I have not seen Lucas for two days; I am hoping it is because he is busy at the club and not that he is avoiding me. I do not know how I ever thought we could have s*x and go back to being friends. I hate being rejected this way, and for some reason, especially by him.
Was I just another knot in his string?
I am starting to doubt if he wanted me the way I thought he did. In fact, I do not know which way he truly wanted me to start with. I am starting to doubt that we were really such good friends as he said that we are. I honestly think he will not want me again now that he has gotten what he has desired for so long.
But it is my own f*****g fault!
So why am I here sitting and feeling sorry for myself?
I guess it is just hard to move back to where we were before the mind-blowing s*
