Why Me Goddess

The day before her birthday

Today is March the twenty-third which is the day before birthday and that is the only thing my mother and I would celebrate due to us being rouges and having little money. As of this day I’m a rouge living on pack territory. But I’m going to talk the Alpha this morning and ask if I can join the pack today.

I know that none of the pack trust me and I don’t blame them at all. I wouldn’t trust me if I was them either. I look over at the window that is in my room and the sun is stating to come in. I set up in bed and go into the bathroom that is in my room, I do my morning routine. Once I come of the bathroom I have had a shower, I walk over to my bed and set on it to towel dry my hair, once I had dried as much as I wanted it, I bushed it and then braided it. After my hair was done and I had dried off I walked to my closet and picked out my clothing for the day. Once I had put on my underwear, I put on a pair of sweat paints and a pink V-neck t-shirt, the I put on shoes and walked out of my room.

I walked down the hallway and past the elevator to the stairs that over look the pack lands, I found this door two months ago, I’m not sure what rank of wolf uses this small stair well, but if they like the out doors then this is the best place to over look it for a moment. I finally get to the forth floor and open the door that goes into the floor. I've learned that the forth floor is where all offices are on this floor. I walk down the hallway and stop at an door that is bigger then the others, the door as a gold plate on door that says Alpha on it. I take a deep breath a breath and let it out as I raise my hand to knock on the door. Before I can even knock on the door I hear a groof 'Come in' from the other side of the door, I slowly open the door and walk on into and the office, then I bow just a bit "Hello Alpha." I say with a small smile "Hello Jaz" He says to me and offers a seat to me which I take "What is on your mind?" He ask me as he lays his ink pen down on his desk and he looks at me. "I'd like to officially join the pack Alpha" I said to him and smiled at me "Glad to hear it Jaz." He said to me and I smiled back a little "May I ask what keep you from joining for so long?" He ask, I looked down at my lap for a moment a then back up at him "My nightmares sir"  He looked and I looked down a bit "Very well Jaz, you may join the pack." He said to me and I looked at him and smiled "Thank you Alpha." I said to him and he nodded "Now you run along and go to work, but we need you here back at six-thirty tonight." He told me as I smiled at him "Yes sir." I said to him as I got and bowed a bit and left his office, I walked out of the pack house and drove the land, I waved to the guards and they nodded to me. I headed to the café.

When five in the afternoon came around I got off of work and headed back to the pack. The day café was alright, but I'm looking forward to tonight. As I'm driving a dress shop in town cheches my attrition, I turn back to the dress shop and look around a bit. I find a very pretty purple dress, its simple yet pretty at the same time. It have has a cute heart neck line, and it’s sleeves are long and very flowy. Which makes the dress even prettier. I look around a bit more I don’t find anything else so I go and pay for the dress. Then I walk out of the shop with my dress and walks back to my car, then when I get in I  speed to the pack house.

Once I get to the pack house I pack my car, get out and grab my dress. Then I head into the house, and it is busy in there which it is ha been before so I pay no attention to it, as I go to my room. Sure I should be watching what is going on but I have no time I have to get ready. When I get into my room I lay the dress on my bed and head  to my bathroom so I can take a shower. I take a fast but a good shower, then I get out and dry off and blow dry my hair then I get my underwear on. Then I walk into my bedroom and fixes my hair and puts on a light a bit of make-up then I get my dress on, that fits great.

At six-thirty there was a knock on my door, I walked to the door and opened it Lance was standing there "Hello Tyler." I said to him and he looked me up and down "Wow you look pretty." I smiled at him "Thanks" I said and he smiled at me "I'd love to be your mate." He said and I rolled my eyes "You say that every girl" I said to him and he just chuckled at that and walked down the hallways to the elevator and got on it. "So you are going to finally join the pack" Tyler said to me and I nodded my head "Yea I am, my nightmares that I have been having for the past few months have finally ended and I'm so glad that they have." I said to him and he just nodded his head to me "Because tomorrow is my birthday and I really needed to join the pack two months ago but I just couldn't" I said to him which was the truth. The bell on the elevator dings as the doors opens and we open and we walk out of it.

As Tyler leads me through the pack house I'm kind of there at the moment and kind of nervous also. Because I have no idea what is going to happen to me since I'm rouge join a pack. I let out a sigh and rub my arms a bit, out of a nervous habit that I have picked up from somewhere. It might be where I have woke up at night from my nightmares of war, blood, and screams and pain of losing people that I didn't know. There had been times during the day when I was at the café I would have to have more then one break because I would have to go out back and just cry my heart out. When I was running with my mom, I would cry at night and shakes from the pain of things going on, but she never told me why I was having the nightmares when I told her what they was about.

Anyways Tyler taps me on me on the shoulder as we get a make shift stage in the back yard of the pack house "Are you sure about this Jaz?" He ask and I nodded my head, then he smiled at me "Well go on up on the stage with the Alpha" He said and I nodded my head. I walked up on the stage and the Alpha ask me some questions and I answered them, then he cut the pam of my hand and his, then I put my hand to his and we put our hands together. After we took our hands apart my head started to heard, as I head all the voices that was in my head. I stud there as if noting was wrong but I wanted to fall down and cry from this new feeling. In truthful if made me feel partly part wolf and not empty anymore. I just smiled at everyone "Thank you for letting me join your pack." I said to them after the Alpha had ask if I had anything to say, after that there was food and some dancing.