Mine Forever

Chapter 5

The sun had made its way down the clouds leaving away darkness. But even in this darkness there's a hope of light. The smiling moon and the bright stars. These are our hope of light. When the night befalls us we close ourselves in a cage remembering our truths which we don't want the world to know. Stars are our companion in our sorrow when no one is. No ones knows the pain, the agony and the heartbreak we suffer except the nights because it is the time when we open up crying silently remembering our nightmares and our memories especially the beautiful ones....

I was so lost in my thought while gazing at the entire scenery infront of me giving me some hope that one day, insha Allah one day every thing will be alright. That one day I'll set every thing right that have ripped both of us apart

The buzzing of my mobile brought me out of my trance. I looked and saw my mobile laying down on the soft green grass. Picking it up I opened the message which was sent to me by Ayan bhai

Dinner at Manal's place in one hour. Papa told me to tell you. Hope you'll be there. See ya buddy

-Ayan

I sighed and kept my mobile down and looked up to see the entire town buzzing with activities. Even at this time of a day the town is active. Cars moving. The beautiful lights making the town look more beautiful in this dark night

Dinner at Manal's place. She'll be there. How will I face her after that day? Never for once did I talk to her after that day. I know she is not the one who will judge me but I know she would be hurt with me for doing that thing to her which she least expected. For other's it won't look like a big thing but for a girl like her its like a slap on her face. Even though I knew my mistake I never apologized to her

How will I face you Sara?

Washing away the thoughts and telling myself that I won't talk to her, I made my way towards my BMW and started it making my way towards Manal's house

Never for once did I talk to her nor did she call or message me after that day. No one in my family nor her's knows the real reason behind our not talking to each other.

I was not looking ahead while driving when I felt a car making its way towards me. Checking my lane I found out that I was the one who was driving in the wrong direction, I hurriedly turned my car towards my left and applied the break with full force. The car was mere inches away from an oak tree otherwise it would have dashed and than I wouldn't haven gotten my car for the next one year and I don't want to loose it at any cost

After checking that my car was alright and that there were no scratches I started my car and kept aside all my thoughts, because I don't wanna encounter an anger mother for being reckless while driving

It took exactly 65 minutes for me to reach Manal's place. I parked my car in the parking lot in my usual spot which is just for me and I looked around and found Ayan bhai's and Yazan's car already parked meaning they were inside. I looked down at my cloths that I was wearing, black jeans and a black jacket. Perfect! And I made my way towards my destination with my mobile phone in one hand and the car keys in the other

"Where's my son? Isn't he going to come?" I heard my mom ask someone while I was entering

"I'm here mama." I said and made my way towards where everyone were standing

"Assalamualaikum" I greeted everyone while moving my eyes in the whole room to find the person of my thoughts. But my luck, she wasn't present here even when Muskan was, she wasn't

And why would she be here after what you did to her

But still she could have stayed here for dinner. I haven't seen her for so long

It was your mistake and you didn't even solve it. So now face it!

"Walaikumassalam beta. How are you? Where were you for so long?" She started asking me questions as if I have just landed from abroad

"I was busy with my work but see here I'm here and Alhumdulillah I'm good." I said and kissed her forehead

It always feels good when my mom is concerned about me making me look like a small baby infront of her. Even when I'm all grown up she doesn't sleep without seeing if I had my food or not. Indeed Allah (s.w.t) made the most beautiful human on this earth whom we call mom. They are really a blessing from Allah(s.w.t). The way they love us, no one else can love us but them

I smiled at my mom and thanked Allah(s.w.t) for blessing me such beautiful, caring and loving mother

"I'm hungry. Serve the food." Manal's father said making everyone in the room laugh

Rumana appi made her way towards the kitchen to serve the food while every elder member of the family including ladies made their way towards the dinning room to have their food while the youngsters sat down, Allah knows what doing

I was about to sit down when I got a call from my business partner. After excusing myself I made my way outside the house to talk to him peacefully because I know my cousin's mouths won't be shut for long

Along with my study i handle my fathers business. After talking to him for 15 minutes and finalizing the deal and promising to meet later I ended the call and made my way towards the hall when I stopped in my track as the person sitting infront of me took my breath away. The person of my thoughts

She was looking beautiful with just her natural look with no make-up on. While she was wearing her signature colour. Black. She is into the colour. Every time I see her she is just in that colour. Realizing something I looked down and saw that I was also wearing the same colour.

I was watching the view infront of me with a small smile on my lips and my arms crossed on my chest and I was hiding behind the big door so that no one would catch me.

Sara was talking to Ruhana with Ruhana on her lap and Ruhana was answering her with her not so clear words. I was gazing at them without blinking my eyes when Manal's shrill voice made me close my ears

This girl. I pity her husband

She was telling everyone that we would be playing truth and dare when I heard Sara reply in negative and telling Manal that she will play with Ruhana and Ruhana replied to her positively that's when Manal ordered her to play as she was the bride

Rolling my eyes at her I made my way inside pretending to have not listened anything

"What are we playing?"I asked while pretending to be confused

"MAMUUUU" Ruhana was sitting in Sara's lap jumped out and made her way towards me while I knelt down to her level

"Hey baby girl! How's you?" I asked while ruffling her hair

"Gud." She replied while showing her teeths that were on their way

"Good. Good." I said and looked up where Sara was sitting and that's when our eyes met. She was the first one to avert her eyes. I was still looking at her when I heard Manal

"Ohh.. bhai you came now come sit we are playing truth and dare." I was still gazing at her when Manal came and stood infront of me

"Huh!? And from when did you started calling me bhai?" I asked her while raising my eyebrows at her

"From today as I realised that you are older to me." She said while smiling speechlessly

"Yeah yeah I'm older to you for more than 10 years right?" I asked her sarcastically

"Hahah very funny." She replied hole rolling her eyes at me

"Leave that. Come we are going to get late for our game." She as if and we both made our way towards our seats while I saw Sara playing with her fingers which she does when she is nervous

She is nervous because of me!

