The Ring Of Hopeless Love

The Unknown Reason

          Time passes quickly and the day for the end of the school year comes again. Guess what! I achieve my goal! I became the first honor of our class and even in our batch. It seems like my Cyrus is my fortune or maybe he is just the best inspiration. I'm so happy and even the older me jump with joy. It is summer again and as always I did not go on any vacation but I use my time to study again and get prepared for the next school year. I seldom have communication with Cyrus but my feelings for him were not fading instead it continues to grow and grow. Anyway, my best friends Lian, Jlord, and Bon are always teasing me about Cyrus in our group chat so how could I forget him? The vacation ended again. I know what it brings, it means the new school year is beginning. I'm so excited more than my excitement before because I will see my best friends and classmates again and of course my Mr. Gamer. I wake up so early and fixed myself to be presentable and hurriedly go to school. When I entered the school gate I prayed as I always did, "New school year please be good to me!"Excitedly I look for our room and finally, I found it! I entered the room quickly wearing a smile and excitement on my face. I first saw my best friends together and looking at me with a smile too but their smile is not enough anymore, I'm looking for someone to smile to me too. I know you all know if whom was it, of course, my Mr. Gamer, Cyrus. Finally, he is here, I looked at him and smile and he smiled back at me. Oh my God, I was like in heaven or I'm drowning with this kilig feeling. He's so cute when he smiles! Our teacher arrived and our classes began. After the class, he comes to me and approaches me," Hi Leigh, How are you?" "Still in love with you..." "What?", he asked. "Ammmmmmm Nothing....I...I'm fine." " How about you?" " I'm fine too. It's good to see you again but I need to go home now. Bye....", he replied. After that, he left and I was so happy because on the first day of school my crush and I had a conversation already. I'm more inspired now to go to school every day and achieve my goals. We became so close to each other and started to have long chat conversations even at night. I had this feeling that he also has a crush on me but I don't assume much knowing that I'm not beautiful enough or a perfect girl that boys would admire. A month later the school is preparing for a Sports Festival and students are busy in different pieces of training and practices. My best friend Bon is one of them, he is a volleyball player and of course we will be supporting him. During the festival, an accident happens. We were watching Bon's game. Bon is a spiker and when he tries to hit a spike he got a sprain and he fell. Lian and the other members of the team hurriedly help Bon out of the Volleyball Court and bring him to the Clinic. I follow them with Cyrus but the school nurse was not there. I decided to help Bon myself, I get an ice bag and apply it to his foot, and gently made a smooth massage on the area. I really care about my best friends as they were my brothers already. At the back Cyrus was just looking at Bon and me, he seems not worried but he seems to be jealous. "Is this for real? Is he really jealous? but why?" I asked myself. After the Sports Festival, everything turns back to normal until the celebration for the World Teachers Day is approaching. The Student Government asked every section to prepare a performance for the teachers. As the class president, I asked my classmate Ken and of course Cyrus if they can represent our class in a performance, " Can you guys sing for our teachers in the Teachers Day?" and they said yes. I help them find a song to sing and in their practice. I was so happy because I spend more time with Cyrus during the practice but in the middle of the practice, he told me something that makes me sad for myself but happy for him." Leigh, can I share with you something? I have already a girlfriend, her name is Angel. I met her at my aunt's burial. She is a friend of my cousin.  I love her but my parents don't want me to have a girlfriend at this time because I'm still too young at the age of fifteen." What a co-incident we share the same rule. " If you really love her then fight for her,"  I said to him. I'm saying those words to him but I myself can't fight for him even I really love him. Damn self. After I said those words I asked to leave to do something even there is none. I was really hurt by what I've known.

           Finally, Teachers Day comes and Ken and Cyrus sing for the teachers as our deal. I was happy to hear him singing even though I know now that he has already a girlfriend. His voice is like an angel. It is good to my ears and it was relaxing. When they finish singing the crowd clap their hands loudly. After they sing I thank them for the favor. After the program, we all happily went home. The next day, Teachers Day is over but why the connection we build together is over too. Cyrus seems to avoid me after Teachers Day. Every time I try to approach him, he refuses to. Every time we cross our ways he turns back. Until I discover from his cousin Pat which is a classmate too that Angel breaks up with him. Knowing it I asked myself," If things between him and Angel is over why does he need to avoid me? As far as I have known I did not do anything! What is my sympathy?" I message him but he is not replying and he always ignores me in our room. It's hard for me to handle such a situation. I don't how to fix it because I don't even know if what's happening between us. My best friends tried to help me but they can't. Three months before the end of the school year, all I do is trying to approach him. The school year ended but we never fix our friendship. I still became the first honor of the class and our batch but I'm not happy enough. Am I losing my Mr. Gamer? This cant be! During the summer vacation, as I always did, I didn't go for family vacations instead I study and prepare for the next school year but from-to-time I'm trying to message Cyrus until I get tired and lost hope that I can fix it anymore. I stop messaging him and just focus on my lesson and here we go again vacation ended quickly. It means our last school year in Junior High is beginning. I'm not excited as I always felt before and but I'm so prepared for our new lessons. I wake up early and get ready for school. When I entered the school gate I did not pray because I know that this school year will not be good for me because I lost my Mr. Gamer. but still, I smile going inside our room. When I entered the room I first saw him with a sad face. I want to approach him and comfort him but I am afraid. I miss seeing his smile and of course our long conversations. I really want to comfort him and finally, I have decided to approach him when my best friends call my name. Instead of going to Cyrus, I continue my steps towards Bon, Lian, and Jlord. They asked if how am I doing and I answered I'm fine even I'm not. The first day of school ended but he never approaches me. I went home without anything but a fake smile to show my family that I'm happy.