Martin
I’m f*ckjng pissed at myself for letting Amelia go. It’s the opposite of what I really wanted to do, but setting her free is for the best.
‘Keep telling yourself that.’
It’s just a few hours since she left MH, and I’m already busy wallowing in my reckless decision.
I fought the urge to run after her, and I should have, because when I decided that we part, I saw the resolution of acceptance on her face.
She’d accepted what I’d proposed without a fight. That tells me she’s serious. The fact that I’d done it before influenced her.
Now that it is too late, I feel like punching myself over and over again. I didn’t even give her the chance to speak. I completely lost it when she told me to calm down.
At the time, my mind was rapidly running through every scenario that might happen,
