A light at the end of the tunnel

All good things come to an end

Josh's POV

I get a phone call from Sarah and she sounds upset, she tells me "Josh my mom lost her job, her company relocated to Washington and they gave her a choice to move there or take a severance package" My heart dropped and I didn't know what to say. What if her mom decides to move? What if I never see her again? So I snapped out of it and told her "its going to be okay beautiful, I promise" I felt bad after saying that because I didn't know if it was going to be okay. Sarah responds sadly "I hope so Josh, I love you and I don't want to be without you." Those words crushed me, were supposed to be together forever and I didn't want to be without her either. I asked her "Sarah can I come over to hold you?" Sarah replies " no Josh, I need to talk to my mom and figure out what she is going to do, what were going to do" It hurt me that she didn't want me to come over. I told her "okay, call me later then?" She said "yes" and hung up. Was she mad at me? why did she hang up? I went to the living room where my mom and dad were. I wanted to ask them for some advice and what might happen. I didn't know what to do because i had no control of her going. She was only 16 and was I was only 17. If I was 18 and done with school, I would follow her to Washington if that's where she lands up going. I lover her very much and can't imagine my life without her. I walk into the living room and I quickly said without thinking. "Sarah might have to move to Washington and I don't know what to do." They both look at me with sympathetic looks on their faces. My mom says "Honey I'm so sorry, but are you sure this is actually going to happen?" I replied "probably, her mom got told either move or get a severance and not have a job basically" My dad then says "Josh it will be okay, nothing is set in stone yet, wait until you here from Sarah" I knew he was right but I had a feeling things weren't going to be okay. 

About 3 hrs go by and I get a call, it was Sarah. I quickly answered eager to hear what she had to say. "Sarah" I said in a concerned voice. She responds "my mom said that if we don't go to Washington, the severance pay she gets wont be enough for us to stay here and hold us over until she finds another job" I had a feeling she was going to tell me bad news. Then she starts talking again "my mom also said if we could stay with one her friends then we could afford to stay and she would have more time to find a job, she hasn't decided yet." Then I started to feel a little hopeful, but not enough to to my hopes up to high. I then said to her " okay that's good, what do you think your mom will decide on?" she says "I think she is going to try and stay, she needs to talk to a few people and figure it out." I started feeling even more hopeful, but still didn't want to get a head of myself. I wanted to see her so bad and wanted to ask her again if i could come over. But before I could she says " Hey Handsome can you come over and see me?, I miss you so much." I was so happy to hear that. I told her " beautiful i'm already on my way." She giggled. I raced to her house as fast as I could. I wanted to give her so many kisses and hold on to her tight. I finally got to her house and I knock on the door. She opens the door and runs to jump on me kissing me. I was so happy to see her and feel her soft lips against mine. I missed her even though it had only been a day. We went in the house and I see her mom holding Caleb. I said "hi" and she said 'hi Josh, how are you doing?" I replied "good now that i'm here with Sarah." She smiled and said " I figured" we went to the kitchen and Sarah couldn't keep her hands off me. I think she felt like she really lost me and nothing had even happen yet. Who was I kidding I thought that too. I looked at her beautiful face and thought I cant loose her ever. 

2 days passed and Sarah and I still wondering what would happen. We tried to act normal and continue to be our happy selves. We would go to school, I would pick her and Caleb up, same routine and trying to act normal as always. Its Tuesday night and I get a call, Its Sarah. I pick up and say 'hey beautiful, whats going on?" she says " my mom found a place for us to stay 5 minutes away from here, Its one of her good friends Yvonne and we will be moving there in a few days" I felt a huge relief and I was so happy I didn't have be without the love of my life. i replied " I'm so happy Sarah, will there be room for all 3 of you?" She says "yes its a 3 bedroom apartment and Yvonne's kids are all grown and don't live with her anymore, my mom will get her own room and me and Caleb will have our own too." She sounded so happy, I was so glad she wasn't going anywhere far away where she had to change schools. I wouldn't see her as much and miss her so much. But anything would have been better than her going to Washington. I told her "I love you beautiful!"  "I want to see you and hug you!" She then replied " I want to see you too, can you come over handsome?" "yes I can beautiful" I went to see her and again she greeted me at the door with hugs and kisses so excited. 

A few days went by and I was at Sarah's house helping her move to Yvonne's house and I was so happy to help and spend time with her. After we finished for the day everything almost moved in, Sarah says " Josh if we go out tonight we need to bring Caleb, I need to bring him with us more often my mom will be busy looking for a job and we don't bring him out with us hardly ever." I paused for a second for some reason and I say " okay well I wanted to go out for dinner just the 2 of us." She replied "well I guess we cant, I need to be with Caleb and not always leave Caleb with my mom" I suddenly said without thinking " I'm not ready to be a father figure and start taking a kid around with us everywhere we go. I realized what I said and don't know why I said it. But I felt like what I said made sense in my head. Sarah looks at me with a look Iv'e never seen before. She tells me "wow okay, I think you should go now" I said "what, I'm sorry but its just how I feel, I didn't mean to sound like a d**k. She said " well you did and I can't believe you would say that." "you knew what you were getting into when you met me, get out!" I felt horrible but I left because I didn't want to make her mad anymore than she already was. I see her face when I leave it was so sad I felt like a piece of s**t for saying what I did. I waited a few hours before I called Sarah to apologize. I was so nervous to hear what she would say. I called her and I got no answer, I called her again and then Sarah answers "i'm done Josh you don't want my son then you don't want me, you cant take what you said back and I don't care what you think anymore" "you hurt me beyond belief Josh, Don't ever call me again" I was shocked and not at the same time. Was this really over? what did I do? 

A couple of days passed and I haven't heard from Sarah, she wouldn't talk to me at school and I was trying to give her some space in hopes she would get over what I said. I wouldn't get over what I said why would she? I missed her so much, I was trying to pay attention to class but I couldn't. This guy I knew started to say things to me to make me upset. He knew me and Sarah weren't together somehow. It was probably obvious because we usually spend all our time together at school. I was so upset I went to confront Max and tell him what his problem was. He said " got dumped huh?" I started to clench my fist and couldn't help but to punch him right in his face. He flew about 10ft away from me and I could care less. I was so pissed I didn't care. People were gathered around looking at me like i was crazy. So I walked away and seen Sarah standing there looking at me with disgust in her face. I then knew that this was it. She was done I messed up. Later that night I called her and told her "Sarah i'm sorry Ill be a father figure, don't leave me ill do anything. Please come back to me. She replied  "Bye Josh, I will always love you" My heart was crushed It's over we were supposed to be together forever, I messed up, I cant believe this is happening right now.I text Sarah and I said ( please don't do this we were supposed to be together forever ) she replied (I know it hurts but you should have never said what you said about my son, its over i'm sorry Josh, just leave me alone. I never want to see you again). I never want to see you again!) I was heart broken, I missed her and anted her back. I think this is really over and I will never get back what we had. I screwed up everything how could I do this. I was so depressed, I did this, I t was really over. I guess all good things come to an end.