Chapter Seventeen: The Woman At The Door

1565 Words
Delaney The woman showed up at the engagement shoot Priya had arranged for the September wedding announcement, unannounced, standing at the edge of the studio with a toddler on her hip and an expression that made every camera in the room go suddenly, uncomfortably still. "I need to speak with Roman," the woman said. "My name is Nadia Ellison. I think he'll want to hear what I have to say before this wedding goes any further." Roman went pale in a way Delaney had never seen from him, not in the tunnel, not in the hospital bed, not once in eight months of watching him absorb hits both literal and metaphorical without flinching. "Nadia." His voice had gone careful, controlled, the specific flatness he used when something mattered enough that he didn't trust himself to sound normal saying it. "What are you doing here." "I saw the wedding announcement. I thought you should know she exists before you promise your whole life to someone else." Nadia looked at Delaney directly, not unkind, but not gentle either, the look of a woman who'd rehearsed this moment and intended to see it through regardless of who it hurt. "This is Mia. She's two. She's yours, Roman. I should have told you two years ago, and I didn't, and I've spent every day since regretting it, but I'm not staying quiet any longer, not with a wedding about to make it look like your life is a clean story with a clean ending." The studio went utterly silent, photographers lowering cameras, Priya's phone forgotten in her hand, and Delaney stood there feeling the floor tilt in a way that made the hallway confrontation eight months ago feel almost gentle by comparison. "Two years ago," Delaney repeated, quiet, working to keep her voice steady. "That's before we met." "Before we met," Roman confirmed, immediately, urgently, turning to her with something desperate in his face. "Delaney, I need you to believe me, I had no idea. Nadia and I were together, briefly, two summers ago, before the season that ended with the Reyes hit. It ended badly. I didn't know she was pregnant. I would have shown up if I'd known, I need you to understand that, I would never have—" "I believe you didn't know," Delaney said, and found, surprising herself, that she meant it, the specific certainty of eight months spent learning exactly what kind of man Roman actually was, underneath the reputation, underneath even the blackmail that had started all of this. "That's not actually the thing I'm trying to process right now." "Then what is." "That there's a two year old little girl standing in this studio," Delaney said, looking at Mia, who was watching the tense adult conversation with the specific solemn confusion of toddlers who understood something important was happening without understanding what, "who's apparently your daughter, and I'm meeting both of them for the first time three weeks before our wedding, in front of a photographer." Roman He didn't sleep that night, sitting alone in his apartment long after Delaney had left the studio without him, needing space he'd immediately, painfully understood she was owed. His grandmother called at midnight, having heard, somehow, the way she always seemed to hear the things that mattered before he'd found the words to tell her himself. "Is it true," she asked, no preamble, and he could hear the careful neutrality in her voice, the specific effort of a woman withholding judgment until she had the facts. "I don't know. Nadia says it's true. I haven't seen a paternity test. I don't have any reason to think she's lying, but I also don't have proof yet that she isn't." He rubbed his face, exhausted in a way that had nothing to do with physical fatigue. "If it's true, grandmother, I have a daughter I didn't know existed for two years. I missed two years of a child's life because a woman I dated briefly decided not to tell me, and now it's coming out three weeks before my wedding, and I don't know how to feel anything except furious and terrified and guilty all at once." "Furious at Nadia, for hiding it. Terrified of what it means for the wedding. Guilty for a choice that was never actually yours to make, since you didn't know." His grandmother's voice softened, the particular gentleness she reserved for the moments he needed it most. "You are allowed to feel all three at once, Seo joon. They are not contradictions. But you need a paternity test before you build any more feelings on top of an assumption. Get the facts first. Everything else can wait for the facts." "And if it's true?" "Then you have a daughter," his grandmother said, simply, like the answer had never actually been complicated at all. "And you love her, properly, the way you should have had the chance to from the beginning. And you trust that the woman you're marrying is exactly as generous and clear eyed as you've told me she is, every single time you've talked about her for the last eight months. She married a man who blackmailed her into loving him and forgave that. She can survive a complication that isn't even your fault." Delaney She drove to her parents' house instead of going home, needing the specific comfort of her mother's kitchen, her father's steady, newly earned presence, the family that had spent the last two months slowly, carefully rebuilding trust in the man she was about to marry. "A daughter," Carol said, quiet, processing. "That's enormous, Delaney. That changes the entire shape of the life you're building with him." "I know." "How do you feel about it?" Delaney sat with the question longer than she expected to need, turning it over honestly instead of reaching for the composed answer she'd usually default to for her mother's benefit. "Scared. Not of Roman, exactly. He looked as blindsided as I felt, standing in that studio, and I believe him about not knowing. But scared of what it means to build a marriage with a ready made family I didn't sign up for at the start, scared of loving a two year old I've never met and being asked to be some version of a parent to her whether I'm ready or not, scared that this is the universe's specific, unfair way of testing whether the wedding was actually solid enough to survive real complication instead of just crisis we could manage together in a controlled way." Her father, quiet at the table until now, finally spoke, careful, the specific gentleness he'd learned to offer since the hospital parking lot months ago. "You asked me once how I knew you were ready for Roman, after the injury. I told you it was watching you run toward the hospital instead of away from the fear. I think this is the same test, dressed up differently. Not whether you're scared. You're allowed to be scared. The question is whether you run toward the complication or away from it." "What if running toward it costs me something I'm not ready to give up? A simple wedding. A clean start. The version of this life I pictured before a woman showed up at a photo shoot with a toddler on her hip." "Then it costs you that," Carol said, gently. "The simple version was never actually on the table, Delaney, the moment you fell in love with a man whose whole life gets complicated by things outside his control, on the ice and off it. You knew that, choosing him. This is just the complication arriving sooner and heavier than you expected." Delaney drove home past midnight, and found Roman still awake, sitting on his apartment steps in the cold, waiting for her without knowing if she was actually coming. "I ordered the paternity test," he said, before she'd even sat down beside him. "Results in a week. I need you to know, whatever they say, I'm not disappearing from this. If she's mine, I'm going to be her father, properly, starting now, whatever that costs either of us. I'm not the man who skates away without looking back anymore. I learned that from you." "I know." Delaney sat beside him, cold seeping through her coat, and reached for his hand, the same gesture from the hospital room months ago, the same choice to run toward instead of away. "I'm scared, Roman. I need you to know that plainly. But I'm not leaving. I just need us to figure out, together, what the next version of this actually looks like, because it's not the version either of us pictured three weeks ago." "Together," Roman repeated, holding her hand tighter, something like hope breaking through the exhaustion in his voice for the first time all day. "I can work with together. I don't think I could survive this alone." "You don't have to." She rested her head against his shoulder, cold and uncertain and choosing him anyway, the same choice she'd made a dozen times since a hallway confrontation had started all of this, months ago, in a version of their life that felt, suddenly, impossibly far away. "Whatever the test says. We figure it out together. That's the whole deal now, remember? No countdown. No end date. Just us, figuring out whatever comes next."
Free reading for new users
Scan code to download app
Facebookexpand_more
  • author-avatar
    Writer
  • chap_listContents
  • likeADD