An Unusual Mate

Chapter Five

Two months later

Kaila's POV

"You need to try harder!! This s**t isn't going to get any easier!!" James yells at me as he teleports eight times around the room, shocking me with magic each time. I was supposed to be anticipating where he's be and countering it. "I am f*****g trying James, what do you think I'm doing???!" I yell back in frustration. It's been two months since he realized my magic training had been lacking, and every damn day we'd be working on it till I nearly pass out from bloodlust and exhaustion. I try to focus again as he disappears spinning and getting shock by electric current yet again as he appeared beside me. "Ahhhhh!!!" I scream in pain falling to my knees. "I'm not going to go easy on you, it's been two f*****g months!" He yells. I try to push myself back up but my head and body are done. My vision is starting to blur and I can hear my heart pounding. "James, no more..please." I beg as I fall on my face. "Ugh!!!" He runs over to me flipping me over as he pushes my hair out my face. "Fine, drink this, take a nap then we go again!" He shoves a cup in my hands and teleports off. I force myself to sip the blood as I sit up. I totally get his frustration because I'm frustrated. We started off with him trying to ease me into sensing auras but it's been too long and I'm not getting it. Wolf training came easy, it was physical and normal growing up. This is mental, physical, and magic combined in one and if uncontrolled it could be dangerous. I was struggling with all aspects of my magic. My visions were wonky, almost non existent as of lately, my telekinesis, I couldn't lift a damn pencil if I tried.

I sigh as I get up and sink into the futon in the room. We had turned my guest room into a training room and I'd sadly become familiar with every inch. I'd been tossed teleported and thrown all around the room, where as I could bare get James off the ground. It didn't help the nightmare returned almost daily and I still had no idea who my mate was. I rub an hand through my hair frustrated that I can't seem to get this. I sigh as I finish my drink and I fall asleep at some point without realizing it. I awake to James gently shaking me. "Huh, already?" I ask. He shakes his head, "I think we should try something else. I know I been hard on you and sis, I see you trying but this isn't working so I want to try a new approach." He steps back and I see candles arranged in a circle on the floor. "What's this?" "Well, after all this, training, I figured maybe I should do for you what my teacher did for me when I was ten. She casted an elemental circle and saw which elements I responded to. Then based a training designed around it. My unique powers are rooted in electricity. The mind stuff should have been easy but we are still stuck on day one. Maybe this will help because frankly, I can't keep hurting you and dragging you like this. It's not easy on you or me and it's not healthy."

He led me to the middle of the circle and told me to sit. "Depending on what you react to, this can get intense. I threw up at the casting part when she did this for me." I nod and sit there as he walks to a yellow candle. He looks at me and takes a deep breath, "You are there with us in the first breath we take and there as we release our last so it's only right that we call you first. Air, please come to me!" As he lit the candle, I feel the air whipping around me like crazy and I push my hair out my face. He walks around the circle stopping in front of a red candle, "You keep us warm even when we are surrounded by cold. You always follow Air so it's only proper I call you next. Fire, please come to me!" He lights the candle and I'm suddenly engulfed in heat. I'm on fire everywhere only I'm not and I'm starting to panic. "Sis deep breaths nothing here will hurt you I promise." I hear him say and I try to calm down. After a moment, I nod to him to continue even though I'm no where near okay, I am determined to see this through. "We go to you dirty but from you we are cleansed. You always follow water so it's only right I call you next. Water, please come to me!" He lights a blue candle and now I'm drowning in everything. I can't find my center and I just want to stop. "No more!" I gasp out. He looks at me, "Sis you're okay I promise. Repeat this, nothing here can harm me. Say it sis." "N-nothing here...ca-can harm me." I stutter and I keep repeating it over and over as he calls earth lighting a green candle. "You keep us steady and house our bodies at the end. We respect and honor you and in return you bless us. You always follow water so Earth please join my circle!" I'm now completely overwhelmed and I find myself shaking and crying. My soul itself seems overpowered. James comes over and looks at me as he takes my hand wrapping it around a purple candle with his. "From you we are made and what is left in the end. You circle with no end from one person to the next. You complete and I ask Spirit to come complete my circle!" As he lights the candle my spirit seems to lift with it and everything presses into me making my head and chest hurt. I feel like I'm going to explode from the overload. My teeth are chattering and I feel light headed. Now I know I've gone to far seeing as I can't speak or move. I even try mind linking him with no success. "Sis? Can you hear me?!" I feel him starting to get concerned but I can't do anything. "s**t!!!! ABIGAIL CAN YOU HEAR ME?!" I hear James scream as he cradles my head. I'm gasping as my heart continues racing.

