I expected him to show up but he didn't
he sent a maid whom I had never seen before
she helped me to undo the locks I had under my wrists and my legs
I wrapped a bed sheet to cover my nudity feeling ashamed
I'm not ashamed of the state i am
but I'm ashamed of how weak i am , how easily I'm bruised showing my weakness ,showing my defeat.
I'm ashamed thinking how i got into this trap all by myself
I should have said no the first time when he asked me travel along with him
if I had said "No " then I would have not been in this state of agony now
but I was blinded , blinded by his soft hazel eyes ,his sweet words which had my brain wrapped around his thoughts.
I was too stupid and naive when it came to believe him, I believed him with everything I got
and I brought this
