A light at the end of the tunnel

A possible mistake

Sarah's POV

A couple of weeks had passed and things between us were getting better and better and to be honest a little more heated and that was very hard us both. We couldn't help it we love each other so much and we had so much chemistry and we were getting weaker. It was a Saturday afternoon and me and Josh were going to an Angels game. My mom was going to watch Caleb as always, she was such a great help and wanted me to still experience being a teenager. But at times I think she lets me go out almost every night because she felt guilty, still blaming herself for me getting pregnant. So Josh comes to pick me up, me saying goodbye to Caleb and my mom. We head out and drive, Josh suddenly starts a conversation with me. He says " Hey I want to talk about something with you that i'm sure you already know." "I say "Josh I do know" "let me say it Josh" I said a bit hesitant. I then say "we have to stop kissing the way we do, its getting harder to resist you." He said " No, I was actually going to say i'm ready for my first time to be with you." I looked at him with a stunned look on my face. I say to him confused " why would you want to do that?" He says with a sigh " I love you and I know will be together forever, so why not?" I thought to myself did he just say will be together forever? I looked at him thinking he is the sweetest guy ever. I felt the same way.

We Finally arrived at The Angels stadium and he parks. He looked over at me and says " I want to do it tonight and I have a special place for us to do it." I look back at him and tell him " I don't think that's such a good idea." He then asks me "don't you want to?" I respond "of course I do, but I am willing to wait as long as it takes." "You said yourself, we will be together forever" Josh says back to me "I promise beautiful i'm ready now, I can't see doing this with anyone but you. I sighed and said "okay Josh if that's what you really want." So we shared a very sensual kiss and said to each other " we better go now" We headed towards the entrance and we head to our seats. It was really packed and it was sort of a hot day. A day I should had remembered to bring sunglasses. We take our seats and hold each others hands, watching the crowd with  the game about to start. We laugh and talk and watch the game having an awesome time. The game is almost over we look at each other and Josh yawns. I say "you tired already?" " I am , it was a good game but i'm ready to go" he said sighing. So I said "okay handsome lets go" we get out of our seats and start walking back to the parking lot. We get in the car and Josh asks me " you want to grab some food at our favorite place?" "yes please" I said smiling. We head to Taco Nazo and of course have another talk. Josh tells me " hey I want to take you to this place I love after we eat, is that okay?" I smiled at him and said laughing " you mean the place where you want me to take your virginity" He looks at me with  a stern look in his face and says " do you have to say it like that?" I said "sorry, I was just kidding with you" I kissed him on the cheek and said " yes we can go anywhere you want, after you feed me I'm starving"  He laughs and says " okay beautiful, I love you"

So we finished up eating, I was stuffed and so was Josh. He tells me " lets go beautiful" I bat my eyes at him and tell him "in a hurry for something?" He replies "yes, in a hurry to be with you alone" I smiled and we both head to the car. As were driving to this special place. I start to think where this place is and how this going to start out, will he be any good?  if he's not should I tell him? I had to pull myself together and stop over thinking like I do about everything. We start going up to the hills by where his house was. It was a windy road but the hills where tall and it seemed like we were going to the very top. I asked Josh " where are we going?" he says back " you'll see" I looked at him smiling. We finally get to basically the tip top of the hill. I was dark and and no one in sight. The stars where bright and so pretty. We park and get out of the truck. I went to him to hold his hand. I said to him " this place is amazing, I see why you like it up here." We start to kiss and the kiss gets harder and more sensual. He pushes me up against the truck lifting my leg up a bit. The kiss gets more intense and he moans and says " I f*****g love you" I said breathing a bit heavy " I love you too" He starts to take my shirt off and I Realized are we really going to this on the hood of the truck? So I just went with it, in that moment I wanted him really bad so it didn't matter. He continues to take all my clothes off and removing his. We are breathing heavily  and I see his p***s erected ready to put it in me. He knew I was on birth control so he didn't bother worrying about a condom. He slowly puts it in me and I moan. He was panting and grunting and soon after that he came in me making a loud grunting noise. I looked at him and thought to myself, that was fast. I didn't say anything, i just gave him a kiss and he says to me with a sad sigh "i'm sorry i was so quick, I couldn't help it." "That was great" I told him "that's okay, I love you Josh. We put our clothes on and suddenly I get this feeling coming over me. Did we make a mistake?