46 Megan
Everything seems perfectly clear yet totally opaque at the same time.
I accept what happened. I know it happened. I don’t remember it in the conventional sense, but now everything makes perfect sense. I had to believe it was Chris. My battle was completely internal. I needed to believe Chris killed Riley and Kai, because I had to make sense of the evidence in front of me. The alternative was to acknowledge the truth and destroy myself in the process.
But now I have no choice. The police have released Chris. They know he didn’t kill those boys. And there’s no-one else my brain can try to convince me was responsible. I’ve had to accept the truth. I’ve had to accept it was me.
Regret’s a funny word, isn’t it? I don’t know if I regret what I did. I have no emotional feeling toward
