The Alpha Killed My Husband

W| Bizzare!

The slow breeze kisses both of my cheeks. Thereafter, it twirls in delight. It’s sprinting with an excitement of a young girl in a freshly bought dress which reminds me of all the happy moments I have spent under the moon.

‘Ah, those days!’ I sigh. ‘Do you remember the time when we used to put up in dormitories?’ I ask my mate who is physically occupying the chair beside me as she sips her chocolate, but mentally–I can feel her travelling in distant islands, mountains, or maybe the zombie world of social media. Unreasonable as it may be, those are her thing.

Still, to my amusement, she nods.

‘What do you remember about it?’ I ask, masking the little disappointment in my heart. For the past week, Aary has been behaving a bit off. She is either lost in her thoughts or she has her nose buried in some strange and rusty-looking book. When asked what she is up to? She’d come up with the lamest of excuses that’d make me grimace and then brush it off with a shrug.

Even now, she is bent over the laptop screen where an empty sheet and wiggling cursor blinks at her expectantly.

‘I–I…Umm…I-’ There we go again. Now, it has started to concern me if she is even okay. Being her childhood buddy, I can feel the difference. She has been like this since the birthday party. Oh, how badly I want to know her concerns, but being a good mate, I can do all but wait for her to come to me. I must respect her privacy. I know it will take some time.

That could be the only possibility. Either that or she is still holding grudges–that I’d never want to be the case.

‘You have not forgiven me. Have you?’ I voice out my fear. I almost shiver at the recollection. I am rendered helpless. Had I been blessed with a superpower, I would have asked to time travel so I could erase those bitter memories forever.

‘It is not like that, Alpha. I…umm…I am just occupied. Yeah! That’s right. I am just preoccupied with plans. I have been putting everything off lately and it will take extra effort for me to get back on track. I have to prepare for the contest. The O-First son of Vampuza has yet to forgive us. I must find ways to mend our relationship. I have been nothing but a reckless turd all along. This is not what my parents might expect from me. I have not even started the essay. Besides, I am lacking a lot in physic. My strength…you know it! I just want to win it…for the nation.’ She explains patiently as if she was not talking to her mate, but to a pup who is too naive to understand her.

She is not okay. I tell myself. I have never seen Aary so involved in administrative matters. She just sells the image that we have put upfront. Inside, she was just a little wolf who wanted to enjoy little pieces of life. This she-wolf is something else. I never knew she could take it all.

Maybe the pretence for so long has finally got into her skin. Nevertheless, I nod.

That’s what I can do after all. As much as I despise it, she makes sense. Being responsible is not only justified but expected. I guess I am reading too much into things but I still feel as if she has been transformed completely.

‘You have been behaving a bit strange nowadays, Love. Not that it’s wrong. Just bizarre! It makes me wonder if you need my help with anything. You know I am always there for you. Is everything alright? We can talk about it. I know you are still upset with what…I did the other night and no matter how much I repent and regret–it won’t change anything. But…I-I love you.’ My heart pounds louder in the ribcage as I shuffle closer to Aaradhya.

It’s annoying how my palms sweat each time I confess it even though I might have already said it more than I can count. The doubts in my mind whirls sanity. The annoyance is inexplicable.

I am thankful to the darkness around for concealing my mortification. My cheeks feel hot. I am sure my ears might have turned red. I am not the one to hold grudges for a long time but embarrassments–I just cannot push them out of my head. I tend to become a bit awkward.

‘I have already told you that it was the gravest sin I have committed in my life. I would never even think of doing it in my worst nightmare. I am sorry, Aary.’ I blurt it out in one breath. ‘I just do not know what came over me.’

My fingers tingle at the touch of the evening breeze. The dazzling moon is peeping from the dark clouds. It’s almost complete and bright. Although the sky is devoid of twinkling stars–the moon’s charisma is enough to draw an unbreakable gaze.

It’s magical at every inch. From the flickering radiance to the rising tension. It is somewhat thrilling.

I admire the round circle that proudly hovers at some distance. It fits perfectly at Aary’s back. I just wish I could touch it or maybe feel it a bit closer. It’s dazzling in a sort of way. I have always had a thing for the moon. There is something about its existence that can calm me down instantly.

