Shayna
I kept waiting for the other shoe to drop. Everything for the past couple of days had been going perfectly. I wasn't used to it. When you're so accustomed to negatives floating everywhere around you and bad things happening, you're thrown for a loop when good is achieved. It almost feels like the positives in life are such a foreign concept that it feels like you're in enemy territory when nothing horrible is happening to you. My childhood and my marriage were practically a war zone. I am used to the chaos. Without chaos, my life feels unsteady. It's almost as if having peace is a trigger. Everybody wants health and peace, but nobody realizes how much effort it takes to train your mind on what serenity and calm truly are.
Even before my marriage, it was nothing but arguments, sni
