Broken World

The End Result

I could start y'all off with how it began, but I'm start y'all at where it all ends. Here I am sitting in my living room, with my baby on my lap wondering what's next? Am I gone make it to next week? let alone tomorrow? dam what did I do wrong? why am I blaming myself? why is everybody turning on me? Screw all them questions let me clear my mind usually I'd smoke one but ion even feel like rolling up. Let me put lil baby in the stroller an take a walk cause this can't be where it all ends. this can't be my life. I'm Single,Fine, I hustle and I'm a mom this ain't the life I want. I want a family I wanna be able to come home to my man, not every night but some nights I just want him to hold me. be there for me pick me up when I feel like I'm down. lift me up sheesh. But instead he hate my guts. I'm not the bad guy but let him tell it I ruin everything. I loved him with all my heart from the first time I seen Tim it's was like love at first sight. a dream come true. he was everything tall handsome and smelled good as ever. seemed like he could be the perfect man when I opened the door he waited til I said come in and hugged me , ooo chile I slightly melted. we sat an talked a lil bit watching some good movie, most of the movies was just playing while we got to know each other.we smoked, so it was all good he started holding me, kissing my cheeks and started rubbing the other cheeks you know this onion I got. an my gawd the way this mans hands felt on my body, sent my body in chills and my eyes rolling behind my head. Tim I whispered softly in his ear (I want you, take my body and make love to my soul).

I wish I could remember the movies we watched or what was playing but I cant. One thing I do remember is those words I said softly and what happened next. ugh Tim's grip got a lil harder as he's caressing my body l*****g my neck and chest. next thing I know I'm gripping this mans face kissing him not caring where his mouth been, not giving a dam about nothing, but him. my shirt came over my head and with one hand he unstrapped my b*a. my gawd my gawd yes lawd he started sucking the dog s**t out my titties making a moan burst out. he picked me up and laid me down started removing my shorts. Tim started kissing my thighs and moved to my p***y lawddddd. I don't like head but Tim's head good gawd all mighty was powerful the best I've ever had. he was so gentle and caring making sure it felt good making sure I was fine he was just so perfect. finally he got on top and my world was rocked. he didnt pound me he didnt go to slow he was just perfect in all ways he gently eased in and out checked my body language and the magic kept happening, my legs started shaking my body got hot and my p***y started leaking dripping spills of water each stroke he put his palm on my top p***y bone and kept sending magical strokes and by time we was done my floor was soaked like I spilled a gallon of water. he almost shot my club up but a b***h ran and trust me baby I didnt wanna run I wanted to catch it all. and from this day followed by the next , a b***h been stuck. I should've never told Tim I wanted him. I should've never told him I want him to take my body and make love to my soul. cause now I'm stuck 3 years later feeling like s**t. questioning myself, and ready to go thru phones. see I dont go thru phone's once I feel like some shiesty s**t going on. I bounce I dip especially if you switching up on me. Tim definitely switched up on me. some dream guy I thought was my fantasy come true.