Chapter 6 – His Weakness
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The office felt wrong without him.
That was the first thought that surfaced the moment I stepped inside. The chair stood empty, restraints untouched, the air strangely still—as if the room itself were waiting for something that wasn’t coming.
I closed the door behind me harder than necessary.
The sound echoed.
Too loud.
This was temporary.
That was the rule I repeated as I set my bag down, aligned the files on my desk, and reviewed the day’s schedule with deliberate precision. Two days. Forty-eight hours. Short enough to be corrective. Long enough to disrupt unhealthy dependency.
Controlled.
Safe.
Still, my body refused to settle. My shoulders stayed tight, my jaw faintly sore. When I poured myself coffee from the small machine in the corner, my hands trembled just enough for the surface to ripple.
I noticed.
I ignored it.
The morning passed in fragments. A routine check-in. A brief evaluation. Words spoken, notes written. My voice sounded calm, steady—exactly as it should.
No one questioned my judgment.
That should have reassured me.
It didn’t.
Dave stopped by just after noon.
He didn’t knock. He never did. He leaned against the doorframe, arms crossed loosely, his gaze sweeping the room before settling on me. I felt it immediately—the way my spine straightened, the way my breathing adjusted. As if my body recognized him as a variable.
“You’re quiet today,” he said.
“I’m working.”
He nodded, accepting the answer on the surface. Then, after a pause that stretched just long enough to matter, “How’s he doing?”
I didn’t ask who.
“How would I know?” I replied, keeping my tone neutral.
Dave’s mouth twitched—not quite a smile. “You don’t usually isolate someone without checking.”
“I made a clinical decision,” I said. “Monitoring is handled by staff.”
“That’s not what I asked.”
I looked up then.
Dave met my gaze steadily. Not accusing. Not confrontational.
Concerned.
“He hasn’t caused any trouble,” he continued. “No banging. No shouting. No requests.”
My stomach tightened, a slow, uncomfortable pull.
“That’s good,” I said.
“That’s not normal,” he replied.
I leaned back slowly, folding my hands together to still them. The skin of my palms felt warm, almost restless. “Explain.”
Dave hesitated, choosing his words with care.
“Most men react to isolation the same way,” he said. “Anger. Panic. Noise. They fight it.”
“And Santiago?” I asked.
“He goes quiet.”
The word settled between us, heavy.
“How quiet?” I asked.
Dave exhaled. “Too quiet. He sits. He waits. Doesn’t sleep much. Doesn’t pace. Doesn’t ask for anything.”
A faint chill crept up my arms.
“That doesn’t mean—”
“It means he’s used to being abandoned,” Dave cut in gently. “And he learned a long time ago that noise doesn’t bring people back.”
The sentence slid into me, cold and precise.
“You’re speculating,” I said.
“No,” he replied. “I’ve been here a long time.”
I looked away, my gaze fixing on the empty chair. It felt larger without him, heavier.
“That kind of silence,” Dave continued, “isn’t resilience. It’s adaptation.”
The word echoed.
Adaptation.
I pressed my palms flat against the desk, grounding myself in the solid surface. “He’s manipulative. You know that.”
“Yes,” Dave agreed. “But that doesn’t mean he’s lying about everything.”
I swallowed, feeling the motion all the way down.
Dave shifted his weight. “You want to know his weakness?”
My chest tightened reflexively.
“No,” I said too quickly.
Dave raised an eyebrow. “You sure?”
The answer hovered, sharp and dangerous.
Yes meant ignorance.
No meant responsibility.
“Yes,” I said again, quieter. “Tell me.”
Dave stepped into the room and lowered his voice—not because anyone was listening, but because this wasn’t something he shared lightly.
“He doesn’t fear darkness,” he said. “Or confinement. Or pain.”
I stayed silent.
“He fears being erased,” Dave continued. “Not punished. Forgotten.”
My breathing slowed, my body responding before my mind could frame a reply.
“He needs one fixed point,” Dave said. “One person who stays consistent. Takes that away, and he doesn’t break loudly.”
He paused.
“He unravels quietly.”
I closed my eyes for a brief second.
Isolation wasn’t punishment.
It was removal.
“So he doesn’t need violence to destabilize him,” I said slowly. “He needs absence.”
Dave nodded. “Exactly.”
I opened my eyes.
“And how long,” I asked, “before that becomes dangerous?”
Dave held my gaze. “Depends how much he’s already attached.”
The word struck deep.
Attached.
I stood abruptly, moving away from the desk. My legs felt heavy, uncooperative, as if gravity had shifted without warning.
“This isn’t about attachment,” I said. “It’s about boundaries.”
“Maybe,” Dave replied. “But boundaries don’t usually make people disappear like that.”
I turned back to him. “You’re suggesting I made the wrong call.”
“No,” he said carefully. “I’m saying you made a powerful one.”
The distinction made my stomach twist.
Power.
“That’s not what I want,” I said.
Dave studied me for a long moment. “Then be careful what you take away.”
He left without another word.
The office felt colder after he was gone.
I sat down slowly, staring at the empty chair. My pulse thudded in my ears, steady but insistent.
Isolation had been my decision.
I told myself it was for safety. For control. For his own good.
But control, I was learning, came with consequences.
I checked the logs later that afternoon.
No incidents.
No notes.
Just time passing.
The absence felt louder than noise.
When I finally went home, the weight followed me. It pressed into my chest while I cooked dinner. While I listened to my daughter chatter about her day. While I tucked her into bed and lingered longer than necessary, my hand resting against her back until her breathing slowed.
Stability mattered.
Presence mattered.
That was the problem.
That night, sleep came in shallow stretches. Each time I drifted off, my thoughts circled back to the same image—Santiago sitting alone in a concrete room, not resisting, not protesting.
Waiting.
The next morning, I arrived early.
Too early.
The corridors were quieter, the lights harsher. The prison felt suspended between shifts, caught in a moment of half-wakefulness.
Dave noticed immediately.
“You’re in early.”
“I couldn’t sleep.”
He nodded. “He’s still quiet.”
My pulse spiked, sharp and immediate.
“How long has it been?” I asked.
“Just under twenty-four hours.”
Halfway.
I exhaled slowly, feeling the tension settle lower in my body.
“You’re thinking of checking on him,” Dave said.
“That would defeat the purpose.”
“Would it?”
I didn’t answer.
Because the truth was uncomfortable.
Isolation was supposed to test him.
Instead, it was testing me.
If I checked on him, I became the constant.
If I didn’t, I became the absence.
Either way, I was already part of the equation.
I returned to my office and sat down, my body tense, my thoughts restless. I knew now exactly where his weakness lay.
Not in anger.
Not in violence.
In the quiet space where no one answered back.
And the realization settled heavy and irreversible in my chest:
If I continued down this path, I wouldn’t just be observing his behavior.
I would be shaping it.
That knowledge didn’t make me feel powerful.
It made me feel responsible.
And responsibility, once accepted, doesn’t let go easily.
By the end of the day, one thing was painfully clear:
I could no longer pretend I didn’t know what he needed.
The only question left was whether I was willing to become it.
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