Sleeping With The Moon Goddess

Embracing The Pain

Camille

I did as instructed, closing my eyes before another powerful blow came to my collarbone; followed by another, this time to the other side of my jaw, knocking me back several steps back.

Another punch came swiftly to my hip bone, “do not bother attempting to fight back until you have freed yourself of your pain, because if you haven’t, your judgment will remain clouded and your mind unclear.”

I tried hard to focus on what he was telling me to do, calling my wolf forward in my mind to take my pain. He landed a few more punches, the most painful one to the back of my shoulder blade, knocking me forward and almost dropping me to my knees, but I knew I couldn’t fall. No matter how hard or painful his hits were, I had to keep myself standing.

His strikes were planned and thought out; he knew the extent of each injury he had caused and did not strike twice in a spot where the results would have been too severe.

He lunged at my side, bringing out his claws and ripping my skin in several places. I could feel the warmth of blood running down my side. Suddenly, I felt a presence in my head. I think it was Ian’s wolf trying to help me. ‘ You are in command of your wolf, you are the Alpha’, and suddenly that feeling was gone.

I needed to accept the pain. A punch above my right eye socket brought forth more blood but this time it hurt a little less. ‘Take my pain’, I commanded my wolf. Another kick to my thigh bone, possibly fracturing my femur. I could feel the slight crack and shift of the bone. I made myself aware of it but this time I did not allow myself to feel the pain. ‘Take my pain’, I commanded again.

I made my body numb, no longer capable of feeling. Snapping my eyes open, I caught Ian midway through a punch to my side. At lightning speed, I blocked his attempt and turned my body to the side.

I was ready

We continued to fight one another brutally for several more minutes. In turn, I heard a few of his ribs crack as well as a few other bones. I was able to tear some of his skin in a few places, bringing about blood for blood.

“Is your body exhausted yet, Luna?”

I actually was feeling the effects of my injuries in the form of weakness and exhaustion, but I did not voice this, he didn’t need me to. He knew.

“Now you will have to learn to push through that exhaustion.”

With his next strike, he wrapped an arm around me and took me down onto the mat with him on top of me, pinning me down. Any warrior knows the worst place to be in a fight is on your back. Ian let me take the full weight of his body on my chest, making it difficult to breathe. I tried to push him off, but he barely even budged. Panic started to set in when I realized that I couldn’t throw him off of me.

“You can be matched in skill to an Alpha, but you will never match the weight of a man three times your size. Do you know what an enemy would do to you in battle if given the chance, Luna?”

Keeping his weight against my hips to keep me pinned down, he first shoved one leg on the inside of my thigh and then brought his other leg down, spreading my legs open with his knees. He relaxed his body down on me even more, pushing his c**k against my core. I couldn’t help but notice that he was definitely blessed like my mates in that department.

“Remember Luna, regardless of your size, you are not helpless. You still have the ability to think.”

He ran one hand up my side and placed it around my throat, slowly he began to apply pressure. “Think Luna, remember your training!” he commanded.

He then brought his other hand up my side, the side my mates couldn't see, squeezing my broken ribs slightly, and then slowly pushing his hand towards my breast.

“Do you want to be taken like this on the battlefield before you die?” Ian whispered down into my ear.

‘Think Camille! Think damn it! What did Damien teach you?’ Ian then brought his hand to my breast and squeezed hard, there was nothing pleasurable about it. That was the point. These other Alphas would take by force.

He ground his pelvis harder down onto mine. That’s it! Use his body weight against him. I just needed leverage and his weight stabilizing my hips gave me just that. I hooked my right leg over his, pinning his leg straight, collapsed his arm, and then I bucked my hips up and to the side, rolling him off of me by taking away his stability. Sprawling my legs out, I made it near impossible for him to roll back on top of me. I kicked away from him and immediately stood back up.

“Good,” he said, standing back up, “and now you know what happens when you let me take you to the floor.”

Within a few minutes, he took me to the ground again. This time I was flat on my stomach, and he was lying down on top of my back; his hips against my ass. I had to force myself not to struggle by not trying to push him off of me using brute strength. I had to think.

He managed to take me to the ground a few more times and each time I managed to get back up on my feet, but each time unsure if I possessed the strength needed to make it through one more time.

“Don’t let your body tire on you. Find strength in your wolf.”

I tried to once again focus and call on my wolf for more strength. I had multiple broken bones throughout my body, the mat beneath us was splattered with blood and I’m pretty sure my body was one giant swollen bruise.

“We are going to fight again. Find your strength because there will be no holding back. You are to fight with everything you have until I tell you to stop, is that understood?”

I closed my eyes for a brief second, oh Moon Goddess give me strength!

“Yes.”

When I opened them again, it was as if a warm glow flowed all through my body, taking away the exhaustion from my bruised and broken limbs. This glow was soothing.

We fought hard with one another, neither of us backing down and neither of us slowing down. This went on for a while before Ian put his hand up in the air, causing me to stop.

“The session is now over.”

He walked over towards me and gently placed his arms around me in a warm embrace, careful not to hurt me. I couldn’t help the tears that escaped and rolled down my cheeks against his chest.

“Well done, Luna, that was exceptional.” He gave my forehead a quick kiss. For being sweaty and beat to hell, damn did he smell good. The intoxication almost made me dizzy.