The Alpha Killed My Husband

X| Dementia

I wake up naked in the bed, tangled in the sheets and alone. ‘Ugh!’ I push my weight on the elbow and rise as I blink my eyes for a clearer vision. There are white spots and everything is a bit hazy.

Every bone of my body groaned in discomfort, making me squirm.

‘Did I run a marathon or something?’ The elusive thoughts make my head spin, still, I try to feel my fingers.

‘Aa…Ahem…Aary?’ I cough in an empty room. My throat is parched as if I have been thirsty for days. I blink again as I sit up.

Bright sunlight peeps through the curtain, spreading a canopy of tangerine in the polished empty room. Our clothes are still scattered on the floor–evidencing the lack of intrusion of mansion staff. It has to be freaking early or they could be slacking off.

It reminds me I have to ask Shantanu for the Labour Audit report. I take a chance to make a mental note of it. Even then, I know I am going to forget it like I always do.

‘Kevin…’ I test my throat again before I glance at the wall clock and sigh. Four freaking AM. It’s still early morning and I am freaking tired. How in the hell is the sunlight so bright at this time?

I squint at the source of light–it’s the street light and not the sun. Damn it! Kevin has to be rather harsh to exhaust me so much that I could not differentiate between street lights and the sun rays. Now, I really wanna see how Aary is coping with that beast.

Poor mate, she might be having a hoarse throat with all the screaming and cursing throughout the night–who knows what her body might be going through. Kevin likes it kinky and deep. He is seldomly gentle while Aary is a rather tender wolf herself.

‘I hate letting you lose, Asshole!’ I curse, throwing the quilt off my body.

The said asshole is dozing off leisurely. He has to–he enjoyed himself quite decently after all.

‘Let’s check on her.’ I absentmindedly walk out of the bed and make my way to the bathroom. I take a quick shower and shuffle through an enormous number of hangers for a pair of shorts and a matching t-shirt.

I found a comfortable pair beneath Aary’s tank top. I hastily got dressed and rang for a coffee. It has been so long since I have had a relaxed morning. I am going to cool up without regrets. I must take some time off for my thoughts to make sense.

I cannot show up and risk another altercation. Since the Preliminaries, Aary is quite upset. She has taken the contest personally. No matter how many times and in what way I try to soothe her–nothing is working. Zero is the result.

It was almost hours past midnight when I went to bed last night. I don’t remember much since it was so steamy and Kevin-ish way–It had to be long, hardcore, and passionate to tire me out this much.

It’s in times like these that I regret sharing my body with this asshole.

‘Damn, it hurts everywhere. What the hell did you do, Kevin? Where were you running around the whole night?’ I question aloud as I make my way to the open terrace.

The early morning breeze pricks my skin as soon as I step in. Goosebumps rise on the skin and the coldness makes me shiver. Fortunately, the moon is still there to be my companion and I do not feel lonely.

It’s serene and reflective. No one to bother! Aah, this is life!

‘Your coffee, Alpha.’ My moment of peace is shaken, crumbled, and thrown away. I squeeze my eyes shut as Shantanu slips in, interrupting my peaceful banter with myself and the good old Moon.

‘How are you doing? Ahem…I mean, Good morning. I was not expecting you to be up so early.’ The hoarse voice makes my temple throb.

I growl lightly. ‘Oh, Damn! Why are you up so early? Where is the staff?’ I grunt my annoyance, making Shantanu chuckle as he always does. He puts the mug on the table and stands a couple of steps behind me.

‘What are you talking about? No one slept the previous night.’ He grins annoyingly, wiggling his eyebrows in a funny fashion.

‘Duh?’

‘Your groans shook the walls of this mansion, Alpha. You were so loud and…active. Smashed the whole library to pieces. Tore volumes!’

‘Library?’ I am puzzled. Did we do it in the library? That’s strange. Aary does not like any place other than the comforts of our bed. She is very specific with her wishes, acceptance, and what she puts off limits-which is literally everything.

‘Yes. You crashed six aisles. Broke two chairs and a glass table. Were you fighting a battle inside? I thought you were fighting until I heard your groans and moans…and…ahem pleasantries?’ Shantanu explains.

‘I was violent?’ I am unsure. Oh, Kevin! What the hell did you really do? Don’t tell me you went…oh, Dear Goddess! Is Aary alright?

‘Aary? Where is she?’ I ask. My blood runs cold at the thought of hurting her. I have never dominated her. Neither physically nor sexually. I intend to keep it that way.

‘I must find her. Damn! What did I do, Shantanu? Why did you not stop me?’ I turn around and grab the Beta by his collar.

He merely chuckles, infuriating me beyond the moon. ‘Shantanu, I am not in the mood. Tell me! Where is Aary?’ I growl in frustration, raking my hand through the wet locks.

‘She is fine and soundly sleeping in the study chamber. Avika and Tarifa are by her side. I have been told that she is a bit exhausted but apart from it, she is just fine. I’d recommend you don’t disturb her. Was it you or Alpha Kevin?’ He wiggles his eyebrows.

‘You almost wracked…ahem. I see, it’s Alpha Kevin.’

I sigh, leaving his shirt. ‘I did not know he would be this wild. You are right, I should let her rest. As possessive and dominating Kevin might be, he’d never hurt Hailey or Aary. He was just mad. Nothing much. Besides, I have been keeping him off for Goddess knows how long. The wolf has his needs. It all came unwinding. Whom am I to blame but myself?’

I finally take the cup of steaming coffee and take a careful sip.

‘You need to loosen up, Alpha. You are taking more than you should. It’s time you live for yourself. You mu–’

‘I know, Shantanu. I know.’ I grit my teeth while massaging my temples. I am in no mood to take his lectures. It is not only hectic. It makes me restless. It's like I am battling with myself every day yet I do not see any way of winning it. No matter who wins–I will be the one to lose. It’s a loop that I badly want to break out of. Still, the more I try the deeper I dig into it. Its tentacles have started to choke me. I do not know how long would it be before I’ll be drained out.

‘I just do not see an escape.’ I mumble, almost choking on my saliva.

‘Accepting is better than escaping.’ Shantanu promptly adds.

‘I am not ready yet. There is no way out of it. I will have to live it, bear it as long as I can.’

‘Or there is!’ Shantanu exclaimed mysteriously. He flashes me his signature smirk that almost melts me into a puddle. I consider myself fortunate to have him as my beta.

The wolf has put his heart soul and spirit in the pack. Although, he is not as sharp and fearless as Vihaan (Ronit’s Beta) is. He is just as he is–Shantanu. He indeed is my right hand in a countless manner. I cannot imagine leading this pack without him.

‘I hate it when you talk in riddles.’ I grunt because why not? Besides, it has been what I have been doing.

Seriously, f**k him if he thinks he can get out of it because I happen to have a soft corner for him and consider him to be worthy of my trust. More than Beta, I consider he is my friend with exceptions.

‘If you do not stop being annoying, I will throw you off the balcony!’ I threaten, sipping my coffee again. It tastes bitter. Perfect!