For You

The start of everything

*Few years earlier *

I am in class right now, not even trying to concentrate what Miss Rose is trying to teach us . Rather, I am just thinking about second chances which is kind of what I don't wanna take right now.

I check around roaming my vision to see if I am the only to not care.

I was right, every one is quite busy with themselves .

Amanda is like always flirting with her boyfriend Trace . Maggie who's currently sitting beside me is doing some doodles, which makes me wonder her doodles are way better than my silly paintings. I see that guy on my right side picking his nose , disgusting as usual . I regret sitting in the front. But again, when I rotate back I get to see this gorgeous face behind me . Those mesmerizing hazel eyes and this charming smile he beams at me every time I turn around.

Hypothetically, we are stuck in the friend zone since middle school. Honestly, if I think about it ; he wasn't this good looking back then.

I didn't know puberty would work on its magic so well.

But apart from all that let's just say life isn't that perfect and he's taken by not the blonde chick of high school you see in movies ; but by my so-called-childhood friend .

I am not saying she isn't the one for him or something. Just that guys like him go after hot girls not bookworms. Again, if I am judging her then I am no less .

I am not that cool either. I am this girl who considers herself as trash, who knows despite how much I may b***h about his girlfriend I can't never be that one.

But, I kind of match with Dave . I mean some time I feel like the only two people talking sense in our group is us .

But Dave. Oh Dave.

Why did you have to be with Abby ?

Don't hate me but I hate myself for hooking them up.

Yes, I was the one to make this horrible couple .

Horrible why?

Because after all that one month 'I love you ' s**t they realized their humor doesn't match and now they are completely opposite .

"Opposites attract right?"

Abby is holding Dave's hand and trying to console me , Alex , Maggie and Susan what a happy couple they are . But I get that vibe from Dave that they aren't. Like the intense way he's staring at me right now.

His honey eyes piercing mine.

"Please, make it stop. " I mutter under my breath. He laughs noticing and questions, " Did you say something?" I nod no and try to blend in the conversation the three of them are having .

"Did you know Lacey had a breast job? "

Some times I think , are they really my friends? I mean sometimes I find myself too discussing about people behind their back. But they can be really annoying at times. I couldn't help but to say , "Who cares if she had a breast job? I mean it's her life. "

I lean back taking a sip from my vanilla milkshake while watching them glare at me in confusion. I look at Dave who's in his phone ignoring this stupid conversion as usual while I am stuck here and thinking- Why did I interrupt her ? Now I have to apologize to her or else like every time she will start being a crybaby .

"Yeah we care .... because it's affecting our lives."

I couldn't but to giggle . How could Abby just say that ? How the hell could it affect our lives?

People can do what the hell they want. It's simply their choice. It's their life. However, some people in this universe can't get this idea in their tiny brain. They only know how to complain and bash behind others back.

Susan looks at me in the eye and tells me between the teeth, " Can you shut the f**k up?"

I couldn't take it anymore . The gossiping and the fake friendship. So, I leave the table making up an excuse .

" I gotta take this call."

No one actually heard me or cared about it except of course Dave.

He says politely , "Okay."

I leave the cafeteria squeezing myself out of the crowd as I rush to the store room situated at the end of the hall. The store room is my kind of my hiding place since these few days. I get inside freakishly gulping massive amount of air rapidly. Trapping myself inside the dark closed room at that moment I just cry.

I used to be like them. I used to gossip with them . But the today me is fed up. Her soul is crippling because she can't take it anymore. Like now imagining about it , telling things behind their back is the worst. How I realized it you may ask? This summer! Which changed my life. Because now I actually know Lacey and all the people I misunderstood . They are nothing like my imagination. Everyone turned out to have some story which melts my heart .

Bell

I fixed my makeup and I get myself out of the room . The bell rings and on my way to my locker I meet him again.

"Are you okay?" Dave asks me locking our eyes and I try to be honest around him.

"No, I am not and you know why ."

He doesn't say anything because he knows I hate speaking when I am mad . So, we both end up walking to our literature class together quietly.

