Sleeping With The Moon Goddess

Confessions

The next morning, I’ll admit my body was incredibly sore, but I also felt remarkable. I was glad that Damien and Ian opened up enough last night to let me explore my darker side. I stood in front of the mirror and took note of the multiple bruises scattered throughout my body, they would all be gone by tonight but every time I looked at one, the image of one of their strong hands there made a wave of pleasure shoot straight to my core.

“You need to calm yourself baby. I could smell you as soon as I walked in the door.” Ian said coming up behind me and gently placing his arms around me.

“Did I wear you out?” I said jokingly watching him in the mirror

“No” he laughed, “but your body needs to rest. Now come, we brought you breakfast.”

I’m sure the boys went and brought breakfast to the cabin because they didn’t want to see the look that Kable would give taking in my current bruised state. Plus, I’m sure I smelled completely of Ian as well as Damien.

After we ate, we grabbed our bags and headed for the car, Damien already had said goodbye for us earlier to Kable. As much as I enjoyed the time last night with Damien and Ian, I am going to be glad to stay home for a while.

Damien got in the driver’s seat and went to put the car in reverse, “Oh f**k, Ian trade me.”

“Sure, what’s wrong?”

“Aiden” he replied as they got out and switched seats

Damien got in the passenger seat, and I could tell that him and Aiden were mind-linking, I tried to focus so I could hear what they were talking about, but mentally and physically I was exhausted, I couldn’t focus for long.

“don’t you ever block me out like that again, what the hell Damien? Do you know how worried I was?!” I could tell Aiden was pissed about something

“I told you, she’s fine”

“Don’t tell me that, I know what I felt. Was there another challenge? I can’t imagine Kable being that unreasonable!”

“She didn’t challenge anybody; Kable was actually quick to sign on. He didn’t want to go against the Moon Goddess if this was her will. It was easy.”

“Then what the hell?”

“You know what we were doing, I don’t need to say it.”

“And you know what I’m talking about!”

“She can tell you herself, we’ll be home in less than two hours.”

“Damien when you get. . .”

I couldn’t focus anymore; I was too tired. I got the gist of what Aiden was upset about. Oh well, I planned on talking to them anyways when we got home.

The next two hours went by quick. We were back on Blood Moon territory and twenty minutes later, we were pulling up to our house. I could feel that Aiden was waiting inside, anxious.

We walked in and seeing Aiden, made my heart soar, I completely forgot that he may or may not still be pissed off, I was just happy to see him. I ran and threw myself into his arms, grateful to be back home.

“Hey princess, I’m glad your home.” Aiden said into the side of my head that was pushed against his chest.

“Me too, I don’t want to leave again unless we all go.”

He chuckled slightly, “Understood”

Aiden looked up at Ian and I am pretty sure he said something through mind-link or maybe it was just the look that Aiden gave him, but Ian was quick to throw it out there that he had a lot of work to get done and was going to head into the office.

While I was still held against Aiden’s chest, Ian came over and kissed the side of my cheek that wasn’t pressed into Aiden’s chest. “See you soon baby”.

Finally get all my mates together and one of them leaves. Ugh.

“Why don’t we go take a shower and rest for a bit?” Aiden asked

“A hot shower sounds amazing” I looked back at Damien

“Oh, don’t worry, he’s joining us too.” Aiden was quick to add before Damien could say anything. I get the feeling Aiden wasn’t too happy with Damien still.

Aiden picked up me and carried me bridal style up the stairs and into the bathroom. I could have walked but I enjoyed having Aiden close, so I didn’t complain.

He set me down on my feet in the bathroom and went and turned on the shower letting the water warm. He came back over and slowly started helping me undress. He pulled my shirt over my head, and I could see him hold his breath as he took in the discoloration of my skin from my waist all the way up my chest and then his eyes landed on my neck and he looked over at Damien, his eyes darkening.

Aiden finally let go of the breath he was holding and then began to undo my jeans and push them, along with my underwear, down to the floor. When he reached my ankles, his eyes looked up and locked in on the bruising along my hips. I could feel him still. He stayed like that, crouched down for a moment before he lifted my legs and helped me step out of my clothes.

He quickly removed his own clothes and then looked at Damien, who then followed suit. Aiden took me by the hand and led me into the shower and underneath the hot water. The steam and the heat from the shower felt amazing as it landed on my shoulders and ran down my back. Aiden picked up the loofah and put some body wash on there before he gently started washing my back.

“Tell me why I shouldn’t take Damien out back and beat the living s**t out of him?” Aiden asked in a way that was to calm

“Because I asked him too.”

