Broken pieces

coffee and confessions

The café—pretentiously named Brewed Awakening because someone thought they were clever—smelled like cinnamon and desperation. At 12:30 AM, it was exactly where people who'd given up on sleep came to caffeinate their existential crises.

A tired barista with purple hair and multiple facial piercings looked up from her phone as they entered, clearly thrilled to have customers at this hour. "Welcome to Brewed Awakening," she deadpanned. "Where your insomnia is our business model."

"I like her," Nelly whispered.

"She's dead inside," Snow replied. "Relatable."

They grabbed a corner booth—the kind with cracked leather seats that had absorbed years of breakup conversations and failed first dates. Nelly peeled off her wet hoodie. Snow kept his on, because apparently hypothermia was less uncomfortable than vulnerability.

"So," Nelly said, sliding into the booth. "I'm Nelly."

"Snow," he replied, sitting across from her.

She raised an eyebrow. "Snow? Like the weather?"

"Like my parents were hippies who thought naming me after precipitation was bohemian." He paused. "And Nelly? Like the rapper?"

"Like my grandma, actually. Eleanor. But everyone called her Nelly, and I guess the name got passed down along with her terrible luck with men."

"Oh good, genetic predisposition to heartbreak. That's encouraging."

"Says the guy literally named after something cold and depressing."

"Touché."

The purple-haired barista appeared at their table, notepad in hand. "What can I get you two lovely disasters?"

"Black coffee," Snow said. "Large. Actually, make it extra large."

"I'll have a hot chocolate," Nelly said. "With extra whipped cream. And those little marshmallows if you have them."

The barista scribbled it down. "So we've got one 'I've given up on life' and one 'I'm desperately clinging to childhood joy.' Classic midnight crowd. Be right back."

As she walked away, Snow actually smiled. Just barely, but it counted.

"Hot chocolate?" he said. "Really?"

"Coffee tastes like dirt."

"That's because you're drinking it wrong."

"Or maybe coffee is just objectively bad and people pretend to like it to seem mature."

"That's the worst take I've ever heard."

"You've known me for five minutes."

"And it's already the worst take."

Nelly grinned. This was good. Banter was good. Banter meant they weren't going to sit in awkward silence while she regretted bringing a stranger to a café.

Their drinks arrived quickly—the perks of being the only customers. Snow wrapped his hands around his coffee like it was a life raft. Nelly topped her hot chocolate with more whipped cream from the canister the barista left on the table, because if you're going to emotionally eat your feelings, commit to it.

"So," Nelly said, taking a sip and leaving a whipped cream mustache she didn't notice. "Who broke your heart?"

Snow's expression shifted. The almost-smile vanished. "What makes you think someone—"

"Your eyes," she interrupted gently. "They look like someone ripped the light out of them."

He stared at her, stunned. For a moment, Nelly thought she'd gone too far. You can't just tell strangers they look dead inside, even if it's true.

But then Snow laughed—a real laugh, even if it was bitter. "That obvious, huh?"

"I mean, you're walking around in the rain at midnight looking like a brooding indie film. The signs were there."

"Fair." He took a long sip of coffee. "Yeah. Four years. Gone just like that."

"Four years?" Nelly whistled low. "That's... wow. What happened?"

"She texted me. Eight words. 'I'm sorry, Snow. I can't do this anymore.'" He said it flatly, like he was reading a weather report. Partly cloudy with a chance of soul-crushing devastation.

"She broke up with you over text?" Nelly's voice rose. "After four years? That's—that's psychopath behavior."

"Right?!" Snow leaned forward, suddenly animated. "Thank you! Everyone keeps saying 'oh, maybe she was scared' or 'she probably had her reasons.' But four years! We were supposed to—" He stopped himself, jaw tightening.

"Supposed to what?"

"Doesn't matter now."

"It matters."

He met her eyes. There was something raw there, something that made Nelly's chest ache. "We were supposed to get an apartment together. She was going to art school. I was doing music. We had plans. A cat named Hendrix. The whole stupid dream."

"Hendrix is a great cat name," Nelly offered quietly.

"Yeah. Jane thought so too." He said her name like it hurt. "She was... everything. You know?"

Nelly didn't know. Not really. But she nodded anyway.

"We met the summer after high school," Snow continued, and now that he'd started talking, he couldn't seem to stop. "I was working at this café—different one, way better than this place, no offense—and she came in every day. Every single day for a week. Ordered the same ridiculous lavender latte. I thought she just really liked lavender."

