I’ve Got You

CHAPTER 19

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Grimm threw open the door, about ready to hit Jared for interrupting when he was finally so close to having Eris to himself. But stopped short when he was confronted with the sight of him. Jared’s hands were slick with dark blood and he looked as if he’d seen a ghost. “I think Sasha’s having a miscarriage” he said in a weak whisper. Grimm scoffed. “Sasha’s not pregnant... Wait... Is she?”. Jared looked at the floor. “We hooked up a week or so before the outbreak. She’d only be about six weeks... She found out the day before we went on scout duty”. Grimm’s mind flashed back to the pregnant host Sasha had shot. At the time he didn’t notice much, but she had seemed to take an emotional hit after shooting it. Could her newly discovered pregnancy be why?

“Why are you just standing there?!” Jared panicked

“Help us!” Grimm paled.

“I don’t have supplies... I’m not a gynecologist. I-I wouldn’t know where to start...I haven’t dealt much in women’s health”. He admitted, swallowing thickly. Eris, over hearing the conversation jumped up from the bed. “I’m not a Doctor... But I’ve lost two pregnancies. I remember most of what went on when I was taken to hospital. I could help with some stuff... If you’re okay with that?.” Grimm looked at her, and she was suddenly realizing that for all their bonding and heart to hearts she had never revealed to him that she had lost babies to miscarriage. Pushing past him she touched Jared’s shoulder “First things first, Bleeding can be normal early on in a pregnancy. So depending on how heavy it is, it may just be pregnancy spotting”. Jared shook his head

“There’s a lot of it. Some clots too”. Eris looked back at Grimm. “Check the staff room for a first aid kit. I need clean towels for the blood, and if there are any pain killers, grab those too. Not if they thin the blood. Got it? She’ll be bleeding enough as it is. Antibiotics are a bonus. Infection is always a possibility”

“Yes ma’am” Grimm breathed, swaying on his feet before shaking himself out of it and rushing towards the staff room. Eris looked at Jared. “Where is she?” Jared gulped

“In the bathroom of the room at the end... She thought...” he trailed off staring down at his bloodied hands. “She thought she was constipated and needed to try go? That’s the cramps. Sometimes they can be extremely painful. Take me to her I’ll see what

I can do”

Sasha sat on the bathroom floor of her motel room, sobbing with her head in her hands and her pants around her ankles when Eris entered the room. Streaks of thick blood ran down her legs. She was sweating profusely. She looked up at Eris, her face a picture of despair. “Can you stop it?!” she cried. “I can’t lose this baby!”. Eris pursed her lips, sinking down on to the bloodied floor beside Sasha. “Once a miscarriage starts, there’s really nothing you can do” Eris said honestly, Sasha wailed.

“Where’s Grimm?!”

“Getting towels. I’m so sorry, Sasha. But the only thing we can do is manage the pain and try stop the bleeding and hope to god you pass all the tissue”.

“It hurts!” Sasha screamed, sagging in to Eris.

Eris wrapped her arms around Sasha and stroked her cheek. “I know.”

“I don’t wanna lose my baby” she sobbed. Eris looked up at Jared who paced in the doorway of the bathroom, fists in his hair, looking helpless and pale. “Sasha I’m sorry” he groaned. She ignored him, seemingly unable to meet his gaze.

Grimm came to them a short while later with towels and a heat pack. Eris raised her brow at him. “No pain killers, huh?” Grimm shook his head.

“Some Panadeine forte, but it thins the blood, I can’t risk giving her any until well after the bleeding has come to a complete stop. Eris cringed, recalling that the bleeding from her second pregnancy loss took two weeks to subside. Though she didn’t say it aloud, she didn’t want to distress Sasha even more. Eris held her hand out for one of the towels , taking it, she tucked it under Sasha’s hips. “If you’re okay with me taking a look I’m gonna ask you to lie down now and place your feet flat on the ground, legs bent and shoulder width apart. I wont be able to see in to the uterus to check for pregnancy tissue, but I have to at least get you cleaned up and check for any tissue that may have already come out. Can I do that?”. Sasha complied, heavy sobs shaking through her entire frame. “It doesn’t matter any more” she wailed “Nothing does!”. Eris’s heart shattered, she remembered the loss so well, the unwillingness to draw breath, when the life that had begun inside of her would never take a breath of its own. And she was sorry that Sasha now knew that kind of loss as well. “Eris peered between Sasha’s legs and blanched at what she saw. “I don’t remember bleeding like this” She breathed, more to herself than anyone else. Cleaning up what she could, Eris applied pressure while Grimm held the heat pack firm against Sasha’s lower stomach. “Is this amount normal?” He asked, gesturing to the blood soaked towels. Eris shook her head. “She shouldn’t be soaking more than two pads an hour... This is at least six pads worth of blood...”. Grimm hummed, probing Sasha’s stomach, massaging it. “Trying to encourage any remaining tissue out?” Eris asked, Grimm nodded.

“Any remaining tissue could become septic. That might be why the bleeding hasn’t stopped. Still some tissue caught in there somewhere. I haven’t had much experience with gynecological procedures but I’m pretty sure midwifes do this after a woman gives birth for the same reason.”Eris nodded

“they do,”. She agreed quietly, trying not to become overwhelmed at the increasing frantic desperation of Sasha’s screams. Eris winced, a sad ache in her throat as she continued to clean. Suddenly a thick glob of pregnancy tissue slicked into the towel she held by Sasha’s entrance. It was no bigger than a bottle cap, and merely resembled a piece of raw liver, set in jelly. Eris recalled the sight of her own lost child. Her first miscarriage, an embryo just like this one and she stifled a sob. “Oh” she said, feeling slightly faint. Sasha raised her head off the ground, eyes trained on the towel in Eris’s hands. “What?” she asked, her cries rising in to even more of a panic. “What?!” Eris’s mouth opened and closed rapidly, trying to form words that wouldn’t come to her. “Is that the baby?”. Eris didn’t answer. Sasha looked at her, completely and utterly broken “I need to see it”. Eris shook her head “No you don’t” she whispered.

“Give it to me!” Sasha shrieked. Startled, Eris blinked, handing Sasha the towel, Sasha cradled the bloodied towel in her hands as she stared at the coin sized blob. “Oh my baby” she moaned throwing her head back. Screaming with all she had left in her. Eris turned away as she dabbed at the easing flow of blood between Sasha’s legs. Trying her best to tune out the screams of a grieving mother.