Learning to trust again

Chapter 5, I prefer you call me Ala

Juniper POV

Efraïm leaves the room, and Hannah stays with me. Is it okay if I close the doors? I nod and see her closing the doors. Hanna comes to check my iv, and pulls it out. You had enough fluids. I want you to eat and drink enough. If you don't I will make you! I nod, yes I will.

You could take a shower if you want, your wounds are healed enough. I nod, Hanna helps me up and gets some necessities. When I turn around to the window, I freeze. I turn around and flee to the closet. I look around and see an open door. I crawl in and close the door. I try to breathe slowly but I feel my heartbeat pumping up. I start to hyperventilate.

Juniper! I hear Hannah run in to the closeth. Juniper, where are you. My hyperventilation gets worse, I hear Hannah open up the closet door. Juniper look at me, she puts one hand on my stomach and one on my back. Ssh Juniper, try to breathe slowly. Breath in through your nose and out through your mouth. After a few minutes, I feel myself calming down, the breathing becomes easier. I start to sob. Hannah hugs me and keeps giving me breathing instructions. For the first time in a year I cry. After a while Hannah let me go and stands up. Juniper the shower has to wait, Efraïm asks if we could come to his office. I shake my head and try to resist. No please don't. Hannah sighs, Juniper stop being stubborn and come with me. No, I scream. I don't want to do this. I can't. You cant keep me! Get out, leave me alone! I don't need you! Hannah walks away. I hear her slam the door.

I close my eyes. Someone was nice to me and I had to screw it up. I weep away the tears I feel falling.

After a while, I hear someone knocking on my door. I hear someone coming in, I look up and see Efraïm sitting down on the ground, he looks at me. You made Hannah mad. That doesn't happen a lot. I feel a tear running out of my eye, I try to wipe it away but more tears stream out of my eyes. I try to hide so Efraïm cant see me cry. Suddenly, I feel Efraïm sitting down next to me. Junper? are you okay, are you hurt somewhere? I shake my head en crawl down in the corner. I hear Efraïm sigh.

Efraïm POV

She is crying, I feel my wolf acting up. Efraïm, I need to hurt the one who hurt her, maybe the man who came for her hurt her. I wanna hurt them! I shush Daniël. I look to Juniper, Juniper there..... I am thinking how I should say this. Juniper, there were two men. I see Juniper jumping up. Please, please don't believe them. I did nothing I,... Juniper calm down, I don't believe them, I say. I see Juniper calming down. Juniper, I need to know. Why is Alpha Jay looking for you? I see Juniper stiffen. Ze breathes in and out a few times. I don't think that's your place to know.

I grumble. I stand up and walk out of the closet. I grab a chair and trow it against the wall. I see Juniper jump up. You don't get it, I try to protect you, if I don't know how to help you, I would have to give you over. He claims you are his mate and the mother of his child! I need to cool down. Tomorrow I will be back and we are gonna talk about this. I leave the room and slam the door.

I run outside, shift and run into the forest. When I reach the packborder I stop. I shift and look out over the sea. Ofcourse I would never hand her over. I want her to trust me, so she can tell me what happened to her and why they are looking for her. After a while I decide to head back to the packhouse. I mindlink Oliver and Adam, we need to find a way to get that Jay away from her, because I would never leave her. I take a look at the water and howl then I run back.

Juniper POV

The door slams. Aargh, threatening me, who does he think he is. I sigh and turn around. When I was little my mom used to tell stories about how the Moon Goddess made mates, wolves who were soulmates. My parents were one of the few pairs of official mates in my old pack. When they were younger, they were matched by they're parents. My mom always told me she was so lucky being mated with my father. They had a awesome relationship. That changed when my mom died when I was six. A rogue attack. My father changed and it was like he wasn't himself. He told me he was weak when he was with my mom. He teaches me real mates are fake and they hurt you and make you vulnerable.

I walk over to the bed, I look over at the window. It is the full moon. Somewhere I hear a wolf howl, my heart hurts. I feel a tear fall. I lie down and I am fast asleep.

A bright light wakes me up, I close my eyes shut. I roll over and feel I am not in my bed anymore. I feel grass? I open my eyes and look around, I am lying on a hillside. I get up and walk down. When I walk down the hill I see al kind of colourful flowers and a small stream going down the hill. I put my foot in it. It is so cold, I pull it back.

The water flows out of the mountains, so it can be cold, I hear someone say. I jump up and turn around. In front of me I see a beautiful woman with a long white dress. She has long blond hair and smiles. She looks like she shines. litteraly.