James POV

I could feel her power building as I called the elements but I never expected this. I cradle her as I feel her magic exceeds what any normal angel could handle. I didn't know what to do exactly but I knew even though she was drawing magic from the circle, closing it with her like this would be fatal. I called to my teacher Abigail and prayed to the higher powers she could hear me. Finally I feel an angelic presence behind me. "Abigail what do I do?" She enters the circle and grabs Kai's hands. "You should follow your instincts more young angel. Not closing this circle was a wise move on your part." She moves a hand to Kai's face which is now coated in sweat. "Sweet girl, you're okay. I'm going to make it better but I need you to trust me." My sister gasps again and I hear the wheezing picking up in her breathing. "What's wrong with her?" "Son, your sister is powerful beyond your wildest dreams. All the elements are hitting her at once and it's overwhelming her. I need to draw it from her with her permission. It's called a transfer of magic, she willingly gives me her magic I can't just take it." She focuses on my sister muttering soft things to her. Slowly my sister's heart starts to calm. "That's it sweet girl, just relax and let it go. It can't hurt me and it's going to stop hurting you now." Kaila starts to tense up again and Abigail shakes her head, "No, don't try to hold on to it, let it go, it's okay." I watch as they both glow brightly, Kaila's wings vibrating with rainbow colors. I don't know how long they stay like that but finally my sister seems calmer and is leaning into Abigail on her own.

Kaila's POV

I slowly start to find my center again and lean into the older angel. I take a breath and release it slowly imagining all that magic gone from my body. Slowly I'm able to open my eyes and move without feeling overwhelmed. "I'm okay I think." She lifts my head and says, "Magic when done correctly can be beautiful, but too much too fast can kill. It's nothing to be played with." She looks at James pointedly and says, "Close this circle and we need to talk." He nods and sends each element away in reverse order ending with air. Soon as the yellow candle goes out, I find myself puking my guts up. "It's ok sweet girl, get it out." The older angel mutters rubbing my back and pulling my hair back. I sit back after a minute and James hands me a paper towel. I wipe my mouth as they stand. She helps me to my feet and I'm surprised by how unsteady I feel. "Can you walk sweet girl?" I nod and we slowly make it to my living room. He plops on the sofa rubbing his face. As she sits me on the couch I begin to feel waves of angry flowing off of her."

"James Monroe Logan, just what in the hell did you think you were doing?!?!?" She yells at him and he bows his head in shame. "I was trying to help her. Training isn't working." "It's not working because it's not you job!!! That circle could have killed you both!!!!! You just damn lucky I felt the influx of magic early and was on my way before you called me!! When did you realize you were in over your damn head?" "When I called spirit and heard her heart racing.." he said quietly. She looks at me and asked, "When did you start to feel overwhelmed?" "Around him calling fire, I was to hot but when he called water I felt like I was drowning, like I couldn't find myself." I whisper. James mouth drops, "I- I thought she was just panicking because she could feel the elements, not that she..." "The idea was correct James but you are not trained to even begin to mess with the elements. You should have come to a trainer or higher-up before attempting that circle. The elements overwhelmed you, sweet girl, because your magic seems to be drawn from all five." I look at her shocked. "James, what did I tell you if do if I ever caught you abusing you gifts?" He gasped and said, "I wasn't, I was just trying to help?" "And the shock training? I'm guessing that was supposed to be helpful as well? Now what did I promise you!" He nodded and said, “If you ever caught me abusing my gifts, you'd give me a taste of my own medicine all at once, only after ripping my power in half, so that I hopefully learn to never do it again." The look of fear that crossed his face would have been comical if the situation wasn't so serious. She nodded and said, "So let's see, shock therapy everyday for two months to the point of exhaustion, then a elemental overload. I think I can accomplish that." His eyes flew open as he realizes what's about to happen. "Oh goddess no!" She nods and grabs his head. "You can willing giving up you power or I'll forcefully take it. The how matters not to me."