After two minutes everyone were sitting in their places and were about to start the game when we heard a shrilling voice coming from the corridor. Everyone closed their ears not able to handle the voice

"Hii everyone." She said and that's when I removed my hands from my ears and opened my eyes which had closed automatically hearing her voice. I looked up at her and she was wearing a jean and a top and a scarf in her neck

Astagfirullah

Everyone murmured a small hi while I saw Sara sending her a small smile which she clearly ignored

"Can I join you?" She asked while looking at me and battling her eyelashes

"Sure." Rumana appi said

After yelling a thank you she made her way towards Sara. I was looking at her confused as to what she is up to

"Excuse me, can you please get up I wanna sit beside Manal." She replied while glaring at her and I was shocked

The nerve of this girl!

"Sure." Sara replied and smiled at her while she was smirking. Really? Instead of thanking her she was standing there smirking.

Sara made her way towards Aisha di and Rumana appi while they were whispering something to her while she replied something and smiled at them.

I turned round and saw both Muskan and Manal glaring at saadiya while I was doing the same when I felt a hand on my shoulder

"Relax." It was Ayan bhai who

said that while smirking at me

I narrowed my eyes at him and looked at where Sara was sitting smiling at Muskan and Manal who were glaring at saadiya. I was looking at her when suddenly she turned around and our eyes met. I felt that the time had stopped. Suddenly she looked down and I smiled at her

Everyone started playing the game. The game was going and bottle was turning again and again after the task was done by the person. Some made us laugh while doing funny things while some told us about their personal affairs. Everyone got a chance except me and Sara. Suddenly the bottle stopped at me

Wrong timing!

"So......my dear brother truth or dare?" Rumana appi asked while smirking at me

"Hmm..truth." I replied while thinking for a second

"So... do you love anyone?"She asked me while I was shocked listening to her question. Looking around I saw everyone waiting for my answer including Sara

"I'll chose dare." I said after some time not wanting to answer the question

"No now you have to answer us no going back." It was Aisha di who said that with a smirk plastered on her face

What should I do with these sisters of mine. They are such annoying creatures. Instead of asking something else they had to ask me this question. Seriously?love and me? Impossible

"Huh...I..no." I replied while shuttering

I face plamed myself for shuttering

Allah why me?

When I don't love anyone than why did I shutter? I should go to the doctor and do my check up

"Tell us the truth." This time it was Faizan jeeju who said that while grinning mischievously

Even he have started becoming naughty staying with my sister. Rumana di you wait I'll take my revenge for asking me this question

While I was thinking how to convince them that I'm not in love with anyone I saw my mom coming with all my chachi's, that when an idea got stuck in my brain

"Fine... yes I do love someone."I said and saw everyone's eyes were wide open. I turned around and saw Sara whose eyes were ready to bulge out at any time

"Awww it definitely would be me, right Zaim?" Saadiya asked me while grinning ear to ear

"No... it's not you. I love someone who cares for me, who understands me and whose there for me always. My mom." I said and got up from my place and made my way towards mama who was smiling at me with unshed tears in her eyes

"I love you mama." I said and hugged her while I heard everyone in the room clapping

I parted away from mama and wiped the tears that were rolling down her cheeks. I turned around and looked at Rumana di who was smiling at me

"Okay.. baccha party enough of your game... go and have your food." Manal's mother said and everyone made their way to have their food

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Once everyone had finished eating their food, the girls were busy in the kitchen, the elders were chatting in the backyard while the boys were discussing about the new video game that would be launched next month

I was making my way towards the boys when I felt a tug on my jeans. Looking down knowing it was Ruhana I picked her up and saw her giving me a sad smile

"What happened to my princess?" I asked her

"No onsh playing whith meh. Evely one eez beezy." She replied while playing with my hair

"So now. You want a baby to play with you?" I asked her while she nodded her head while making my way to her mother to give her to Rumana appi

"Yes." She said while her eyes were shining with a big grin on her

"Insha Allah! Wait for few more months. You will have someone to play with." I said to her and saw Rumana appi talking to all the girls who were standing around

"Appi, here take your daughter. She is feeling sad because she doesn't have anyone to play with." I said and handed Ruhana to appi

"Aww.. my baby is alone , she doesn't have anyone to play?"Rumana appi asked while kissing her

"Yesh...bhut youh know mamu shaid he will give meh a baby to play with." She said while smiling brightly and my eyes were ready to budge out

"Ahh...so you are ready to get married that you are telling Ruhana that you will give her a baby ha?" Rumana appi asked me while grinning ear to ear

"What? No." I said horrified at what she just said

"Than how will you give...." I cut her off by saying

"I did not say such thing. I just told her to wait for few more months and Aisha di's baby will be there to play with her. Gosh you ladies why are you behind me to get me married?" I said and was about to leave when I heard Rumana appi say

"Because I want you to finally settle in your life. Besides mom I want someone, who'll understand you , who'll care for you, who'll really love you and most importantly who will bring you more closer to Allah and complete you half Deen." She said sincerely and for a second my eyes flickered over Sara who smiling and was talking to Manal and Muskan

Shaking my head I walked off from there not replying to her and making my way towards where the boys were. I sat down beside Ayan bhai and was thinking about Rumana appi's words

Will someone really understand me?

Will someone really care for me just like my mom?

Will someone really love me for what I am with all my imperfections and after knowing my past?

Who will be the one who will complete my half deen?

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