Milkshake girl

Chapter sixteen - I am not jealous

Nate's POV:

What I did in the shop wasn't my best move, but I just couldn't continue watching this. I know why Mason is going after Olivia, but I won't let him. Do I like her or not now, doesn't matter. He is after her because of me, but the thing is that he doesn't like her. Mason is only trying to make me jealous. I don't want to say that it's working, but I just don't like when he is giving girls high hopes. Yes, he is not a player, but if you look it from the outside, this is what it looks like. With Olivia is different. I have told her about that, but this won't stop Mason. I hope that she will be careful. I don't even know why I care so much. Before when he was doing it, I was ok with it. Now, I feel strange. Like I care about her in a way, which I can't describe. I just don't want her to be hurt. Moreover, she said that she likes someone so I don't see how Mason's plan will work, or at least this is what I hope for. I won't lie that I got a little bit upset when Olivia told me that. Not like I didn't know it, but I wish that she didn't have to remind me. Whoever the boy is, he is one very lucky boy. No matter that, he doesn't know it. 

It's the weekend so I don't have to get up early. I looked at my phone and saw that it was 9 am. I decide to lay down a bit and then to get up. The boys haven't called me yet so, for now, I don't have plans. Maybe I can go to see Olivia today at work. Well, if she is there. I don't know what else to do. Later, we can go out. I don't know how she does it, but she always knows what to say. No matter how bad a day you have, she can bring your good mood again just in a few seconds. That's why we are friends. One day maybe more. Well, if I play my cards well. Probably I can't be like her boy, but I can try. 

Finally, I decided to get out of bed. I went to get ready and then walked downstairs for breakfast. Only my mom was at the table. She smiled at me and I managed to return it. I don't need to say anything to make my mom understand that there is something wrong or a problem. I went to take food and sat down at the table. I started eating without telling her anything. She looked at me and I saw a worried expression on her face. 

- Mom, are you ok?

- Yes, why?

- Because you look worried.

- I am worried for you. 

- Why? I am fine. 

- Are you sure? I can see that there is something, which makes you worried.

I have told my mom about Mason, but with the difference that before, I didn't care. Now, it's different. We talk about Olivia and for some reason I care about her. I don't think that it's because we are friends. 

- Mason is after another girl. 

- Who is she this time?

- It's Olivia. 

- Your Milkshake girl?

- Yes. Not like I care that much, but I don't want her to have high hopes. 

- Maybe you have to talk with her.

- I did. I was in a park when she came to me. I told her everything about Mason and she said that I don't have to worry because she doesn't like him. 

- Then why you are worried? Is there something else?

- She likes a boy. 

- Now, I understand. Is my son jealous? 

- I am not jealous. Moreover, she likes him for a long time or to say a couple of years. 

- I think that you have to tell her how you feel. Maybe she doesn't feel the same, but at least that way, you will know the truth. 

- I can't do this. There is a small chance that she will forget about her boy and I don't want this to happen. 

- If you really like someone, it won't be easy to forget him. Just how you can't forget about her. 

- I can do that. 

- Then why don't you do it?

- Because I don't want to. 

- Honey, no matter how hard you are trying to fool yourself, it won't work. 

- What do I have to do?

- Be honest with her and yourself. I know that you don't like it when Mason does this, but if you really want to keep her, even only as your friend, you have to be honest with her. 

- I can try that, but without the “be honest” part. I can't do this. Not yet. 

- In that case, I hope that it's not too late when you decide to be brave. Now I have some work to do so find something to occupy yourself. - mom said and left

I went to my room, took what I need and walked out. Maybe I can't be honest with Olivia, but this doesn't mean that I can't talk with her. Even if I don't tell her everything, I know that she will understand me. I'm sure that she has her own problems and that I don't need to make her worry about me too, but it will be one small talk. I don't want anything else from her. 

I walked to the milkshake shop. It's not far from home. When I arrived, I saw that there was a customer. Finally, some people are coming here. I was about to open the door when I saw who was the person and what he was doing. I turned around and walked away. Now I hate him more than ever. Why does he always have to ruin the things around me? Moreover, Olivia hasn't done anything to him. I sat on a bench in the park in front of it. Soon I felt a hand over mine, which made me lookup. It was the Milkshake girl. She gave me a sad smile and I returned it. 

- I'm sorry about that. As much as I don't like him, he is a customer. No matter that, he acts weird when I am around. 

- It doesn't matter. I don't care. 

- But your eyes tell me other. Look, I understand that you want to protect me, but I am not a little girl. Moreover, I don't like him. You are ten times better and this is why you are my friend. This is what Mason wanted, but I cut him off. I know that he wants to piss you, but I won't let him. I like you, not him. 

- Really?

- Yes. Now can you please stop thinking about this and come with me inside? I locked the shop and someone might come. - she said chuckling

- Sure, I would love to. Thank you Milkshake girl. 

