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Dear Chris and Evie,
You might find this before they find me. If you do, please don’t worry. I’m safe now. Everyone is safe now.
You will be asking yourselves all sorts of questions. You probably will for years. I don’t have those answers for you, but I will try to help. If you ever ask yourself if there was anything you could have done to have stopped this happening, the answer is no. This is not your fault. Either of you. It is entirely down to me and is not because of anything either of you have done. It is something inside me which I cannot control and cannot deal with.
If nasty things are said about me, please don’t feel bad for me. I probably deserve them. In any case, I tried my best. I always tried my best. For both of you. Everything I ever did was with the best interests o
