a long time of waiting, I can finally give it to him.
He opened it at nang mabasa niya ay kaagad niya itong pinunit sa harap ko nang wala man lang pag-aalinlangan.
"Austin!"
Sigaw ko habang sinusubukan pa siyang pigilan pero huli na ang lahat dahil tuluyan nang napunit ang papel sa maliliit na piraso.
"You're an asshole!"
I shouted.
"Ito ba talaga Cy? Kung sa tingin mo divorce paper ang solusyon para mapaalis ako sa buhay mo then you're wrong."
Humakbang siya papalapit sakin pero hindi ako nagpatinag at nanatili sa kinatatayuan ko hanggang sa maging wala na sa isang dangkal ang sukat sa pagitan naming dalawa.
"Oh, your lips. How come you're not doing anything yet you are pushing every ounce of my self-control."
Bulong niya sa kanang tainga ko at para naman akong papel na biglang nanlambot ang mga tuhod at na blangko ang pag-iisip dala ng kiliti ng paghinga niya.
"I may be possessive but I'm all yours and my last name is still yours, Cy Fernandez. That will never change."
- Writer