"But she really liked you."

"Yeah." A ghost of a smile. "She told me later she hated lavender. Hated it. But it was the most expensive drink on the menu and she wanted an excuse to stay longer, so she ordered it anyway and forced herself to drink it."

"That's actually kind of adorable."

"It was." Snow's smile faded. "Everything about her was. The way she'd paint with her tongue sticking out when she was concentrating. How she'd sing off-key in the shower and not care. The way she'd text me random lyrics from songs that made her think of me." He paused. "Past tense. It's all past tense now."

"How long ago did she—?"

"Six hours." Snow checked his phone. "Six hours and forty-three minutes since the text. But who's counting?"

"Oh." Nelly reached across the table instinctively, stopping just short of touching his hand. "Snow, that's—that's fresh. Like, bleeding-wound fresh. You should be home with friends or—"

"Home alone thinking about it? No thanks. Walking aimlessly in the rain? Slightly better." He finally looked up at her. "Talking to a stranger who opens umbrellas wrong? Weirdly therapeutic."

"I don't open umbrellas wrong. That umbrella is defective."

"Sure it is."

They sat in silence for a moment. Not awkward silence—the kind of quiet that feels like a shared breath.

Then Nelly spoke. "You asked what makes me think someone broke your heart. What about you? What makes you think no one's ever broken mine?"

Snow studied her face. Really looked at her for the first time—past the wet hair and the ridiculous whipped cream mustache (which she still hadn't noticed). "You don't have the look."

"What look?"

"The 'I trusted someone and they destroyed me' look. You have a different look."

"And what look is that?"

He tilted his head, considering. "The 'no one's ever chosen me' look."

Nelly's breath caught. How did this stranger see her so clearly?

"That's—" she started, then stopped. "Okay, that's creepy accurate."

"Sometimes broken recognizes broken."

"Deep. Are you a philosophy major?"

"Music. But I listen to a lot of sad indie songs, so same thing."

Despite herself, Nelly smiled. "Music. That's cool. What do you play?"

"Guitar. Piano. I write songs. Wrote songs." He corrected himself. "I don't know what I do anymore."

"You still write songs. One bad day doesn't erase four years of being a musician."

"One bad text," Snow corrected. "Eight words. That's all it took."

"Eight words can't define you."

"They defined my relationship."

"Your relationship isn't you."

Snow blinked. Then, quietly: "You sound like you've given this speech before."

"To myself. Mostly at 3 AM when I can't sleep." Nelly took another sip of her hot chocolate, more for something to do with her hands than thirst. "You want to know something pathetic?"

"We're sharing midnight coffee after meeting as strangers in the rain. Pathetic is clearly the theme here."

"I've never had what you had. The four years. The plans. The apartment with a cat named Hendrix. I've never—" She paused, searching for words. "No one's ever looked at me the way you probably looked at Jane."

"That's not pathetic."

"It feels pathetic."

"It's not." Snow leaned back. "It's worse."

"Excuse me?"

"At least I got to have it and lose it. That's the natural order of heartbreak—you love, you lose, you eventually heal or whatever. But you? You're waiting for something that might never come. That's—" He stopped. "Sorry. That came out darker than I meant."

"No, you're right." Nelly laughed, but it sounded hollow. "That's exactly it. I'm waiting for something that might never come. I'm the girl guys notice but don't choose. The backup plan. The 'you're really cool, but—' girl. I've never been anyone's first choice."

"Their loss."

"Easy to say."

"Doesn't make it less true." Snow met her eyes again. "You made me laugh tonight. First time in six hours and forty-seven minutes. That's not nothing."

"Wow, such a high bar I've cleared."

"Higher than you think."

They smiled at each other—two broken people in a dingy café at almost 1 AM, connected by nothing but bad timing and worse luck in love.

The purple-haired barista walked past, refilling Snow's coffee without asking. "You two are either going to fall in love or become murder partners. I'm placing bets."

"What's the difference?" Snow muttered.

"Not much, in my experience," the barista replied cheerfully, walking away.

Nelly snort-laughed, nearly spitting out her hot chocolate. "I like this place."

"It's growing on me."

"Like mold."

"Exactly like mold."

And just like that, the weight in the room lifted. Just a little. Just enough.