Be My Girlfriend.
756 Words
"Baby girl!, How are you doing?" That was the next thing I heard as I placed the phone on my ear. I have known Maxwell for quite some time. Even though I wasn't related to him in any way, I regarded him as my big brother.
Maxwell was 7 years older than I was. At first, I thought he saw me as a sister too, but I should have known better. He always applauded the fact that I was a respectful and responsible lady unlike the numerous other ladies he knew.
I got so free with him. He would call me everyday to know how I was faring, sometimes, he'd call me twice a day or even thrice. At a point, I started reciprocating his calls. For any day he didn't call, I'd call him.
Our communication grew deep and I found myself being emotional attached to him. It graduated from being emotionally attached to being sexually attracted to him. As time went on, he told me to be his girlfriend. That moment, I knew it was all wrong.
"But, how can it be wrong when no s****l immorality was involved?" I asked trying to justify my self. Being his girlfriend is the same as being just his friend. The "girlfriend" is just a title, I reasoned trying to act intelligent.
My spirit kept shouting no. It gave me a thousand and one reason why I must say no. It reminded of all the warnings and advice my parents had given me. What on Earth do I even need a boyfriend for?
I remembered how my mother would say that any man coming to me at this stage only wants one thing, and that it is to take the one thing that I valued so much.
I remembered the number of times my Mom would read the story of Amnon(David's son) and his sister Tamar. How he hated her after he slept with her. She told me that that was the same thing that will happen to any lady that allow herself to be deceived by any man.
I was confused. Is this truly wrong? I can't keep a boyfriend. It's not acceptable. I always had told myself that I won't have any boyfriend. I knew the many things that could come up from it.
My relationship with God will be terrible shaken. It already has been shaken. Once in a while I have found myself lusting even though I snapped out of it the moment I realized and asked for forgiveness.
Could it actually be that Maxwell was only interested in taking my virginity. He knew I was a virgin. He knew I was a Christian. He knew I can't have or keep a boyfriend. That notwithstanding, he asked me to be his girlfriend. What exactly was his intention?
I was lost in thought, I didn't even realize that I was still on call. He chuckled as a way to make me say something. I opened mouth but said nothing my mind drifting away once more.
Maxwell loved me, I know he did. He has proven it a lot of times. All the care and affection can't possibly be faked. It must be that he truly loved me.
But that is not enough reason for me to indulge in something I fanatically stood against. I have counselled a number of younger youths on the disadvantages of having a boyfriend, so why should I get myself hooked?
I imagined the kind of discussion we'd be having if I ever agreed to his proposal. I can't live a life of hypocrisy. No way! This isn't happening.
It was only then I understood what it means when the Bible said that the spirit and the flesh war constantly within our members. It was a serious war.
"No! That will be my answer" I told myself. With all the courage I had, I opened my mouth to tell him that I can't be his girlfriend. Instead, I told him that I'll think about it. With that, we ended the call.
Did I just say I'll think about it? I must be stupid. There's actually nothing to think about. The answer is a "no". It has to be!
Few minutes later, he called back, he wanted me to know when he should expect my response but I told him I already have an answer. He was surprised but I continued in the most confident way I could.
"I can't be your girlfriend" I said.
He was taken aback, I could sense from his tone that he was disappointed but what do I care?
"Why not?" He asked dejectedly.
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