I wake up alone in my bed
and I look around to see if he's still there
But he's not
I remember his words
I'll hold you in my arms as we sleep
and he did
I don't understand him
one minute he slaps me across the face
and other minute he kisses me like our life depend on each other
one second I see the hate
other second I see the love
He's a beast with a human
a beast who hates me and a human whose trying to like me
I don't understand him
or understand myself
even after all the things he has made me do or make me do
a part of me still loves him
and I want that part of me to dead
I want my feelings dead for him
this is not love
or anything related to love
and I don't know what is this ?
or why is this happening in my life?
Whole my life so far I ne