I swallow hard watching my brother surrender his power and her draining them from him. When she finally let him go, the defeat in his eyes made me want her to stop. "No young angel, I will not stop. Your brother has been warned many times about meddling where he's not needed. His job has never been to train you, that's my job. He was only to be a big brother to you. I needed time to prepare my plans before approaching you and he just set us back about six months. So no I will not go back on my word." With that she bit her tongue and begin shocking him with electricity from her hands over and over again. Remembering now how much that s**t hurt me, I cover my eyes feeling the pain coming off him. The more she did it, the more I tried to bite my tongue but when his scream of pain rocked me at my core I couldn't take it. "Stop! Please stop!" I yelled throwing her off of him with my mind. "No more please just stop." I was crying and swaying on my feet but I held her against the wall until she lifted her hands in surrender. "Ok sweet girl, I won't shock him again. I give you my word." I dropped her as I swayed falling into the couch. She turned to him and said, "Young Kai here has some fight in her yet. Be thankful for her because that was not any where equal to the two months of agony that you put her through." With that she places a hand on his forehead and the other on his chest. I felt the power surge from her hands and watched my brother grit his teeth against it groaning. She pushed harder and his eyes rolled in the back of his head as he passed out. "And that is usually the result of elemental overload." She said shaking out her hands. My mouth dropped open staring from him to her. "Don't worry about him, I didn't kill him. He'll come around in a few and after some blood he'll be back to my annoying ass student who really does mean well. Speaking of blood, you are doing surprisingly well for someone who is really hanging on by a thread here." I rub my head and say, "I'm okay but what do you mean by he set us back about six months?" "You are not okay. I meant that the circle was something I was going to cast but after this experience, you are going to be weary of stepping a toe back inside." As she walks away from me, I lay down on my couch and instantly fall asleep.

I groan and roll over trying to escape back into the land of sleep. I take a breath and sit up suddenly feeling a presence in the room. Before I can get my bearings, I'd had already lashed out and I hear a crash followed by a moan. "Thank the goddess that didn't hit me." "Tanya?!?" I turn to find her in a corner, thankfully unharmed. I flip on a light and see the hole in my wall as well as Abigail sitting on my floor staring at me. "OMG! I'm so sorry, I don't know why.." she holds up her hands and I shut up. "Get yourself some damn coffee and whatever else. Then you will meet me on the beach for an intense training." She comes over hovering over me and I feel her magic radiating off her. "You have thirty minutes or you will regret it." She walks off without waiting for a response and I swallow hard knowing I'm in deep trouble. I grab two blood bags and down them before making a cup of tea. Tanya follows me and says, "What was that about?" "I just attacked my trainer for no reason, which if she had not been here, that would have hit you." She presses her lips together and slips out on the porch leaving me in the kitchen alone. I sigh knowing there is absolutely no way to prepare for what I'm about to go through. I sigh and sip my tea stalling for a long as possible. While I want to learn and am willing to, I know this isn't just going to be training, it's going to be punishment. I go and change into a sports bra and leggings before I down two more bags as I head out to the beach to face Abigail.

Two hours later, I'm picking myself out the sand yet again. "Kaila, you are holding yourself back!! Stop thinking about hurting me!! YOU DAMN SURE DIDN'T THINK ABOUT IT WHEN YOU SENT ME FLYING ACROSS YOUR BEDROOM!!!" I am shaking with exhaustion and I get the feeling she is no where near done with me. The moonlight dances across her face and I notice she is angry...really angry. This was no longer at act, she was serious. I spit the sand out of my mouth as I stand on my feet steading myself. I try to clear my thoughts and focus on my own magic the way she’s been trying to get me to do, but all I can do is continue to be over shadowed by hers. "Stop thinking, until you clear your mind of everything, you will never get this!" "I am trying here, why are you yelling at me. I apologized over and over about hurting you. You still are using it against me like I did that on f*****g PURPOSE!!!" I yell suddenly sending a blast of magic through my hands and throwing her a good ten feet forcing her into the sand. I walk over towards her and force my magic against her again. This time however she's prepared and teleports behind me. I get a face full of sand and dust as my magic hits the sand. The intensity of my angry has me whirling around and attacking her again as she reappears. I hear her saying something but I cant understand her and I throw her into the sand over and over before she shoves me into the water yelling, "ENOUGH KAILA!" I slam hard into the water, inhaling from the intensity of the water, I swallow water and am choking. I swim to the surface freaking out as my nightmare begins to play out in my head. I'm panicking which isn't helping me at all when James appears pulling me on the beach rubbing my back. "You need to breath sis. Feel around you, you aren't in the water, you're safe. Nothing is here to hurt you." I feel Abigail kneel in front of me placing a hand on my chest, "Breath sweet girl. I need you to breath." I cough bringing up water as I wheeze out in response. I'm trying to calm down but I can't breath so I'm starting to panic again. James places my inhaler in my mouth, gently talking to me. I lean into Abigail as she continues rubbing my chest. After a minute, I take a few shaky breaths before nodding. "I'm okay now. I'm okay."

