Impure Thoughts

Pt. 4

Andy's POV

Her face was flushed as I looked her in the eyes. "I love you Tara. I always have... and I always will."

She looked at me with wide eyes for a moment, then corrected her expression to a straight face. I wasn't surprised she didn't say it back, because she's not the type to express emotions verbally. But I knew deep down in my heart she felt the same.

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After we made love again, I got in my car and called the babysitter.

"Hello Andy," Mandy answered on the second ring.

" Hey, I'm on my way home now. How are my girls doing?"

"Oh they are good. They are just excited about your movie date."

I chuckled to myself knowing she probably has been talking Mandy's ear off about the movie she's seen a million times. My mind suddenly wander back to Tara and i sighed thinking about how we would never be able to have the joy of sharing movie night with our pups.

'You have a wife you can do that with i***t! Stop thinking about someone who clearly doesn't love you.' Ace replies in my head.

I ignore him and his moodiness and think about my girls. Their smiles alone lifts my spirits once again and I start the car to head home.

"Ok Mandy, I'll see you soon. Im leaving the office now!" Click!

I felt my heart beating fast in anticipation at the thought of seeing my pups. Back when I was youngster, I never dreamed of having kids but now that I do. I wouldn't have it any other way.

It was only a five minute drive from Tara's house to mine, so I decided to sit in the car for awhile before going inside. My mind kept going back to Tara and our previous conversation. Should I really leave my wife for her? Although she was my first mate, she rejected me. She had her chance to be mine forever and she chose not to be with me. Ugh! Why do I even care about the past anyway?

'Because you love her!' Ace responded out of nowhere.

So what? She will never accept me anyway.

Well what would you do if you were me?

'Hell, I'd tell them both to get naked and we can all f**k together.' He winked

You're such a dumbass, Ace. I frowned.

'Well if I'm a dumbass... what does that make you. We ARE the apart of each other you know.'

Hardy har har. I'm serious! I'm truly lost this time. I feel like I'm about to lose everything. It's not just about the women in my life, i have to think about my pups also. What happens to us if... if...

'If you choose wrong?'

We both sit in silence not wanting to state the inevitable when I feel an uneasy force sweep over my body.

'Andy something's not right. Get in the house, NOW!' He growled at me.

What the hell is going on?