Like a gravitational pull, it pulls away all my fear and anxiety. Bathing in its light is the most magical experience.

My eyes dart away from the glorifying king of the dark sky and land on my conflicted mate. Aary seems to be in deep thought again. Something is not only bothering her, it is eating her alive.

I have been patiently waiting for her to open up, come to me and vomit it all. Whose tentacles are clutching her? I want to know all about it. I’m gonna bit those awful things off.

Kevin growls angrily. He observes all of Aaradhya’s. For him, the she-wolf has always been a spectacle.

Her radiating face is pale with worries. The glow of happiness has vanished to be replaced by tension. Her plump lips are curled in a cute pout. With her hands folded to her chest and the blonde traces falling on her face–she looks no lesser than a fairy to him, but to me–she is no more than my childhood friend. That is what she has been all along–my childhood buddy and sworn supporter.

Feeling my eyes upon her, she blinks out of her dilemma and smiles at me slightly. An intensity passes through her eyes that makes me feel her…vulnerability.

Emotions intensify between up in real or it could be my imagination. Anyways, I inch closer, embracing her in my arms. It feels so comforting to comfort her. I never preferred verbally assurance. Rather, I’d always like to put effort to pass it through. It is what it is.

Only the goddess knows how much I have missed her in the past week. The whole drama at Vampuza, Scarlet’s birthday and the big fight stole it all away. I have lived in fear, anxiety, and tension every single second. Each beat of anticipation had killed me a thousand deaths. There wasn’t a horrible thing left that had not crossed my mind.

‘I am fine?’ She whispers. ‘Yeah! I am good. Rest assured. It’s cute how you are so worried though.’ She giggles which deepens my frown.

She should have broken down by now. Aary is pathetic at holding back. She’d melt in my arms and sob like a baby each time I’d hug her. Since when she’d become a tough nut to c***k? She has almost become unreadable. Did I miss out on something?

‘You are not the Aary I am used to. You know. Are you really okay? You are unusually quiet these days. If you are worried about the anyth–’

‘It isn’t that, Rudransh.’ She cuts me off, shifting a bit away from me. Her face pales further. I noticed her discomfort with our proximity. She is nervous.

Could it be a sign she is having an affair?

Kevin roars in my head, making me flinch a bit.

Let me out! He demands. The vibrations in my head are unbearable. I cover both of my ears and shake my head vigorously.

I was just considering it, Kev. It could be otherwise. Maybe she is just feeling low. I reason out. His attempts to break free hasten. But I decided to ignore it. Maybe she really is worried about the contest.

I cannot pin it all on her.

Let. Me. Out. Kevin yells. It is scary in a sort of way. The world’s most sensible wolf losing his s**t at the mere thought of an affair–I know he is whipped but insanely–it’s terrifying.

My Aaradhya is not someone who’d take such a significant battle lightly. She is a strong-headed she-wolf who’d exhaust every inch of her strength to win the thing she has set her mind upon. Perhaps, she is being too harsh on herself.

Prove me! Prove me! Kevin commands. The throbbing sharpens.

‘Aary!’ I sigh, turning her towards me with both of her shoulders. Her eyes were still cast downwards. It has been her patent expression for two odd days. She is dodging eye contact along with physical contact. Usually, it does not affect me. In fact, I’d hardly notice–however, this time it almost feels unavoidable.

‘I am tired, Rudra.’ She hurriedly takes steps back and walks inside, leaving alone on the moonlit balcony with an angry beast to tame.

‘I love you, Aary.’ The words fly out of my mouth effortlessly. I did not even realize when the confession turned into a statement that my tongue automatically speaks. I don't care about the listener anymore. It has become a routine. Aary loves to listen to it. It makes her happy and proud while I love to make her happy. It does not matter that the word does not spark anything inside me.

I have always loved the small smile that played on her lips every time she’d see me smitten with her love. It used to burst butterflies in my stomach, flattered my heart, and made me giddy.

Prove me! Kevin growls again. I know I won't be able to resist him anymore. He wants to have her. He must have her. He'd be in action tonight.

I close my eyes shut. I just hope Aary can tame this beast tonight. I am losing control. It will only be a matter of some seconds. I open my eyes again to see in blood the world red. Kevin is taking over.

'I love her!' His voice is hoarse and shivering. 'She is mine, only mine.'