Abigail pulls me into her lap. "We're done okay. I didn't realize you'd freak out like that. I was only trying to get you out of your head." I shake my head, "No I want to continue." She looks me in my eyes trying to determine if I'm serious. She sighs and nods. "Okay but we need to talk first." We go and sit on the porch and I see Tanya looking at me. "You okay now? That was intense, cool but very intense." I nod sinking into the floor of the porch. "Sweet girl, what was going through your mind as you were emitting your magic." "I don't know.. I just got mad. It felt like you were still punishing me for earlier. Once I got mad, I couldn't get a handle on it." "Not even as I was telling you to stop. To find your center and calm down or was that you getting back at me?" I look at her squarely in the eyes, "Are you accusing me of try to get back at you...of trying to get revenge?" I can feel my angry building again and I jump to my feet. I see Abigail push James and Tanya into the house as the pressure of everything builds until I'm literally throwing her back into the sand. She quickly teleports out of my way but I feel overwhelmed and stressed. When she appears again I force everything within me against her slamming her harshly into the sand and collapsing into the sand suddenly zapped of all energy. James and Tanya run to us and as Tanya is helping me stand I push her away. "No I'm fine." She grabs my shoulders and forces me to look at her. "I know you Kai! Girl right now you are feeling guilty as hell and you are scared shitless. Guess what? I'm not scared of you. s**t happens and you can wallow in it or pull you head outta your damn ass and keep going. Do you know how many damn broken bones and bruises shifters gain every day with training? Getting angry is normal so is being scared but do not let it take control of you. That's why you train so that as you get stronger things like this don't happen. Guess what, there will be days when you will still try to kill each other!" I look over and see James and Abigail walk over to us. She's holding her side and limping even as she smiles. "Well said young cat, well said." "I'm so..." "If you say you are sorry, I will toss you into the side of your own house!" I step back as her aura bellows over me. "I've survived way worst attacks. I needed to see you at your worst. I can't train you properly if I don't know what you're capable of. So tomorrow morning we start again, you need to learn to control your emotions because right now, you letting them control you and that makes you a danger." With that she disappears and I'm left worrying about accidentally hurting the people I love.

The next morning I'm up before six, and I realize just how exhausted I really am. Even a shower and two cups of coffee don't make me feel better so when I step on my porch and see Abigail sitting in the sand meditating, I know it's going to be a long ass day. I shake my head and go to head back inside when I bump into James. "Running from her isn't going to bode well for you." He advises lifting an eyebrow. "Why is everyone up and in my business before the sun is even up?" I ask pushing past him. "We are just trying to help you but if you wanna kill yourself and your friends, then so be it. But you won't hurt me because I won't be around. I'm done!" He says disappearing. I sigh and go take another shower. I sit on the floor and begin to question everything I knew. As I pull on my clothes I drop on my bed. "Why me? Why can't I get this?" "Why not you? Why are you fighting against this? Those are the questions you should ask yourself." I yell as I spin to find Goddess Sabrina staring at me. "My dear daughter, as long as you allow fear to rule you, you'll never find your true destiny. Choose to grow up embrace it or choose to be a child and be destroyed by it." "What does that even mean?!?" She smiles and says as she leaves, "You need to decide what you want but you always have my love." Rather than question myself, I decide to just face Abigail head on. If I didn't get this, at least I'd die trying.

As I walk down to the beach, she is standing there staring off at the sun rise. I don't say anything but she seems to know I'm there. "Why are you here? Do you feel I'm just "getting in your business" as well?" She questions without looking at me. I sigh realizing either James ratted me out or she heard me. Either way it doesn't matter as my mind's already made up. "I'm here because I want to learn, no matter what it takes. I don't know what I'm doing, I admit that, but I want to learn. If you decide I'm not worthy of your time, then that's it. But if you are willing to teach me, I'm here." I go to walk back to the house when her voice stops me. "If we do this, it's on my terms, no more being a child! I have one of those in your brother I don't need it from you too. I'm going to push you hard and fast and what happened yesterday will more than likely happen again. You have to accept that and not let it hold you back. I'm not telling you not to feel bad about hurting me, that just means you aren't getting a thrill outta hurting me. You are allowed to regret causing others pain. You aren't a monster and you have a good heart." I nod and she says, "What I ask of you don't question it. But I need you to always be honest and open. The other day at any point did you tell your brother to stop casting that circle?" I bit my lip not wanting to get him in trouble again. "I take it you did, but did you express why you wanted him to stop?" I shake my head, "I didn't think...." "That sweet girl is the problem, you have to speak up, I can't read your mind, if you feel out of control, say something. That's the only way anyone can help. When I pushed you yesterday, you didn't ask me to back off before you lost control, you just exploded. That is why you feel drained and tired now. You mentally pushed until you are left with a bunch of emotions you have no idea how to deal with."