The Broken Luna

Get It Together

Vera POV

We slept in my room that night, just holding each other, feeling like our entire future was ripped from us. When I woke up I felt cold, his absence from my bed was another sadness added to my day, but I understand. He started his training and schooling to be an alpha literally the day after he turned 18. He can't miss it even to grieve, every day is important. Me on the other hand, I wish I could die and be buried here, I don't want to leave and I don't want to move, but I have to remind myself of the hard truth, life goes on.. I slowly and shakily got up, my body felt so weak after last night. I didn't want to get dressed up, there was no point in it, I wasn't gonna do anything today and I felt like I didn't deserve to look pretty anyway. So I just slipped on some pajama pants and a large loose t-shirt and headed down stairs. The smell of banana nut pancakes filled the air again except this time it turned my stomach, I was in no mood for food, I needed water.

As I made my way to the kitchen and sat at the bar, Jen slid the pancake in front of me, it had a smiley face with bananas and walnuts. I looked at her and she gave me a hopeful smile

“it's happy to see you.”

Without a word I scooted it to the side and dropped my head on the bar with a bang, it hurt, I didn't care.

“ I'm so sorry V.. I was gonna come see you last night, but I didn't even know what to say… didn't really think there was anything I could say.. so I figured the best thing I could do was give you space.”

her voice was soft and sad. She rubbed her hand through my messy hair trying to comfort me, to be honest I didn't know what to say either. The only thing I could do last night was cry and Brayden was there for me so I wasn't mad at her. As if she could read my mind she went to the fridge and fixed me a cold glass of ice water. When it came to the kitchen she always knew just what I wanted.

I lifted my head and took a long slow sip of it before setting it down. By that time she had walked around the bar and gave me a gentle hug. I wrapped my arms around her too and let out a quiet thank you. She hugged me tighter as more tears streamed from my already painful eyes and my head began to throb in pain. When I was gonna be Luna the first thing I was gonna do was get her out of that kitchen and make her my personal beta… I've failed my best friend as well… I went back to bed. I couldn't bring my self to do anything else, I was weak and tired for the first time in my life and all I wanted to do was sleep..

I Woke to a soft nudge on my shoulder, I slowly opened my eyes to see my mom's loving smile looking down at me. I turned and glanced out the window squinting at the bright sun beaming into my room. I turned my head back into my pillow with a thud.

“ my love you have to get out of the house today.”

I groaned at those words, I still didn't feel like showing my face to the pack out there, although sunlight did sound good.

“Sitting in this room is taking a toll on you sweetheart. You're worrying me and your father and your friends. You don't have to work or train or anything you don't want to do, you just need to go get some fresh air.” She brushed through my curly locks and I gave her a reassuring smile, I didn't want everybody worrying about me like that.

“Alright, I'll get dressed and head out in a minute.” I spoke tiredly but reassuringly.

At least my words made her smile, she kissed my forehead with a "I love you" and she left. With another groan I got up from my bed and went to my closet picking out a decent outfit for a walk, some black leggings and a tan v cut shirt seemed comfy and appropriate. I put my hair up in a loose bun and just stared at myself In the mirror. I looked good today so that was a confidence boost I needed. This time Instead of going through my head everything that happened, everything I wasn't, and everything I probably would never be. I told myself I'm more than that.. I'm more than just some wolf, I haven't had one my whole life and I don't need one now. As for a mate, is Brayden mine? No unfortunately not, but regardless we still love each other very much and I can't let this beat me down, I must stand strong for him, and the pack.

I headed down stairs my pep talk still lingering in my head and I smiled at the loud out burst from the kitchen.

“There's my beautiful bestie!” I looked up to see Jenna and Brayden at the bar. He looked like he had just finished his breakfast or maybe lunch, I wasn't sure what time it was. I sat beside him and he placed a hand on my hip and leaned in giving me a loving kiss on the cheek which I returned on his lips. I could feel his hand tighten on my waist and I had to stop him from deepening the kiss, he was certainly in a good mood, maybe too good. I chuckled at the low growl that left his throat he was definitely a bit more possessive than usual today and I was liking it.

“Okay okay you two remember I'm still a minor here.” Jenna always knew how to make me laugh, but it seemed like it didn't click with Brayden because he looked like he could still eat me alive.

“Where are you off to today looking so good.” He said with a husky tone as he sipped his drink.

“I'm going out to get some sun and relax a bit. Feel the air in this hair if ya know what I mean.” We all laughed, I've been told many times how thick and beautiful my curly hair is, trust me you don't wanna see it blow dried, I look like a lion with a bad perm. I kinda think it's strange though, mom's hair is pretty straight and I'm pretty sure dad's is too so I don't know whose side I get it from. I love the compliments but it's fun to joke about it to since it's just another one of those things that make me stand out from the crowd… lucky me.. I guess at least this time it's a good thing.

We all chatted a bit longer and Jenna slid me a water bottle to take with me. Brayden decided to join me, quite eagerly I may add. As we walked out a nervousness settled as I saw fellow pack mates out and about doing their daily things. Everybody waved and greeted us with happy smiles as we walked by and I couldn't help but sigh in relief. I have fooled myself into thinking I'm a joke to everybody now but that clearly wasn't the case, I guess my rank helped me with that though. being the beats daughter has its perks I guess.