Coming out

Surprise

Thanks God its Friday!

That's what I thought of when I woke up. But as I woke up I couldn't help the feeling that something is wrong or ... I don't even know how to put it in words but it was a bad feeling. I shrugged the negative thoughts aside and made my bed. As my Nana says, with negative thoughts you attract negativity. 

Its been a long week especially with the end of semester exams, and I was soooooo ready to go home! Its been a long long crazy semester, especially since its my last year of highschool and the teachers have been pushing us so hard. We have to out do last years scores and ensure to still remain number one Nationally in the end year exams. It is so much pressure but then I didn't feel it since I am a top score student, the 'perfect son' or the 'golden boy' as my parents and teachers call me.

Perfect? I wish they knew [chuckling]

Oh! I am so sorry, I cant believe i just started ranting without even introducing my silly-but-awesome self!!!

So... the name is Amos. Amos Maurri (pronounced 'mo-ree), but my friends at school call me 'Em'. I don't know why but you can ask my best friend Greg; since he is the one that started it. I am 6'2, brown eyes and I love my ebony skin. My parents are black Americans living and working in Kenya. We, all have dual citizenships and I spend most of my December holidays in South Carolina. 

I looked at my gold wrist watch and realized that I only had fifteen minutes to shower and get ready for the day. With a tooth brush in my mouth, I grabbed my white towel and headed out of my room towards the dorm bathrooms. I might have been lucky to have my room to myself but unlucky since it didn't come with a shower. Its sad really, almost painful since I am ( whisper) gay and you can imagine what I have to go through with all the naked boys walking half naked after their shower. It is a real struggle, although I have learnt to curb my wanton desires over the years. 

I got to the bathroom and it was not crowded as it usually does. I Took a quick shower and rushed to my room to get dressed in my school uniform which was different to other students since I was the Head prefect of the whole school which had over one thousand students. 

"Hey Em" I heard Greg's deep voice at my door.

" am great Greg, how are you, you look... tired?" I gave him a once over again to see if my assessment was correct and yeah my best friend looked worn out.

" I bet that's what three weeks of exams did to me" he answered sounding just as tired as he looked.

" yeah man, am glad its over now, the April holidays start next week and its Friday so stop mopping around and let's go grab our breakfast... it will be a long day." With that we rushed to the cafeteria.

We kept talking and answering greetings all the way to our table. As we got there I noticed Raj; who is Asian but living here in Kenya like me, Alan and Charles already seated. They were also my friends and together with Greg we formed the 'famous five' as every one in school called us.

We ate as we made small talk and before I knew it, the bell rang. Everyone rushed to the assembly grounds where we had to meet every Monday and Friday at 7:45am to 8:00am. After that we broke to our various classes.

Needing to relax, I was reading a novel in the library since we did not have classes and exams were over. I noticed a shadow covering me, looking up I saw it was the class representative. His name was Mathew Clarke and being Afro European made him so unnaturally attractive. I've had a crush on him since our first year of highschool. I haven't made a move on him or anyone here at all because I am still so deep in the closet that If I moved a single step deeper I would be in Narnia. 

He informed me that I was needed in the principal's office. While he spoke my mind traveled to all the crazy things I could do to him if only I had the courage., To no one's knowledge, he has been the star to ninety percent of my wet dreams. I could almost feel his abs in my palms, what is that cologne he wears it smells so musculine with a hint or something sweet. And those lips, those lips look so soft and succulent, I can imagine how soft they are, if only I could kiss him or I could just lick him... 

"Maurii, did you hear a single word I said?" the hotness before me asked, bringing me back to earth instantly. Mustering all the indifference I could, I let him know that I had heard him then headed to the principal's office making sure to pass by the washrooms first to ensure I was presentable. 

When I got there I couldn't believe my eyes!!

Michael, my boyfriend or more like secret closet boyfriend was seated across the principal, looking comfortable and at home. I have missed him so much. What was he doing here? He was supposed to be in college. I felt confused. I don't know if I should be worried or happy! Why didn't he call to let me know he was coming? Oh my shoes, something must be terribly wrong, why else, would he show up unannounced? Or maybe he just missed me too much and he came to see me, why do I always over think stuff and give myself stress, it is probably nothing bad. 

"Surprise!" He said 

His tone was flat and unexcited. 

********************-***********