My Lost Spirit-Mate

7. It's Time

I lock my bedroom door behind me.

William left me there, wishing me good luck and went to his own room afterwards. He genuinely seemed stressed and I do understand him.

What if our spirits are not werewolves ? What if we turn fairies or witches ? Or worst vampires ?

Vampires were always our natural enemies. They are cold, pale and calculating beings, as werewolves are warm, most of the time tanned because of our outdoor activities and very prompt to succumb to their instincts and feelings. Perfect opposites that really do not live in perfect harmony, as vampires are still members and inhabitants of the Forest of Evergreen, they actually live away from the rest of the creatures, to avoid problems linked to their thirst for blood. Most of the time, they go hunting on human grounds, and let’s say it, that is pretty disgusting. That is why they don’t really interact with any other creatures in the Forest.

I look at the clock on my wall and it’s three minutes to midnight.

I have never been this afraid in my entire life.

I really don’t want to leave my family and my friends to join another group. Even if I could still come and visit, I think taking my distance from my brother and father or even Alice would be very complicated and hurtful for me. After my mom died, they were all I had !

And Xander…

I know I should not be thinking something like that but he has been so good to me tonight and by the stream earlier today. And I am sure now that he was not just friendly with me. The way he looked at me with his amazing emerald eyes could not be mistaken. I know he was interested in me, he was warm and sexy. OH GOD. He is sexy as hell. And the fact that he could be into me was perhaps just an impression, but I really wished it was true. The man was muscular, clever, powerful and handsome. What more can you ask for in a guy ?

But the main problem was that he was not single and, obviously, even if he stopped ignoring me this past week and was clearly flirting with me, he wasn’t planning on breaking up with Julie. He was still taken and I had to deal with that fact before I got hurt.

A sharp pain in my head interrupts my train of thoughts and I look again at the clock on the wall : midnight. I try to go to my bed so maybe the headache would be more bearable but I trip on the white box, left on the floor, that used to contain the dress I’m currently wearing and fall miserably on the carpet.

I feel something warm in my neck and it slowly spreads down my back, then through my arms and my legs. The warmth distracts me and I try to concentrate on this while I feel like my brain is going to come out of my ears.

The pain in my head intensifies, and while I try again to get to my bed, I hear a voice coming from inside me.

- “Stop fighting it, it will be easier if you let go”

The voice is deep and powerful. That’s my spirit ! My spirit is talking to me !

I decide to remain on the floor of my bedroom and while I am starting to relax and to follow the advice of my spirit, I feel a wave of pain not only in my head this time but in my whole body and the warmth from before completely disappeared. I squeeze my fists and arch my back in an attempt to endure the suffering but nothing helps me dealing with the horrible agony I am in. It’s getting worst by the minute and I don’t know how long I can keep dealing with the stabbing pain. At one point after what seems like an eternity of misery, I realise that it is not going to stop, that maybe this is the way everything is going to end. This might be the way I die.

A scream escapes my mouth and I can’t stop myself from shouting at the top of my lungs. I want it to stop. I want it to end.

And then I black out.

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Alexander POV :

I don’t know what got into me.

Since the moment I turned, my spirit, Dagda, has been restless.

He is so powerful, he told me he used to be a divinity in his first life, when he had his own body and that obviously he wasn’t really a big fan of the whole “sharing a body with someone else's” thing.

Dagda tried to take control a few times at the beginning but he gave up when we came to an understanding. Well, it was rather a deal I must say.

He was obsessed with the idea of finding back his first wife, the one he had a long time ago, back to his time as a living and breathing being. He already tried in his past lives to find her but each of his bodies gave up to marry and mate someone else. Which seemed strange to me because, even if we can find our spirit-mates, most of us just happen to find them when we are young and for the others, they give up a few years later and settle with someone suitable for them, so they can have a family and be happy. But Dadga didn’t want anyone else, he was so fixated on the idea of being reunited with her that for the past month after I turned, I couldn’t stop thinking about it. I even tried to create a diversion for Dagda and me in dating some gorgeous girls but there was nothing to do. He wouldn’t stop talking about it.

So after a month of this comedy, we came to an agreement : he would let me a year to date any girl I would want, to try and see if he would be happy with someone else's spirit and IF it turned out wo didn't meet another spirit-mate, I will do everything in my power to find the girl he wanted.

Well, at first he wasn't really on board but after a week of reflexion, he finally agreed, saying of course that it was a loss of time but that I was young and naive and he would give me a chance to enjoy myself, being the young pup that I was. What a douche ...

But quickly after the beginning of our arrangement, my spirit started to be interested in Mackenzie. Everytime we were near her, he was telling me that she made him think of his first wife, that there was a fire in her that he liked. I really didn't want to be too focused on her, because Mackenzie was always part of the family. When I was younger, I used to see her like a fragile little sister, someone I should protect. And she was always so nice to me. Then we grew up and by the age of 15, I started to see her as a future woman, with her amazing curves and her beautiful features. She was taking more and more space in my mind, and at one point, I had a massive crush on her. But she didn't really seem into it and I didn't want to force anything. More than that, it was a complicated situation : she was the daughter of the Beta, the sister of my best friend and future Beta and I didn't want to mess that up. She deserved the best, and the chance to find a man who would make her happy. And because I was still thinking that, I tried so hard to put distance between us when I noticed Dagda started to like her a little too much. She wasn't our spirit-mate, or at least we didn't know if she was, and I didn't want to have high hopes in a story that would not be working at the end of the day. I also didn't want to hurt her. In any way.

So I was currently dating Julie, the beautiful and sexy-as-hell Julie. I know that every guy wants to be in my shoes right now for she is surely the most attractive girl at school. Well for the others probably, but not for me. Don’t get me wrong, I like Julie in some ways, she is very confident and I think she genuinely likes me. Unfortunately, she is also very self-centered and even if it's just to pass the time, she was starting to get on my nerves...

A loud scream coming from upstairs pulls me off of my train of thoughts.

Oh sh*t, Mackenzie.