Evelina Sinclair
Darkness has weight. It presses down on my chest, thick and suffocating, carrying the scent of blood and s*x and something else—*life*, stubborn and clinging, refusing to let go.
I drift.
There is no time in the void, only sensation. The ghost of hands gripping my hips. The memory of teeth in my shoulder. The phantom stretch of being split open, filled, *claimed*. My body remembers even when my mind cannot, twitching and whining in the dark, caught between death and something else.
Two days.
I learn this later, when the world finally lets me surface. Two days of hanging by a thread while my wolf—the weak, broken thing I thought was dead—knits my flesh back together with desperate, starving determination.
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The light hurts.
Not the burning white of before, but a soft, grey afternoon light that filters through linen curtains. I become aware slowly: the scratch of rough sheets against my bare skin, the distant clatter of the infirmary, the low hum of voices kept respectfully quiet.
*I'm awake.*
The thought comes sluggish, wrapped in cotton. I shouldn't be. I know this with the same certainty I know my own name. No one survives the Supreme Alpha's bed. No one.
I try to open my eyes, but they're sealed shut, crusted with something—tears, blood, I don't know. My tongue is swollen, stuck to the roof of my mouth. I try to swallow and find my throat too dry to manage.
Water.
The need for it consumes me, sudden and desperate. I try to lift my hand, to signal, to *beg*, but my arm feels like lead, disconnected from my will.
"Shh," a voice murmurs near my ear. "Don't try to move. You've been out for two days. We almost lost you twice."
*Two days.*
The words don't make sense. I was dying. I *remember* dying—the blackness swallowing me, the relief of it, the final exhale.
"Water," I rasp. It barely sounds human.
An arm slides behind my shoulders, lifting me slightly, and then—blessed, cold, liquid heaven—glass presses against my cracked lips. I drink greedily, messily, water spilling down my chin and neck, soaking into the bandages wrapped around my chest. It burns going down, but I don't stop until the glass is empty.
Then the arm lowers me back, and I fall into the pillows with a whimper that sounds embarrassingly loud in the quiet room.
"Easy," the voice says. A man. Gentle. "Your body is still repairing. The internal damage was... extensive."
I force my eyes open—really open—and stare at the physician leaning over me. He's older, kind-faced, with silver threading through his dark hair and eyes that look like they've seen too many impossible things.
"How?" I manage. The word scratches my throat raw.
He sets the empty glass aside and checks my pulse, his fingers cool against my wrist. "We don't know. The Moon Goddess, perhaps. A mutation in your bloodline. Or sheer stubbornness." He meets my eyes, and his own are wide with something that looks like awe. "We pronounced you dead, Miss Sinclair. Four hours after they pulled you from his chambers. Your heart stopped. Your breathing ceased. We were preparing your body for the pyre when you gasped—just once—and your heart started again."
I stare at him, uncomprehending.
"You were gone," he whispers, almost to himself. "And then you weren't."
Before I can process this—*dead, I was dead, they were going to burn me*—the door to the private room bursts open.
"Is it true?" A woman rushes in, then stops short, her hand flying to her mouth. "Oh, blessed Mother. It *is* true."
More follow. A steady stream of them—nurses, healers, servants, even guards in the Supreme Alpha's livery—all crowding into the doorway, craning their necks, staring at me like I'm a ghost or a god or some unholy combination of both.
"The Omega," someone breathes.
"She survived the knot..."
"...impossible..."
"...miracle..."
The whispers spread like wildfire, filling the room until the physician stands and holds up his hands.
"Enough! She needs rest, not an audience! Out—all of you!"
They retreat, but slowly, reluctantly, their eyes clinging to me where I lie broken in the bed. I see it in their faces—fear, wonder, greed. I am something new. Something that shouldn't exist.
The physician turns back to me, his expression softening. "Word spread fast. You're... you're rather famous now, Miss Sinclair. The first female to survive the Alpha Supreme's bed. The first in three hundred years."
I close my eyes. *Famous.* I don't want to be famous. I want to be invisible. I want to be gone. I want—
*Revenge.*
The thought surfaces from the dark, sharp and clear as a blade. My stepmother's face. The trader's coins. The matron's disgust. They sold me to die, and I didn't. They wrote me off as meat, and I lived.
I can't die yet. Not until they pay.
The door slams open again, and this time the temperature in the room drops ten degrees.
The matron.
She stalks in like a storm front, her face twisted into a rictus of disbelief and fury. Behind her, I can see the crowd has grown—dozens of faces pressed against the infirmary windows, staring, *gawking* at the miracle.
"You," the matron spits, pointing one claw-like finger at me. She approaches the bed, and the physician steps aside, bowing his head. She stares down at me with eyes like poisoned daggers. "Are you sure you were a virgin? Tell the truth, you lying little w***e. How can you take the Alpha's d**k and be alive? That's impossible! No one survives the knot! *No one!*"
"A miracle," the physician says quietly from his corner. "The Moon Goddess blessed this one."
The matron's eyes narrow to slits. She grabs my chin with bruising force, yanking my face toward the light, studying my eyes, my teeth, my throat. "Liar. Check the sheets. Check the blood. I want proof she was untouched before she went in, or I'll have her flogged for deceiving the Supreme Alpha."
A maid steps forward, trembling, holding a bundle of stained linens. "We... we checked, Mistress. The sheets were marked. She bled pure. She was virgin."
The matron releases me with a shove that makes my head spin. She steps back, her face cycling through emotions too fast to track—disbelief, calculation, and finally, a dark, hungry speculation that makes my stomach drop.
She knows what this means. I know what this means.
I am valuable now. Not as meat to be consumed and discarded, but as something else. Something worth keeping.
The matron smooths her skirts, composing herself, and when she speaks again, her voice is silk wrapped around a knife. "Well. The Moon Goddess has a sick sense of humor."
She turns to leave, then pauses at the door, looking back over her shoulder. Our eyes meet, and I see the future in her gaze—a future of chains and submission, of being used until I break or until I serve some greater purpose.
"I will inform the Supreme Alpha," she says.
Then she's gone, and the door clicks shut behind her with a sound like a prison cell locking.
I stare at the ceiling, my heart hammering against my ribs, and wonder if surviving was actually the worse fate.