"Erik?" s**t, she noticed me.
"Uh hey" I couldn't even smile!
"What why?" Did I say that aloud? Oops.
"Uh nothing," I said as I sat down on the bed, next to her.
"Uh, Erik?"
"Yeah?"
"Don't take it the wrong way but why are you here? I mean, do you want something?" She looked at me.
"I don't know" I honestly said. I mean, I was so enthusiastic that I will tell her that I love her and that I cannot live without her, no matter what.
But now, staring into her eyes, I feel numb.
It has suddenly dawned upon me that I won't be able to see her beautiful face or eyes when she is gone or maybe that she doesn't love me and that is why she didn't tell me about her problem.
And that is why; I did what I did next.
I don't know whether I will get a chance to do this again but yeah, at least I
