MiRanDumbIsh Journey

BACKSTORY part4

I figured out at an early age that alcohol gave me the confidence of the gods! That feeling of superiority I lacked due to age, I made up for in beverage consumption. I could drink with the best of 'em. Strong Davis trait. Passed on from the Davis bloodline, thru the Davis bloodline, from Buddy Davis and ancestors themselves. I jumped in that pool Kendrick spoke on and felt like Micheal Phelps. Its truly sickening how delusional those spirits make you. I suppose it's really a possession. Youre no longer you instead you're in the sunken place while that entity does it's damage using your body as a vessel.

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False sense of beauty, personality, attitude, and confidence. Think about it. Would you honestly do half of things you've done while intoxicated completely sober? On a normal day, would you get up blast the music and dance in the streets alone? Would you drive your car at top speed on a busy interstate with no concern for others well-being? Would you take off your clothes and lose them; completely forgetting you took them off to begin with ? Honestly, would you?

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See, during the time when I was supposed to be figuring out who I was and what I wanted to be I was drinking every chance I got. It all started when one returned home from their adventures. My first black, my first shot, my first four loko, my first cigarette... it was all with you. There was no force. There was no hostility. You showed me something that looked good. Something that looked fun. I was around 14 or 15 maybe and it glittered so yes I thought it was gold. I thought I'd found the key to life. Then you left again and I found myself more lost and confused than when you first came back.