After school ends, like always I am outside loitering for my car to arrive and for the first time in one year Dave came up to me to offer me a ride .

" Is your mom coming?"

The air circling in the environment grew stronger. Like it was waiting for my decision as well. Few strands of hair falling over my head started to flew around. I clear them out to inspect his question again. I tighten my grip on my bag's strap gasping.

He looked nervous while asking, not the perfect impression I wanted from him. But my eyes are focused on somewhere else, his face.

The sunlight was falling on him highlighting every notable feature of his. I distract myself from there immediately . I didn't want to look creepy. At least, not yet.

"Umm..no. " I had to lie because I wanted to be in that car with him abysmally .

"Mom's out in..."

I take a pause because I am not that good at lying either. He arches an eyebrow smiling at my foolish self .

I add speaking unsurely , " In grocery? "

THAT'S THE BEST I COULD THINK AT THAT TIME ? My mind screams at me .

"You want me give you a ride?"

He didn't seem that obvious. Just like a friend who wants to help me when I am NOT in need. I agree immediately because I am terribly nervous too.

I hastily get inside sitting on the front seat beside him. My body had this sudden shaking. The emotion earthquake binding me. My heart was beating so wildly that I could hear it in my eardrums. I am pretty sure that's not how someone feels when they are surrounded by just a friend.

It's been a long time since we have taken rides together. So, me being claustrophobic was quite obvious.

Getting inside, the first thing I do is text mom to not pick me up . Cause, I don't want her to yell at me of course.



When we were in the car the first few minutes went so awkward because we were silent and we are never this noiseless.

The sound of the rain pattering on the window reminded me of the silence clouding in the car. The tranquility escalating in the car made everything more fiddly. I was pathetically fretting, praying that he doesn't bring up that day.

"So, how's your life going?"

His eyes stays on the road.

I thank God for that .

"It's going good." I reply with awkwardness itching in my throat .

But, why was he asking me questions like that ? We have been best friends for a long time except this....suddenly he parks the car on one side of the road and my breathing stops for a while .

"I can't stop thinking about it."

He says rotating his body fully towards my position while I try to look straight and not make eye contacts . I know he's trying to find some answers as well as emotions in me. But, me as always is blunt in this situation. My heart was palpitating out of my chest.

"About what?" I ask which was a stupid thing to do since I know what is this about .

"This summer obviously, " his voice hardened sounding more serious .

I softly laugh, terrified, "What about this summer?"

He grabs my right hand tightly holding it in the middle of his hands and thus terminates my shivering .

I leave a huge sigh while he proceeds, " I need to talk about it .''

Um...Hello? I can't . But sure my head wasn't thinking straight. So I say, "Go on. "

And he says instantaneously, " I want to break up with Abby."

My heart literally skips a beat. I have waited for him to say that for a very long time . I ultimately face him.

"You can't. " I shout. Because I don't want Abby to get hurt either.

"I have to. ''

He lets go of my hand looking outside the window when I am the one trying to face him.

" I think I don't have feelings for her anymore."

Every word is making me happy and selfish at the same time .

He looks at me adding ," I don't love her anymore. "

Turns out my friendship is bigger than my crush . So, I had to do something.

" Why now?"

"Because like you said this summer. We are different."

Why did I bother to say that?

"Abby and me we just don't....."

He looks down because he knows I am freaking out .

"Click"

He's got so many friends and the one person he tries express this stuff and take advices from, is the girl who currently has a crush on him. Brilliant!

''Maybe it's just for a few days. I mean it's just been six months right ?" I say reasoning because like I said before Abby might get hurt or super crazy.

"Yes , but I feel it's mutual because she doesn't find time for me too."

Like right now? When she left with Maggie and Alex leaving me with her boyfriend?

"I don't think she's my type."

As soon as I heard it, it pissed me off real hard.

I shout, "Type huh ? What is your type?"

I try to find some reason behind that statement. Because, I thought he's not like those other guys. But then he says ,

" You."