Watching Her
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Alli moved through The Hollow like the only soft thing
in a place built on hard edges. The clatter of glasses, the
rough jokes, the smoky haze—all of it seemed to sharpen
around her, making her quiet presence even more pro-
nounced. He watched as she navigated the crowded space,
her movements graceful and deliberate.
She wasn't loud; she didn't flirt with the regulars. She
didn't yet know how to armor herself against the kind of
men who stared too long, their eyes lingering with a pos-
sessiveness that made Johnny's jaw clench. He recognized
the look, the unspoken claim, and it stirred a protective in-
stinct within him. She just existed—quiet, warm, steady—
and somehow The simple, brutal fact of her age hit Johnny
harder than any of the back-alley brawls he used to chase. A
dull, sickening thud in his gut.
He tried to drink his whiskey, the amber liquid burn-
ing a path down his throat like liquid fire, but it did little to
soothe the inferno that had taken root deep inside him. It
just swirled around the edges, a temporary distraction.
He tried to stare at the bottles lining the back of the
bar, the colorful labels blurring into meaningless shapes.
Anything to avoid looking at her. Anything to find some
semblance of focus.
He tried to pretend he wasn't burning alive every time
she walked past him, the scent of her soap and something
sweeter, like honeysuckle blooming in the summer heat,
clinging to the air around her like a damn halo. Each breath
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he took was a reminder, a slow torture.
But pretending had stopped working months ago, the
charade crumbling with every stolen glance, every brush
of skin. He was a goddamn liar to himself if he thought he
could just switch it off.
He already knew what she felt like beneath his hands.
Once you touched something that good, something
that young and hungry and reckless, it lived under your
skin, a constant hum of awareness that vibrated through
his bones. A low-level fever he couldn't shake.
He could still feel her—the wild quiver of her thighs
clamped tight around his hips, breathless moans stutter-
ing against his skin, her voice cracking apart on his name
like she was confessing something sacred and forbidden all
at once. The memory burned in his mind, vivid and raw:
the first time he took her on that battered pool table, the
green felt rough against her back, the way her whole body
shivered under his hands, torn between fear and reckless
need, clinging to his shoulders as if she might fall apart
without him holding her together. Her eyes wide, pupils
blown, lost in the moment.
And then that second time, in the cramped front seat
of his truck under a flickering streetlamp, windows fogged
with heat and desperation, her body twisting under him—
no hesitation this time, just a raw, animal hunger that left
him dizzy. The way she trembled, nails leaving half-moon
marks on his arms, her hips rolling up to meet him, a raw
gasp torn from her throat as she finally gave in again. Every
time, she came apart in his hands like he was the only one
who'd ever made her feel that way, and he knew, with a
sickening certainty, that he was.
He'd never been able to forget it—the way she wanted
him: fierce, needy, almost ashamed of it but unable to deny
herself. The sound of her whispering his name in the dark,
the taste of her sweat, the way she always went silent
just before everything broke, her eyes wide and vulnerable,
searching his as if for answers he didn't have.
Those memories haunted him, sharper than any scar,
deeper than any regret. Even now, he could close his eyes
and see her there—every ragged breath, every tremble,
every surrender to him, as if she were made for his hands
alone.
She was eighteen.
Too young.
Too soft.
Too everything he had no business touching.
But Christ—he had touched her.
And now he couldn't stop thinking about it, the im-
ages playing on repeat in his mind like a broken record.
Not when she reached for a bottle and her shirt lifted
just enough for him to see the curve of her waist, the
smooth line of her skin disappearing beneath the worn
denim of her jeans. The innocent, unknowing invitation
was a fresh torment.
Not when she leaned over the bar, her dark hair falling
forward in a silken curtain, and he caught a flash of skin
low on her stomach, the ghost of a scar just visible above
the waistband. A tiny imperfection that only made her
more real, more desirable.
Not when she laughed—the sound, light and carefree,
pierced him like a shard of glass.
That breathy, warm sound escaped her lips, an un-
conscious invitation carried on the smoky air. It resonated
within him, a low hum that vibrated through his bones. He
watched the slight parting of her lips, the quickening of her
breath, and knew, with a certainty that settled like lead in
his gut, that she hadn't meant to make that sound. It was
a secret, a slip, a glimpse behind the carefully constructed
walls she kept so high.
And the worst part?
She felt it too.
Every time their eyes met –across the crowded room,
over the rim of a shared glance, even in the briefest of
stolen moments –something tightened between them. Not
a comfortable knot, but a hot, sharp, undeniable pull that
hummed beneath the surface of every word, every casual
touch. It was a dangerous current, a silent dare that threat-
ened to drag them both under, into waters far too deep and
treacherous for either of them to navigate.
She'd try to look away, a blush rising on her cheeks like
the first hint of dawn, her fingers fidgeting with the damp
rag in her hands. But her gaze always returned, drawn back
to him with an almost painful intensity, like a moth flutter-
ing helplessly toward a flame. It was as if she forgot, just for
a second, all the reasons why they weren't supposed to be
doing this, why they should keep their distance, why a man
like him should never be allowed to get close to a woman
like her.
Johnny didn't forget.
He tried damn hard not to.
He was twenty-five.
Old enough to know better.
Old enough to have scars she didn't need to see,
wounds that still throbbed with a dull, persistent ache –a
pain he couldn't share, not without staining her with the
darkness that clung to him.
He had already done enough damage in his life to fill a
ledger, sins that haunted his nights and shadowed his days.
He saw the echoes of his mistakes in the faces of people he'd
hurt, in the broken trust he couldn't repair. He wasn't about
to add her to that list.
But she made him feel...
Christ, he didn't even have a word for it, a way to cap-
ture the whirlwind of emotions she stirred within him. It
was a feeling that clawed at the carefully constructed walls
around his heart, threatening to tear them down.
Alive, maybe. Like a dormant part of him was waking
up, stretching after a long, dark sleep. The part of him that
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