Luna Hawthorn

Chapter 2

Chapter 2.

I attempt to think of something to say as I lean forward, but I'm at a loss. I don't know how to comfort him. I am at a loss for words to comfort him; maybe he is expecting something else. Not in light of what I've recently seen. Nobody should have to go through what he is going through.

"I'm sorry, Jim," I murmur, and take his hand. "I wish I could do something to change things for you."

He smacks me across the back. "Thank you for coming with me today." Next, he lets go, letting it fall on the console in front of us.

"I know I've been acting weird around you," he says.

I notice how serious he seems to be when I look up at him. "Like what?"

"I'm not sure," is his response. But it appears like you are now avoiding me. I feel like you're so busy that I'm always getting in the way of your life. I'll now give you a little space. It's in our mutual best interests. In addition, feel free to contact me whenever you'd like to talk about anything on your mind."

I nod at him, understanding how much effort it's taking to break up with me. The problem is that I don't want it to stop. That's what I want—beside him. I doubt he feels the Jime way, though.

"When do you plan on going back home?" I ask in the hopes that he will say that he wants me to be in his life forever.

He smiled. "Hopefully not too soon. Refocusing the conversation, Jim says, "It's hard to see her like this, knowing that she's dying."

I say, "Soon," hoping that one day he'll agree to come with me to my house so I can be there for him when he needs me.

I spend most of the day at Jim's house hanging out. For the most part of our meeting, he talks about his sister, and even though I try to listen, my mind keeps going back to the last time I saw him, his lips on mine.and my jeans were soaked.

The whole time I was with him, his sister was on the couch, writhing and wailing. It breaks my heart to know he has to deal with this on his own. It seems that he is experiencing this alone and that no one is able to help him get through it. He's been dealt an unfair hand, and although I detest to say it, I can't imagine going through this alone. I would need someone to support me. I need someone to hold my hand and wipe my tears when I weep. I would need someone to reassure me that everything will be okay since they know it won't be okay.

I'm not sure if we'll ever see each other again. I'm not sure whether he even realises how much I respect him, let alone wants to be discovered. But at least I can sleep well knowing that he's safe in my arms tonight.

I'm very delighted for you. You've come a long way since you started your training. I'm in awe of what you are capable of these days. You're very organic. And you make me so happy. Just being here with you makes my day happier. You have my unwavering affection, master. I appreciate how you made me feel valued. Despite the fact that you are in another country, I know you are here with me. You've been the reason for my happiness for the past few weeks. One day, I hope we can get to spend more time together than just a week. Until then, I'll continue to put a lot of effort into my training and try my hardest to be the best servant for you.

I had a meeting with someone today! Her looks is amazing, despite her timidity. I think there could be an opportunity for us to work together. We had a lengthy conversation for hours, so I'm confident we click. Then, I'm going to speak with her tonight. I hope I have luck!

I hope you are well enough to receive my letter. I apologise for the delay in writing this. There has been a lot going on lately. I have to say, I'm enjoying myself at work. The people are amiable. I am still learning a lot. Additionally, it gives us plenty of chances to get to know one another.

To be honest, I was surprised when you asked me out last night. Really, I thought you were just being polite. After all, you did ask me out without really knowing who I was. But by the expression in your eyes, I knew immediately that you weren't playing around after dinner. I tried acting like I was not ready for anything important, but I could tell you weren't buying it.

You kissed me good night, and I wanted to kiss you back right now. When I woke up this morning, I could not stop thinking about you. I came into work early so that I could talk to you. You seemed to be somewhat distracted, so I've decided to give you some room. I knew that if I kept bothering you, you would get upset with me.

You know the terrible thing that happened to me in my previous relationship. I've always treasured my freedom, and I've been living alone for a while now. I don't want to put my career's enthusiasm at risk. I am aware, though, that dating involves more than just getting to know a person. It's also about having fun and appreciating life.

So, I'm here to ask for your feedback. I want to date you, but I don't think I should push it too far. I genuinely hope you can see things from my point of view.

I sorry for the wait for my letter response. I would have rather waited until we were a little more alone. I hope you received my last letter. I'm starting to fall for you, and I'm afraid I might be getting ahead of myself. Though we haven't been dating for very long, I worry that I won't be able to control myself if we start going out on a regular basis. I have no idea what to expect because I have never been in a relationship. If I am to take this seriously, I need to know that you are prepared to commit. I would rather keep things between us amicable.

Additionally, I have a question for you. How do you feel about making a commitment? Do you have any plans to settle down later on? Despite my youth, I do desire a spouse and children. I want to grow old with you. I want to watch our kids grow up. I want to laugh with you every day. As I meet your eyes, I want to see the man I adore. I want to know that you will be there for me when I most need you.

I'm hoping you can get what I mean. I don't want to bother you. I just want to know whether you're the one I should be with. Please let me know if I can ever be of any assistance to you. I anticipate hearing from you soon.

I haven't heard from you in days. Why is that? Have I scared you off? Do I fall short of your standards? Even though I told you I wasn't very good, I didn't expect you would run away. Are you angry with me? I sincerely hope not. I'm so sad about this. I fear that I am losing you. I wish you could read my mind so you could know how I really feel.

I can no longer take any more of this. That is what I want—beside you. To me, you are indispensable. I want to be close to you. I am not like the others. I'm different. I'm strong. I'm devoted. I've survived. I was intended to be with you. I know I seem silly, but I won't beg you to remain. I must wait patiently for you to express your desire for me.