- No problem Milkshake boy. - she said and I laughed

Both of us walked inside. She made two milkshakes and we sat at my usual table. We were talking and laughed. Everything was great. Well, until her boy came into my mind. I don't know why I think about him so much, but from time to time, he appears and changes my mood. I don't know what is worse. The fact that she likes someone else or Mason who is trying on her only to make me jealous. Soon my smile disappeared and I got lost in my thoughts. Olivia lifted my chin and made to look at her, but I couldn't say anything. 

- Nate, what is going on? I don't think that only Mason is your problem.

- I can't tell the girl who I like how I feel. 

With that, Olivia's mood changed. She didn't look pleased to hear this. I don't understand her. We are just friends. Moreover, she likes someone. Why the fact that I like someone is getting her? I'm sure that her boy is a good one. Well, sometimes girls are too complicated. 

- Olivia, are you ok?

- Yes, I'm fine. Just try to talk with her. I am sure that she will understand. 

- But I can't. I can't be sure, but I think that she might like someone. I have seen how she looks at one boy. She has never looked at me this way. 

- Are you sure that she is the one?

- I don't know. It's complicated. 

- I think that first, you need to figure out who do you like and then to worry about how you will tell her. From what you said it looks like you don't like her or at least not that much. 

- What do I have to do?

- Be honest and tell her everything. 

- I can't. I don't think that I am what she needs. 

- But have you ever asked her what she wants?

- No. She won't tell me. 

- Why you are so sure?

- I just... what do you want? If you were in my situation and I ask you this what would be your answer?

- Well, I will tell you that I like boys who are honest, good listeners and don't want from me, things, which I can't give them. Boys who like me the way I am and respect my decisions. 

This is exactly what I want to be. Well, if one day we get together. I don't have high hopes for this. I mean that I would love to do it, but I am not sure how this will go. This time I am not talking about Mason. Yes, he might try something, but it won't work. When you are in a relationship, you don't think of anyone else. Except, if this person is not better. No matter that this way you can break someone's heart. 

- Is your boy like that?

- And much more. Even if I tell him that he is perfect, I know that he won't believe me. Well, nobody is perfect, but for me he is and I'm not talking only about outside. 

That's it. I lost. I can't fight with this person. It's clear to see that she has fallen deeply. Maybe it's better if I go. I know that I came to talk with her, but I don't see what else I can tell her. I am not jealous, but I won't lie that this hurt me. The fact that she is happy without me is making me sad, but I can't do anything else. I am not her boy and I have to accept it. The only thing that I can do is to be happy for her. 

I took out some money from my pocket and left them on the table. I stood up and was about to go when Olivia grabbed my hand. She looked at me with sad eyes. Did I do something again? It won't be my first time. 

- Where are you going?

- Home. I came here only to talk with you. 

- Then why don't you stay?

- Because you don't need me. 

- That's not true. I want you to stay. 

- But what about your boy?

- He is not that important. 

With that, a small smile grew on my face. I know that it looks like I am selfish, but I can't hide my happiness. At least she still cares about me. I sat back down and she hugged me. I didn't expect it, but I am happy about it. Now I realize something. Both of us talk about the people who we like, but none of us will tell the truth. I probably will never tell my girl how I feel, neither Olivia to her boy. Maybe we are not that different. I won't lie that I would love to be her boy, but I should've done something for that earlier. Moreover, she likes him for years. I met her like two months ago. There is no way that I will win against him. 

- For what are you thinking?

- You. - I said and saw how she blushed

This is one of my favorite things about her. My Milkshake girl is cute when she is blushing. She tried to cover her cheeks, but I removed her hands. 

- You don't have to cover yourself. You look cute when you are blushing. I hope that your boy can do that. 

- He does it without even trying and I become red just like now. - she said smiling

Maybe I can't fight against him, but this doesn't mean that I will stop being friends with Olivia. I like her and one day I will be brave enough to tell her. I don't know why I feel so insecure. Many girls have talked with me and I was acting normal. Out of nowhere appears Olivia and I am tongue-tied. At least I can talk with her about this. I won't tell her who the girl is, but I know that she can help me. That way I will know what I have to do. 

Until the rest of the day, Olivia and I were sitting and talking in the milkshake shop. When she closed it, we went for a walk around the town. Later, I sent the Milkshake girl to her house and walked home. It wasn't a bad day. Yes, I didn't like when I saw Mason, but luckily, Olivia made my day. She has a pretty name. Well, I still like calling her Milkshake girl, but I think that I should use her real one. I have to be brave and tell her how I feel. I can't keep hiding my feelings from her. I'm not sure that she is the right one, but I feel different when she is around. I am myself. With her, I can be who I am, and no need to pretend. She likes me that way and I am happy about it. Dear Olivia, I hope that it won't be too late when I decide to confess you how I feel.