“Regardless, Damien knows better. He should have control over his actions, even if he can’t control his Beta” this elicited a small growl from Damien.

I stepped back and looked up at Aiden so he could see into my eyes, “He does have control, they both do, but sometimes I want to be f****d, and be f****d hard. I want it to hurt. I enjoy the pain Aiden; it brings me pleasure. I want to be claimed and taken. I know they can control themselves but sometimes I don’t want them too.”

“I had to beg for them to let go of their control and to take me, so if you want to be mad at someone then be mad at me; but I won’t apologize for what happened because I enjoyed every single moment of it, and it will happen again. I know I am not as strong as you or Damien, but I am also a strong Alpha of my own right, I am not some breakable little she-wolf.”

My emotions were so all over the place that it was overwhelming, I tried to fight back the tears that were gathering in my eyes from the frustration. Aiden didn’t reply, he continued to stare into my eyes, searching. Despite the anger he felt, I knew that it truly stemmed from concern over me. I took a deep breath, calming myself.

“But I will apologize for scaring you last night, I wasn’t thinking. I forgot that you would also be able to feel my pain through the bond and after everything we’ve been through recently, I can’t imagine how worried you were being stuck here by yourself. I didn’t think that Damien would shut his mind off to the link.”

“Excuse me for not wanting anyone in my head while I was with my mate.” Damien groaned out making me shoot him a look

“I’m truly sorry that we scared you. Can you forgive me for that?”

Aiden’s eyes softened as he took a deep breath, the anger leaving his face. His hand came up to touch my cheek.

“You are my whole reason for living. If something happened to you, I wouldn’t be able to continue.”

“I feel the same way. I love you Aiden.”

His hands grabbed my thighs and carefully picked me up. My legs instinctively wrapping around his waist and my arms wrapping around his neck. He stepped back to the seat in the shower and sat down keeping me in his lap. He brought his forehead and rested it against mine.

“I can’t tell you that I’d be comfortable taking your body so violently, it’s not really in my nature. Yeah, I grew up with Damien and Ian, but I was raised differently than they were. But as long as I know that you’ll be careful, I won’t say anything further on the matter if that is what you want.”

My hands and fingers laced in his hair and ran along his neck.

“Thank you, and I don’t want you to be. I need all of you exactly how each of you are.”

I pulled my head down and gently kissed his lips. He kissed me back sweetly but when I tried to deepen the kiss for more he pulled away.

“Your body needs to rest.” His eyes were pleading with me “Please?”

As much as I wanted him, I also wanted to respect his wishes.

"Okay" I whispered.

“Thank you, now let’s finish getting you cleaned up.”

Aiden stood back up and placed me back on my feet as he continued to wash my body. Damien came over and washed my hair.

“I missed you” Aiden said as he gently massaged my back, he looked up at Damien, “You too, you i***t”

“Does this mean you're done being mad at me?” Damien asked in a fun kind of way.

“Haven’t decided yet” Aiden said pretending to still be upset but his smile gave him away.

We finished in the shower and went and got dressed for the office.

“Do you want to grab something to eat on the way?”

“Can we talk first? Before we leave?”

“Uh sure, of course baby girl. Do want to sit?” Damien gestured over to the sitting area. I walked over and sat down only to be lifted and placed back down on Aiden’s lap. I was grateful for that; his scent will hopefully help me from going into another panic attack.

“What do you want to talk about princess?”

“I want to ask you guys about pups?”

“Should we wait until later when Ian’s here?” Damien asked

“Actually, I’d rather talk to you guys alone first if that’s ok?”

“Of course”

“I don’t know if you guys have thought about pups or when you were wanting them, but I hadn’t really thought them at all until yesterday and then I had that panic attack and I just need to know a few things.”

They both nodded silently and let me continue.

“I know that both of you have accepted Ian as my other mate, but you guys are still the Alpha’s of this pack. Would you want any pup that I carry to be fathered by only the two of you? Do you think you could accept it if belonged to Ian? Would that matter? My next heat would you keep him away? What if somehow, I get pregnant out of heat and we weren’t sure? I mean wh. . .”

“Woah, Slow down baby girl.” Damien said halting my never-ending line of questioning.

He looked over at Aiden for a moment before Aiden spoke.

“I have thought about pups, yes. But I never would have guessed you having a third mate and to be honest I hadn’t really considered that yet. Why don’t you give Damien and I some time to talk about it together and then we can all sit down and go from there?”

“Okay” I didn’t really get any answers to my questions but knowing that I would soon, did help to alleviate some of the anxiety.

We all got in the car and headed towards their office, as we were driving, Ian had linked to let us know there was an update on Ronan.