I eh. Sorry, I say a bit startled. That's okay Juniper, I scared you. I look at the woman with a surprised look. You, you know my name?

The woman smiles. Of course, I am the one who made you. Now I look even more surprised. You are the Moon Goddess?

The woman nods and smiles. But I prefer you call me Ala. Come with me, let's take a walk. She stretches out her hand to me. I slowly take her hand. Her hand feels so soft like a satin fabric. She takes me with her and for a while we walk next to each other, saying nothing.

I clear my throat. Uhm Moon Go... uh Ala, why am I here? Am I dead? The Moon Goddess smiles, no you ardent dead. I took you here because I need to talk to you. How is your new mate? I eh, I think you know? I say with a tremor in my voice. Ala smiles, that's right, but I want to hear it out of your mouth, you know, I made him especially for you. After al that happened, I wanted to give you someone special. I swallow the tears I feel coming up. Why did you think it was necessary to give me a mate? After all that happened, the only thing a mate ever did to me was hurt me, he hurt me and where were you? I notice myself becoming angry. I let go of Ala's hand and stop walking.

Ala keeps smiling, but I also see pain in her eyes. Juniper, I never wanted that for you. I make you for each other but I never completely know what will happen. You are no robots I created. I created you with your own spirit and mind. I can not influence your decisions. There are so many possibilities on how life will continue for you, I can't say anything about it. The only thing I can do is take care of you and help when it is necessay. It hurt me when he hurt you, I gave you the strength and help to get out of there.

I sigh and look at Ala. Her words calmed me down. I I, i stumble over my words and I start to cry. Ala lays a hand om my shoulder. It's okay Juniper, you went through a lot, I want you to know that it isn't over yet. I gave you second change mat by giving you Efraïm, because he can help you. But you would have to trust him. I promise he would never hurt you, you are also his second chance mate, you are his second chance on a new future. I nod, but how, and what is coming? I feel a small breeze and look up, the moon Goddess disappeared.

I wake up startled. I look up and see the sun shining trough the window.

Efraïm POV

It's nine aam. Last night we made plans and after a short rest we are back in my office. Adam looks out of the window. Efraïm I think it's the best to double the border patrol, I don't want loose end there. I will also order some men to keep an eye out for odd visits or people lurking near our pack. I nod a little absentminded. O and Efraïm, Hannah and I are think about pups so I am gonna need some time of. I nod again.... Whait what? I growl at Adam. What did you say? Adam turns around. Efraïm you are not focused. Are you okay? I shake my head, I i don't know what to do with Juniper. Adam stays quiet. He nods. Oliver clears his troath. I am not really experienced with mate but maybe you could talk to her? We will manage. You need to talk to your mate. I nod, thanks.

I walk over to Juniper's room. My hand ready to knock. I sigh and knock. I knock two times. Come in I hear Juniper say. I frown my eyebrows and open the door. Juniper is fully dressed and sits on the bed eating her breakfast. I smile a bit, she is eating.

I see your eating, thank you. Juniper nods. I walk over to the chair and sit down on it, I look outside and wait for her to finish her breakfast. I see her eyes going over me when she eats. When she is done she pushes the tray aside and looks at me. I clear my troat, but before I can say something, Juniper is already talking. We need to talk. I am startled, You want to talk? Juniper nods, I ehm, i. I see her trembling, but then she looks determined. I want to talk about the mate stuff. I don't know how it feels and I feel attracted to you and so much and well that. Now it is my turn to be surprised. I stand up and walk over to the bed, but I make sure there is some space between me and Juniper. I look at her suspiciously. Why did you change your mind?

I ehm, well last night I talked to Ala and she told me I could trust you and you would never do anything to hurt me. I look up. My eyes turn black. Who hurt you? Was it the Jay guy? Juniper jumps up startled. I Push Daniël back in my mind. And my eyes go back to my original colour. Sorry I startled you, my wolf is quite possessive. I would never hurt you. Don't be afraid of it. Juniper calms herself down and nods. But Juniper, who is Ala?

Juniper breaths in deeply, that's the moon Goddess. We talked last night. She told me she made us for each other, and you can save me and take care of me. We have to prepare for what is coming. I don't know what she meant, and when I asked her, she was gone.

I am surprised, the Moon Goddess talked to her?

I look outside. A Alpha please say something. I turn around, Juniper, I want you to call me Efraïm. I am your mate, not your alpha. We are an alpha pair together. Juniper nods. Juniper, I want you to know you can trust me. I will never hurt you. I see tears starting to stream down her cheek. I move myself closer to her. She's scared but lets me come closer. I sit next to her and put my arms around her. I feel her calming down.