Luca's POV
What had I done? Pushed her away again, and for what. This time I had truly done it. I could see it in her eyes when I dropped her off at the station. Amelia had told me she loved me, she had let me know that she was ready to drop everything to be with me and I had let her go.
Although it was so painful to think about I knew I had made the right choice. I had almost strangled her for goodness sake! It felt as though I had no control over my body or my mind. The nightmares were so vivid, it felt as though I was back there every night that I went to sleep.
I could never let myself be in a position where I could harm Amelia. The scared look on her face still flashed across my mind every time I closed my eyes. I hated it when she was scared of me. I would never forgive myself if
